Be All Eyes

It's raining outside. And lightning keeps striking and whopping. I know it's not good to use the computer during this situation but it doesnt look that bad outside. Heh.. And it makes me thought of the syllabus that I learned in the Physics class when Cikgu Rahimy called out my name "Rushdina, kalau tak tgk buku Fokus tu boleh faham tak camne kilat boleh berlaku?". "Errr... *stutters*". Heheh..Ok, stop there. Dont have to make headway with it =P

And suddenly, I came across the different strokes of lightning in the internet. And I thought of sharing this eventhough it's not that informative. But it does make my brain works. Partially though.

Ball lightning occurs after a ground flash. The ball is usually red, orange, or yellow. It can be as small as a grapefruit or as big as a pumpkin. After briefly hovering above the ground or darting wildly about, the lightning ball fizzles out—or ends with a startling BANG!

Cloud lightning never strikes the earth.

Spider Flashes of spider lightning crawl across the sky for up to 90 miles.

Actually it comes with pictures but I still couldnt put them here. Should learn more about blogging.

Anyway, two days ago I went to a wedding occasion in TTDI with Mum and Dad for the nikah and then Angah Aya, Abg Azam, Lupi and Anid came afterwards for the reception. It was ok, not very crowd and the compound was just nice. The food was superb. The roast lamb was fantastic. And the view was pretty picturesque too.

You know TTDI, big and beautiful houses and wondrous CARS like BMW. I have to say that I saw a z4 for the first time of my life with my own two eyes, LIVE. Hehe.. I was captivated by the car. I was speechless and promptly gave a message to anid. It was really mind-blowing. Ish, jakun betul. Heh..

I started to wonder, how much does it cost if you possess a huge and gargantuan house and a z4. Owh, it doesnt stop there. There's still another new 5 series. And heck, an x3 as well!! And a new honda stream. Geez, that dandy must be a millionaire and stinking rich too. Hmm..rezeki masing2 laa.. But all in all, it was a sight for sore eyes.

Revenge is Sweet?

Izy just dropped by to say that she's not going to Langkawi for the results. How sad I am to hear that. I've been waiting like ages to see her and have fun in Langkawi but in vain. Damn intec!! Why should they stucked the students in and not releasing them for the results announcement? How cruel it can be. After all, the students really need a break. At least for a couple of days before the results been released. To boot, student like Izy still can cope with the syllabus if she missed the classes. Heck, she's a fulltime four flatter student. Cant she get a day off at least? Pathetic...

Regardless about Izy, I added in a friend in friendster the other day. And that SO-CALLED FRIEND didnt approve my request. Pity me *weeps* Hahahaha.. "Dont blame me if I end up hating you." I dont have to blame anybody and yea, go ahead. You have every right to complain. The person does not mince words, calling me a liar or backstabber. As if I care. Well, if you're reading this, buddy, I'd say good job. At least you're trying to keep your words. Just keep a civil tongue in your head ok!

I dont know what is wrong with that person. I dont even care. I admit, I've done something sinful to him but I am at all sorry for what I have done and I am full of apologies though and he seems like ignoring me and gives a i-dont-care-about-you-anymore-and-i-have-a-great-life-without-you- and-piss-off act. Perhaps he doesnt recognise me anymore? Ye la tu..Hahah..Or is he trying to exact a revenge on me? If so, have he ever heard of an adage goes 'revenge is sweet'? Or maybe, does he think by doing that makes me feel like a freak? Whatever, I dont give a damn. If he thinks so, then he is totally wrong.

Ok, I dont want to babble about a 'stranger'. Let he leads his own life and yea, he has nothing to do with me anymore. I guess so. And by the way stranger, if you're reading this, do leave a 'foot print' ok? Just want to make sure that you get the message. And yea, extand my regard to your friend too. And if you are offended, I am so sorry. Never meant to be so. Life sometimes can be very unpredictable.

Anyhow stranger, here's your favourite band, Dashboard Confessional eh? Thanx for introducing the band to me. Kind of you *winks* Enjoy yourself ok!

An Unexpected Package

Bismillahir Rahmanir Rahim; In The Name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful
By: Shaikh Muslim Bhanji

A young man was getting ready to graduate college. For many months he had admired a beautiful sports car in a dealer's showroom, and knowing his father could well afford it, he told him that was all he wanted. As Graduation Day approached, the young man awaited signs that his father had purchased the car. Finally, on the morning of his graduation his father called him into his private study.

His father told him how proud he was to have such a fine son, and told him how much he loved him. He handed his son a beautiful wrapped gift box. Curious, but somewhat disappointed the young man opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Holy Qur'an. Angrily, he raised his voice at his father and said, "With all your money you give me a Holy Qur'an?" and stormed out of the house, leaving the holy book.

