Night Chat

Along Ima is turning 28 today (huhu..tua dah! ^-^) we had a cheese cake n milo n yes, everybody was around except for abang amir n lupi. It was a simple celebration but with people around made it a happening one. We chatted about memories of d past (when a.ima n a.aya were kids..n how a.aya n abg amir got their first steps).Yeah, this is what i really like.The conversation was so reminiscent of the childhood years. *Sweet*

Nazme is excited with his few steps of walking (cam itik..hehe) n i am annoyed with dat budak kecik. I dunno why but he seems not to like me as he really does to icah n anid. That is so not fair!!!! I mean, i'm the one who gets him bathed, prepares his meals, makes the milks, gets him to sleep EVERY SINGLE DAY.Yet, he never appreciate me for babysitting him (as if i got nuthing else to do!) 'Ala..dia kan budak kecik lagi'..Yea, thanx dad for reminding me =| Urgh, he's really an attention seeker!!!~ But no matter how he hates me, he's d one who always lighten up my days =) Time flies so fast.Two months to go, Nazme n u're gonna be a big-one-year-old boy =b

Expactations

I am always expected
to be someone else,
to go the other way
and not be myself.

I am always expected
to change who I am,
to always push myself
and raise the bar.

I am always expected
to do better every day,
cuz average is not good enough
but maybe that is where I want to stay.

I am always expected
to live life as a bore,
but what of my expectations
don't they matter anymore.

I only expect myself
to get up every day,
to keep moving on
but live my way.

I dont want any expectations
I want to be myself,
so please..let me be who I am
cuz I dont want to be like everyone else.

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from left: lupi, abang amir n daddy cookie ^~^ at angah aya's wedding (anid menyebok kat blkg tu!spoiler!~)

.H.E.R.O.

weehooo!!~ive passed d driving test n now i'm free to use d car n cant wait to 'meronggeng'..hehehe..poyo je..nway, d day dat ive been dreading all dis while had finally over..yep, with a 'P' license in my hand is actually cool for the moment n being an unofficial driver for my dad,mum n dat those kiddos kat rumah is actually tiring..heheh..but it's fine tho..dat was wut lupi had been confronted two years before =p

juz got home from PD..my mum's faculty was helding a family day with plenty fun activities such as dart competition, sukaneka (?) n so on but alas, i didnt even participate in any of those..heheh..penat n malas n 'tak kuase' bak kate dad..heheh..well,im not dat sporting to join dat kinda thingy..having d breakfast, lunch n dinner was ok (ngehehe..) but to participate in wut, sukaneka???huhuhu..no thanx..maybe next time..met zamir (my junior back then in primary skewl..he's charming,seriously..never thot i would say dat..hehe) n several budak bangi dat i recognise..all in all, d family day was ok..

anyway, last two days, along ima came by to finish up dat 'bunga pohor' for abg amir's wedding dis april..yep, i was, am n will 'forever' be along ima's attention to help her doing that meticulous thingy..leceh giler!!anid n icah mmg x boleyh harap..they're such a goof-off!!especially icah laa..nway, wif mum n along ima beside, they started to chat bout life as a doctor, along ima's experiences working in d new hosp, gorgeous n handsome medical assistants n bla bla..n not to forget, they talked about 'boyfriend'..urggh,dunno why but dat topic really makes me sick..ive had enuf..well,for d moment tho..a.ima told me dat its time for me to be an adult (tanak!!!x puas jadik kiddo kat rumah!!) i mean, to look forward and ponder about my future life..well, without any good reasons, recently, mum started to talk to me about having a bf..she said, after this, i'm gonna further my studies on medicine for like wut, 7 years?? so, shes kinda risau if i get married lambat2..(ish,teruk betul english..hampeh!) n i wus like 'mum..dina baru je habis spm..takkan nak pikir pasal ni kot?result pon x kluar lagi..degree pon x start lagi!!!!! (yep,of course in a polite way lorh!duh!~) n she said 'sekrg ni kan org main chop2'..'wut d hell on earth is 'chop2'???' a little voice raced thru the back of my head..pethatic..i really am..i think i'm d only girl on earth who has a really bad opinion on having a bf..well actually, to be honest to myself, i am quite choosy especially on this kinda stuff..i mean, choosing a partner for the rest of my life is not a simple thing to do..ok, let me be straight..i want sumone who's undertsanding, good-looking, medical student would be better, funny, loves laughing out loud (gosh dat is the most relaxing thing to do!) n of course filthy rich (a bmw z4 for my wedding hantaran is enuf ^~^)!!!hahahaha..anyone interested??well, i noe, nobody is perfect n i myself is not perfect..in fact, perfectly imperfect..but i juz need some times to find the right guy n it's juz not a suitable time yet..i need to enjoy a lil bit more n hav my teenagers years go the way that i want..'i noe it's too early for you tapi ko ni kan dina, kena laa peramah sket n buat2 bodoh (hahaha..there is a story beyond dat phrase)..jangan laa sombong je..ko ni mesti nak org yg lagi hebat dr ko kan??' that was one of d scripts frm a.ima..yep, perhaps i am looking for d perfectly-perfect guy..well, juz like i said, this stuff really makes me sick..i had one before but things had gone in a wrong way..i myself never ask for it..i think, having my dad, abang amir n lupi is enuf to be d heroes of my life..but yeah, d time will come..oh forgot to mention!!! nazme haniff is my hero as well =))

at last..

yay..after ive been reading people's blog, i found it's quite interesting to hav my own blog where i can write anything i want and express my feeling without care of wut other people would say..well yeah, people would definitely hav their own opinion about sumthing but hey, make up ur own blog then!..i'm just trying to explore sumthing new yet can give me sumthing good in return which is a way for myself to improve my life..anyway,the blogs that ive been visiting almost like everyday have actually given me some new hope to go on with my life.. they wrote bout their life studying in overseas, how they interact with people from all races, about their experiences which actually make me into it..at least i'm trying to learn sumthing new..sumthing that maybe i'll be facing in the future..i dont want to tell who are the people that i've been reading their blogs all this while but they are really sumwhat an inspiration.. well, doing nuthing at home is absolutely sickening me day by day..so,perhaps by having a blog could help me in a way to entertain myself..yep yep..i think dat is all by now..yyayay!!here's my first post..heheh =p