He never contacted his father again for long long time. Many years passed and the young man was very successful in business. He had a beautiful home and wonderful family, but realized his father was very old, and thought perhaps he should go to him. He had not seen him since that graduation day.

Before he could make arrangements, he received a telegram telling him his father had passed away, and willed all of his possessions to his son. He needed to come home immediately and take care things. When he arrived at his father's house, sudden sadness and regret filled his heart. He began to search his father's important papers and saw the still new Holy Qur'an, just as he had left it years ago. With tears, he opened the Holy Qur'an and began to turn the pages. As he Read those words, a car key dropped from an envelope taped behind the Holy Qur'an. It had a tag with the dealer's name, the same dealer who had t! he sports car he had desired. On the tag was the date of his graduation, and the words PAID IN FULL.

The Holy Prophet [s] said: There comes no night but that the angel of death calls to the dead in the graves and inquires what they regret for today when they have vividly seen (and known) this (the next life). Then the dead will say: "Verily, we regret and envy the believers who are in their mosques and they are praying while we are not; they give alms and we do not; they fast during Ramadan but we do not; they donate in charity what they have more than the need of their family members while we do not; ..."

Irshad-ul-Qulub, p.53

A gentle reminder - How many times do we miss GOD blessings because they are not packaged as we expected?

There Is A Need

It has been a very long time since I stepped out my examination Hall and I've been falling into a deep trance ever since. Otak pun dah berkarat. Anid asked me something about science the other day.

Anid: Dina, what are the functions of the heart?
Me: Heart is hati kan?Wait..or is it jantung?
Anid: No, it's paru-paru! *gives me an odd stare*
Me: Ok, dont fool me plz.I'm confused!
Anid: Err..ok, I should ask Dad then.

Hahahah..And now, waiting for the result is totally loathsome and I hate that feeling. It keeps preying on my mind and Mum always said "Doa je la. As long as you've tried your best, tawakkal je laa." And rumours about the announcement are going around and that makes me fear the worst.

Everytime I think about this, I always wonder, what am I actually going for in life. I have my own goals and I have something to pursue but then, does school prepare people like me for the real world? I mean, I want to be a doctor therefore I took biology instead of RC or LK or PA but WHY and WHY and WHY do I need something that has nothing to do with medicine like Physics and EST and Chemistry and History and the list goes on. Why dont I just focuse on Biology and dont have to whirl my mind with something that I dont like? Ok, I do like Physics and Chemistry because the teachers are great but cant I just have them for fun? And why do I have to take all the ten subjects for my spm? Ok, I really dont get it.

I've been in Langkawi for two years and I ought to say that I was having a reaaaaaaaaally superb and splendid time there. The teachers are fantastic, the students are bombastic and gempak gile and I struggled to be amongst them. I had to 'pulun' everytime there was a kuiz or selaras or semester exams and so on. And I did pulun not to only get good grades but also to maintain my CGPA and mind you, it was not a simple thing to do. Just like I said, why do I have to spend more time on Add Maths and other subjects rather than Biology? Because I need to make sure that I get straight A's for my exam so that MARA would happily give me a scholarship? And why is that?

Does a doctor need to do what Physicists do? Does a Lawyer need to operate people? Does a cook need to build a dwelling? Get what I mean?

These things dont bother me when I was a kid but since I read the Rich Dad Poor Dad books, I keep pondering over my future life and try to comprehend what is actually happening around me. What Robert said in his books is absolutely true;

'One day, my children came home disillusioned with school. He was bored and tired of studying. "Why should I put time into studying subjects I will never use in real life?" and I responded "Because if you dont get good grades then you wont get into college". "Regardless of whether I go to college. I'm going to be rich". "If you dont graduate from college, you dont get a good job and how do you plan to get rich?"

"Mom," he began. It was my turn to be lectured. "Get with the times! Look around; the richest people didnt get rich because of their educations. Look at Michael Jordan and Madonna. Even Bill Gates, who dropped out of Harvard, founded Microsoft; he is now the richest man in America and he is still in his 30s. . . . . . .I need new answers." He was right'

That was brief but the message is clear. Once I read the book, I thought of stop studying and I wanted to build up a business and be rich as soon as possible. But it is RIDICULOUS and doesnt make any sense! And I almost forgot that all I've been going for since I was a kid is to be a doctor. And I kept asking to myself "Bill Gates flunked but he still can be the richest man in America. Why cant I excell in studies and use my knowledge to be one of the richest people?"

I dont know. It has been there inside my mind since years ago. And all I can do is just try my best in any way possible. There's an adage taken from the book "If you think it's risky, then it will be". So, the best thing I could ever do is trust in myself and believe that I will be somebody in the future. And I prayed to God and always hope that I will get the best for myself.

'Be the trend setter. Not the trend follower' -Aimran

'I have faith in you. I know you will always be the best. Aku tak kisah pun Taiping kalah dengan Langkawi. Hahaha..' -Afar

'Just trust and believe in yourself whatever it would take. If you dont believe in yourself, why should anyone else?' -Me

People Come, People Go

Ask yourself, what would you do if you wake up in the morning and ferret out that your loved one has gone? How do you feel if..

• You were idly waiting outside the OT, praying and hoping that your loved one will gonna make it. But unfortunately, when the Doctor stepped out of the OT, he heaved a sigh of disappointment while shaking his head and said "Sorry, we've tried our best. He couldnt make it."?
• You were preparing for a birthday celebration for your loved one and suddenly you received a shocking phone call "I'm sorry to tell you this, but your loved one has involved in a car accident and he has a very slim chance to live."?
• You had a falling-out with your fiance on the phone while he was driving and suddenly a terrible thing happened and all you can hear from the distance was just a scream and a bang?
• The one that you loved and cared about, who taught you a lot about life, whom you always turned to whenever you feel down, who would lift you up when you feel you were a total failure, who had taught you how to shoot some pool, who had taught you how to arrange strategies in battle and the one that you once placed in your heart had gone away forever from your life?
  

Everything happens with reasons. And we have to accept no matter what. That's how the life goes. We dont always get what we want. But all the charming and perfectly divine moments will be forever called to mind.

Thanx for everything, bro. May God guides you on the right path and bless you through all the years..

Strange Crackers

I'm listening to Bedshaped by Keane now. And thanx to the song for putting me in a gay mode. And I'm really really in a good mood. Oh no, somebody must have put me in drugs because I'm really intoxicated!! Owh yeah! I can feel the rising of happiness inside! *dances and frolics with joy* Yet, I'm missing someone. Wish he could be juz beside me now and the whole dull day of his would definitely turn into a good one =)

Well, something technically wrong happened in blogger "We apologize for the inconvenience, but we are unable to process your request at this time. Our engineers have been notified of this problem and will work to resolve it." Yea, thanx a lot Mr.Blogger! I feel like using Xanga right this second. This aggro really bored stiff! But thanx to David Bowman for inventing this blacky template (It does alleviate my not-very-good mood though). I have to say that I'm a total failure at hosting so better grab this one than none *grins*

Drove off to Banting on Friday evening with Dad to fetch Lupi and some of his friends."Dina, nanti drive to Banting ambik abg Pi.Ade kawan dia nak tumpang sekali" mum asked me before I pulled off to Fasa 4. "Owh, no problem!!!Who are the friends? Please say it's Sxxxxx or Axxxxx!!" (Urggh, cut it off, Dina!) Duh! I didnt say that out loud, or Mum will definitely kill me! Just a whisper wafted through at the back of my head *winks*

When my family were back there in UK (I was in Langkawi), I ought to spend most of my holidays with Lupi and his friends. Mind you, that was not a good thing because most of them have no sense of humor at all!! Just imagine how offensive they were when I said something 'humiliating' (I cant really recall BUT IT WAS NOT FUNNY!) and they were pissing themselves laughing!! And with that hoity-toity faces, I felt really left out. But somehow, 'A' really strucked my mind. He once asked me "Dina, kau suke lelaki yg kelakar ke yang jiwang?"..."I like sumone exactly like you!!" And I'll kill myself if I really poured them out (Or did I??) Hahahah..

One day, on a very wonderful morning, while having a breakfast at my house;
A: Nice 'nasi goreng' we have here. Sedap laa auntie buat (Me: Oh my God!!! He better take the words back! Somebody please get me out of here!!)
Mum: Eh, tak laa. Tu Dina yang buat (Me: Ok, I'm gonna get a gun and shoot myself down!)
A: Owh, ye ke *with a blushing face* (I tried so hard to shun myself from hearing what he's going to say next by scrumbles up the stairs. And I couldnt help myself but laughing out loud. Hahahaha!!!! That was not a happy thing but embarrassing instead. Kesian.. Heheh)

Other people might think that was a real sheepish moment one could ever have been in but you know what, the guy is really 'sporting' and 'selamba' so I dont think he considered that as embarrassing. Perhaps he felt a tinge of shameful but hey, that wasnt so bad though. Owh, I should have thanked him for praising my good cook *prouds*

And talking about Mr.S, I couldnt find any interesting scene to share. But I have to say that he really fascinated me with his cute smile *beams*. Ok, you got the permision to say "Eee, gediknye budak ni". Go ahead, and you will find you're hiting back yourself! Wham! Hahahah.. It's just how the life goes. People always get attracted with beautiful things so I couldnt get the blame could I? Hehe.. And the way he layan kerenah of that little boy Nazme, I have to say that he's gonna be a good father one day =) Owh, and he got a younger brother in Langkawi (again, I feel like walloping myself for wasting my chance to get to know that so-not-famous kiddo who is a brother of a cute guy! Heheh..Ok, cut it off!)

But nooooooooooooo..Neither Mr.A nor Mr.S came for a lift. Pitty me. Damn! Then what's the point of showing off my driving skill to somebody I dont even care to look at??! Hahahah.. Ok, that was tacky. Sorry ye En. Farhan *grins with sparkling eyes*

Ok, regarding all of the above, I certainly ain't trying to flaunt or whatever - nothing could have been further from my thoughts. 'A' already has a girlfriend and 'S' is not doing medicine <--is that acceptable?? *smirks* I wont take it seriously, it's just for fun. So, stop heaping criticism on people, ok!

.........I feel like sleeping now (and the image of 'the person' keeps lingering around my head. I am really not pleased to dream of him because I hate to end my beautiful dreams in the morning.) Whatever.. After all, I'm at the end of my tether. zZzzZz..

The First Rivalry On The Road

This morning, I sent anid to school. And since Along Ima had her shift through out the night, Abg Norman asked somebody to pick Nazme up at Seksyen 8 (perhaps he was running late and had no time to drop by) so, I drove off.

On my way back home, I drove as I supposed to drive. "Do not speed" that was what Dad always said before I pull off. In an attempt at speeding, I tried not to go over the speed limit. "Dont go over 80. 90 is the max"..Yes, Dad.

And suddenly, out of nowhere, a Kancil tried to overtake my car so I kept my car on the left lane. And after that, it started to slow down and the car drifted to left without any signal, and positioned just in front of my car. I thought it would speed up but it didnt!! It kept on the speed of 40 or 50km/h whereas I was speeding up to 80. I was like "Wut the hell?? Tadi nak overtake sangat, pastu tibe2 je slow down."

That blardy Kancil really pissed me off. So I started to speed up to 100km/h and overtook the car. And as I tried to outdistance, the car began to accelerate, as if it wouldnt let me to overtake it. What was up with that?? What was HER problem?

But finally, I won!! Hahahah.. Gulp! The speed was up to 120km/h!! Needless to say that I wasnt on a highway so I should have been summoned but it was early in the morning, no police around. Heh..Yea yea, I might seem over-excited and hyped up and poyo and menggelabah with that silly little race but hey, that was my first rivalry on the road, man! If Dad knew this, he definitely wont let me drive on my own. So, better keep it secret. Shhh.. :-x Hahah..

Can CLK ever beat a BMW? Haha..It's not impossible for Mercedes CLK but if it's 'Cute Little Kancil', hmm, you better think twice or perhaps thrice. Heh.. No offence!

Aimran: Tau tak ade orang belaja driving naik CLK tau!
Me: Tipuuuuuuuu! Mane ade org lesen L bawak CLK.
Aimran: Bukan Mercedes CLK la! It's 'Cute Little Kancil'.

Hahaha.. Thanx for the idea, mate! Ok, I need to prepare Nazme's breakfast.

Alteration

Ok, I think some alterations to this forlorn blog might be necessary. At least, in a way, it could change my mood a bit. Black is cool isnt it? I think so. I thought of using this template in the first place but dunno why the blue one attracted me more than the black one. But yes, the black one finally got my pick. To boot, this particular template reminds me of somebody but lets not get to the introduction of the person.

Anyway, I've got a splitting headache since 3 or 4 days ago. I dont know what is wrong but I keep feeling like banging my head on the wall!! I've told Along Ima bout this and all she said was "Ko x cukup tido kot" whereas I've been sleeping like a whole day!!

Ok, so maybe it's because of an excessive sleep. But I didnt sleep that much tho. Most of the day, averagely I sleep at 1 am and wake up at 645 for Subuh prayer and stay awake until 2 or 3 pm and after that I take a couples of hour or so for a nap. Is that much? I think it's a fixed routine. Or perhaps there's a growth or something in my brain? Or am I suffering from migraine without my knowledge? Hahaha.. banyak lak songeh. I have no idea. Only God knows.

Anyway, I was quite surprised when I received a friend request in Friendster from Sephia, Aimran's former classmate. She's pretty and charming I have to say but her attempt of adding me in was actually quite stupefied me. But not that serious tho. She's cool and sounds serene so, befriended her would be a pleasure.

And talking about Aimran, he has just gone back to France last saturday and most probably will be back to Malaysia in July for his brother's wedding. He keeps telling me about his birthday present that he'll claim this march but heck, it's the latest 3series BMW!!! I repeat, the latest 3series BMW! That is soo not fair. I mean, he's just one year older than me and he's possessing a nearly-1million car!! Rezeki dia, biar laa... Lucky Intan.. Eheh..

Arggh..my headache is sickening!! I better need go to sleep. I'll write more soon. Adios!~

Just A Thought

"Aku tgh lepak ngan mmbr2 aku. Jap lagi nak pegi bemain muzik and then pegi main basketball. Heheh.. Life is great!" -Afar

"Mum dgr so-and-so dah jadik chairman (or something like that) Proton in Norwich. Amir cakap elaun die je pon dah 600pounds (or perhaps 6000pounds?? T_T )." -Mum

"Dina, ko rase Dad nak bace tak buku ni, 'Being Employed and Millionaire'. Aku letak je la atas meja Dad. Tapi Dad mesti tanak bacanye." -Anid

"Hahaha..Listen, I got this benda bodoh from the net; 'One of the reasons Andy is playing so well is that, before the final round, his wife takes out his balls and kisses them...Oh my God, what have I just said?' Ko rase tennis commentator tu dapat extra payment from Andy tak?Bodoh gile!" -Sya

"Dr. so-and-so punye medical assistant sume handsome2. Kat hospital Putrajaya tu pon medical assistant boleh tahan gak. Nasib baik laa handsome, nak marah pon x jadik." -Along Ima

"Khazanah Nasional Bhd. called me up the other day. Diorg ade share dengan Petronas and MAS. They asked me if I want to be the replacement for so-and-so after his retirement of being CEO of Petronas." -Aimran

"Nazme dah besar dah. Kejap je rase. Nanti mesti miss mase die kecik2 kan?" -Dad

"So-and-so tu tinggi lebih kurang Dad. Muka dia cam Chelsea dalam cite Raven. Dia tau main gitar. Dia dapat pegi Queen Mary. Dia itu..dia ini.." -Lupi (There are always compliments for people that we admire or have a crush on. Is it fair?)

"Saya sudah semakin besar dan macho. Gigi saya macam Spongebob. Saya juga semakin mengada2. Dah nak pandai jalan dah!! Tak lame lagi boleh melarikan diri dari Mak Na (T_T) Nanti dah tak payah nak kepung kat depan tv. Hahahaha..Saya berbangga dengan diri saya." -Nazme (Hahahaha..ok, I made it up =b)

Valentine

So, regarding about that, what do you suppose I would write in here? A poem to my lover? Or a nugget of beautiful moment when I first met my dazzling partner? Or what?

What would you think if a person havnt ever celebrated a valentine? Well, what would a valentine suppose to be actually?

- "Gradually, February 14 became the date for exchanging love messages and St. Valentine became the patron saint of lovers. The date was marked by sending poems and simple gifts such as flowers.There was often a social gathering or ..bla..bla.." -

Owh, is that all? No, seriously I dont really have any idea about this so can anybody enlighten me? Because I am a bit confused when some people are actually celebrating this so-called Valentine's Day not only on this particular day but almost everyday!! Send their loved ones with sweet poems (or perhaps 'goodnight wish' would be exact?) and those 'jiwang' messages through out the day. Owh, and that is not enough. They probably put the same picture that they share in Friendster (which I found really TACKY!!!!!) And I hate that, seriously. But again, yea, who cares?? None of my business for God's sake! Hahah..

Anybody get offended?? Well, you should. How did they do that actually?? Dont they get bored and blaséd about all those rinky-dink thingy?

If I say I dont celebrate the day, people might say I dont have anybody to celebrate with (which I certainly wont give a damn) but if I say I do celebrate it, people might also say 'buat ape laa nak sambut valentine. bukan ke salah di sisi Islam?' So, what the right answer should be then?

Whatever it is, just wanna say have a nice Valentine's Day to those who celebrate it. May you will always held by happiness and joviality. Cheers!~

I Can`t Let Them See

In the day I hide my pain
But at night I let it drain
On my pillow are a million tears
It has dried them up for too many years
Every day I dry my eyes
Hide my pain , swallow my cries
Just when I think it can't get worse
There is yet another curse
When you see me all is well
In my soul hides a story to tell
No one can know
What I don't let show
So when you look at me you will see
I am happy, that is me

As far as I've been looking for the right poem to define my real personality, I might say this is the one.

To Izy, Aimi, Hanim, Yah and Syira.. Remember when you guys passed my biology revision book all way down through the lecture hall? I knew you guys were about to joke around but not until Cikgu Asmah stepped in for a lecture and my book was hell out of my sight.

To be frank, I was fumed and really ticked off!! But then, I stayed calm and cool, threw my cheesy grin and cold stare, didnt show my resentment off. I was stunned. Really. I mean, I was in the mood in the first place to be in the lecture hall to learn sumthing on BIOLOGY (which supposedly students would put their eyes off to sleep. But yea, not during C.Asmah's lecture.Heheh..) and you guys just screwed everything up! What was that actually? An infliction or sumthing?

Believe me, if I were given another chance to be in that particular situation, I would certainly squawking or even worse, snarling at you guys "Wut the hell are you trying to do??? Give me back the book!!! Right this sec!!!!!!! On the count of 1!!!" Hahahahah..

But no. I wasnt and wont ever snarling at you guys. I dunno why but maybe I was born to make people happy especially to those that I love and care of. Their happiness is my happiness. I dont mind being sad or upset but I just cant see people that I love in the doldrums.

My other best friend, Tikah used to tell me "Dina, I havent seen you crying even in the worse situation people could ever been in.Cam ne ek agaknye kalau awak nangis?". And to my egoism, I replied "Nangis?" as though I couldnt find the word in dictionary. Hahahah.. But late at night, I prayed to God, to give me strength to lead on my life in the right path. That was when my family were back there in UK and I had nobody to rely on. I kept crying every single night, missing my family. But yea, she didnt know. Nor anybody. (Unless you read this, yes, you finally know).

I told Izy bout that. About how I really felt in the lecture hall. And she was like "Dina, sorry laa. Kitorg saje je nak main2. Tak sangka awak marah sangat. Apsal tak marah je?" I wanted to say "I can't" but instead, "Memang tak marah pon. Saje je buat muke seposen yang kebosanan". But she knew though how mad I was. Eversince, she kept saying "Kalau marah luahkan tau!!! Jangan nak buat muke seposen je". Hahahah.. Miss you Izy.. I truly am..

New Hairdo =b

Hello big boy =b Main seruling ape..

This happens when u're held by boredom and a camera is in ur hand.Hehe..

True or Fake

Since I've posted sumthing about 'boyfriend' the other day, a friend of mine asked me "Dina, ko tanak ke 'carik' bf or sumthing. Dulu ko ckp kat hafiz ure too young to think about it. But now ure 18 and ure starting to get urself into the real world." She stopped for a respond. 1..2..3..4..5 minutes we were in a silent mode. I didnt say a word until she finally said "Helloo..say sumthing!"

You know why I didnt answer that silly question? Bcoz I'm afraid I would end up snarling at her and she really ticked me offff! If I were about to answer, I'd rather say "It's none of ur business and you dont have to busy yourself about me and PISS OFF!!"

I tell you wut, firstly, I wont never ever gonna 'carik' a bf (until I'm desperate enough to get married or sumthing). If it's there, it's there. The time will come. Secondly, 18 is not the right age for me to 'carik' sumone. I'll attest to the veracity of the statement about getting myself into the real world but that doesnt mean I have to WASTE my time looking for a bf. Helllooo..Wut is up with that???! I have loads and tonnes of other things to look up for.

I've come across a blog and a bulletin in friendster discussing sumthing about Love and Relationship. I know, I supposedly not to read this kinda stuff since I seem to resent all about this but who cares. I've been in it and I need to know other people's opinion about it. I cant say much anything about love and relationship from my pov. Duh! Like I know anything. There was a person asking me a stupid question, "Dina, I know u're a hustler in studies and friendship and and bla bla..But isnt there anything that u're stupid in?" Well, I refused to answer in the first place since the person used the word 'stupid' there but then, I simply said "Love?"

Anyway, the blog discuss sumthing about why do certain people decided to be single instead of being in relationship. And the blogger gave a list. I have to say 90% of them are exactly wut I'm gonna say if I were asked the same question. "I'm not ready yet. Too young" and "The right guy/girl/time has not arrived" and "I have fabulous family and friends" and whatnot and bla bla..It's true isnt it? In a way, yes..

And the bulletin in friendster, it says sumthing about fake relationship. It's all about people nowadays who would simply pick anybody up to be his/her partner instead of getting to know the person first. Well, to me, this kinda people I dunno, shall I say desperate???? Yes, they are. I mean, how can you spend most of your time with strangers? That sounds a bit awkward tho. It doesnt matter if the guy/girl is a jerk (euphemism is used!) as long as they have somebody in mind, to talk to in the middle of the night, to say 'I love u' to, to care of, to hang out with and bla bla..Geez, that's scary. Hahaha..Pitty them for being in a fake relationship but wut the heck, it's their life, it's their way to live, it's their decision and yes, it's totally none of my business.

I know, different people have various and different opinion especially about this run-of-the-mill thingy. I dont say people in relationship are desperate or unhappy. It's just happen to those who think they really are. Some people think being single is pathetic and rueful and unhappy. They might say "Alaa, cakap je laa you cant get a guy/girl or tak laku". Say wutever you want. It's everybody's right to say. Some people think being in relationship doesnt mean both of them are happy. It depends. But to me, being single or not doesnt give any harm. Just go for the one that you love, if there's any. Fall in love with the person, not with the love itself.

Two days ago or so, Mum asked Lupi when does he want to get married and he said 30?? As if!!!!! Hahahaha.. Well, that's Lupi. Always being poyo in front of the family. Heheh.. I know he already has sumone in mind but it's his thing, so juz leave it. And Angah Aya suddenly said "Dina, ko kena kahwin by the age of 23 or 24," and I was like "KENA?" And they (Mum, Along Ima and Angah Aya and Lupi tooo!) started to plan up my future! "Nanti ko kahwin laa dgn ur senior ke..Time tu mesti dah jadik Medical Officer ke..Senang sikit" and Lupi was saying "Kalau dah x de sape2 sgt, ko ambik je kawan2 aku yg doctor2 tu"..And I was like..."Wut the hell is happening here??!".. What I'm trying to say here is, were they asking me to just pick up anybody when the time has reach the climax which I dont have anyone in mind?? Mana aci!!

The time will come, dina. Dont have to rush. Just be cool ^-^ If anyone ask me "Then, who'll be the person for you to talk to in the middle of the night?" -Sya. Or any of my friends. "Then, who'll be the person for you to take care of?" -Nazme? (Miss him so much!! I bet he's enjoying his time at Bukit Tinggi with Abg Norman's family.Heheh..) "And who'll be the person for you to say 'I love u so much. We will always be together until death do us apart' to?" -Mum and Dad.

Wut's Up?

Orise! I've been moody and gloomy for days. Well, bothering myself about sumthing that I don't like is pretty painful. So, wut's up world??!

Anyway, anid said this guy got a 'gay' appearance. I dont know which part. Perhaps the way he sings or dances. But wut the heck, his song really get me into beat! This one particular song apparently. 'Alright' and 'When I Get You Alone' are quite within earshot too. Well, those three are all I've listened to tho. Better get a cd. Hehe.. Yay!!~ I love this song. Let's get rollin'!

Artist: Thicke
Song: Brand New Jones

Some like to keep heat on
Some never hot enough
See I sleep with nothing on
Cuz I'm always burnin up
But we all wanna try
To see each other's side
And I'll try
Til she takes my pillow

Mmm
She'll say I'm lucky
She'll say I'm the man
We'll talk on for hours
As long as I understand
I'd go on without her see see but everyday
ain't the same
ain't the same
ain't the same
I feel like a puppy when I get time to play

I've got a brand new jones
And nobody even knows
When my baby is gone
It's my thang, my thang
Sometimes I can't let go
So I've got to be alone
When my baby is gone
It's my thang, my thang alone

Some like a sweet romance
And some wanna travel far
But I like a three point stance
And I hate to drive my car
But I'd go round the world
Just to please my girl and I'll fly
if she takes my pillow

So why don't I just
Save time and reveal now
Cuz sooner or later she'll know the deal
She'll wonder why the bed jumps so high
When she sleeps at night
oh yeah yeah

People's Mind

I need smorgasbord of reasons why do certain people have guts to talk shit bout their good friends behind their back. Yes, people do that and be frank to yourself, who doesnt? Praise yourself if u dont. But on the matter of fact, I honestly do talk behind people's back but never to my good friends. I dont talk behind people's back for no reasons. At least it's a way to improve myself. Not to mortify people. They pretend that everything is working out perfectly and after they reach the truth, they simply stab their good friends in the back. If anyone who reads this get offended, I'd say go to hell! Get yourself the finger mate! And a kick in the ass too! This kind of people never deserve to live even a sec on this so-called world. Get a life!

Ah well, people might think I'm the worst blogger ever and believe it or not, I really dont give a damn. I try to use it as good as I can. Anyway, I took several minutes or so reading people's blog and what I found in each of them were heaps of matters but I really couldnt find any good about them except for one (I had written about Rom's xanga the other day). From thousands (never found that much tho *wink*) of blogs that I read, I would say 50% of them are interesting and profitable especially for people like me (new and crap blogger. I dont care) Another half of them are rubbish and gibberish. Well, who the hell I am to say such thing? Mine is even worse. Hahaha.. It's their own blog anyway so, juz leave it.

Anyway, I've been contemplating to own a blog like Rom's (I noe he uses xanga instead but it's juz the same anyway). Things that he wrote would simply crack you up! Seriously. He's absolutely hilarious I have to say and he's kinda good in writing too. None of the them are craps. He pours out his ideas and put them in words so that apart from express wut he feels bout sumthing, people could comment on any particular stuff and simply form a discussion about it. It's good to see people keep reading your posts and discuss about it. That's wut people call a 'feedback'. But alas, I dont have that tonnes of friends to comment anything and discuss bout anything (apart from sya. She's the only one who reads and GIVES comment on things that I wrote.Thanx mate.) He's an uni student in Manchester (which he got loads of fun stuff to share) meanwhile I'm just a nobody, doing nuthing at home. Yeah, I have to wait till I get to Uni and post interesting stuff then I'll find myself swamped with works and have no time for my blog. Hahaha.. After all, I can put up other interesting stuff (there are millions of another stuff laa dina!!) in here but still, I need sumthing more than that. But who cares.. I juz need some space to breathe...

Kawanku

Hahah..A perfect tittle I think..hehe.. Malam smalam, tpt kol 12 je aku call kawan aku ni.. Ingatkan nak nyamar org lain pakai fon adik aku tp akhirnye, rahsia terbongkar jua.. Hahaha.. Lagipon mum tibe2 je menjelma dlm bilik.. Terkantoi lak kol org kol 12 malam pakai fon anid.. Hahaha.. Aku tanye die kol bape, pastu die kate 'sket lagi kol 12..sket jee...haaaa, dah kol 12 dah' (mcm tau je aku nak wish die bday! Hampeh!) Pastu aku ckp ah tujuan sbnr aku call die 'x de..saje je nak wish happy birthday..eeeeee..ko dah tua dah!!!22 tahun! huhu..nasib baek aku baru 18' (aku x igt ah the exact dialog but plus minus ah) 'ish, ko org first wish aku ni!Hahah..' Sesungguhnye aku amat berbangge *wink*

Pastu lepas dah ckp bbrape minit (fon anid tu..sbb tu ckp kejap je..kalau fon aku lg kejap =p) aku pon dah ngantok nak tido (tapi anid nak ckp plak pasal arip laa zai laa..ish2..) tp aku buat2 tido gak! Pastu tibe2 aku teringat kat kawan aku tu.. teringat camne aku bleyh kenal die (beser ah..keje aku mmg brangan 24 jam! Dah x de keje lain..hahaha) Baru laa aku prasan yang aku dah kenal die dkt 4 thn dah!! And aku x penah jumpe die pon! (sah kenal kat internet!x lain x bukan kat irc..haha) Yep, I met her thru that bloody chatroom. But never thot that he'll be one of my good frens. Dulu aku igt die ni cam jahat. X tau apsal (no good reasons *LOL*) Pastu dulu aku penah gak bg die bday card. Skang dah malas sebab aku tau mesti die x simpannye..huhu.. (lelaki mmg x geti nak appreciate sket. Lupi adelah contoh terbaik.. Kad awek pon besepah2!ish..) pastu time kat lgkw aku x brape nak contact die sgt. 'Nanti aku kat lgkw kalau rajin aku call arr..x pon msg ke' (tunggu 10 taun pon x tentu aku call die..or msg die..hahah) pastu kire lost contact ah.. Cume ade laa miskol2 and msg2 tahpape.. Pastu ntah sejak bile lak tibe2 die rajin nak call aku (aku dah nak ambik spm baru nak ganggu idop aku!!hampes!) dan dgn prasaan yg sungguh rajin, aku pon bg laa die kad raye..

And then sejak aku duk umah ni die rajin gak ar call.. Aku mmg malas nak call org, rajin bg sms je.. (sms pon malas nak bg senornyer..Heh..Bukan SEPP <--khas utk emun. Tapi mmg malas..hehe) Tapi........ nak tunggu die reply msg aku, tunggu laa sampai 10taun pon die x reply!! save duit ke mmg sepp ke aku pon x tau.. hahaha.. Tapi die ni mmg baik ah.. Terase cam jahat sebab misjudge die dulu.. Heheh.. Die je slalu ingat nak call and miskol aku, aku susah sket nak call or miskol die.. Hehe.. Tapi aku mmg comfortable gile kalau borak ngan die sebab die faham betape aku nak gelak atau dgr lawak bodo die but no, he doesnt have to tell me a joke, his voice and the way he talks is enuf. It's funny!! Hehehe.. *I got confused suddenly.Wut's the point of posting this entry??Errr..Help me get a space plz!*








Owh, right!! It's a birthday present for him. Hehehe.. He's being such a good friend to me so, I juz wanna let the whole world know that he is a nice person and a good friend as well. And I need his comment on this!!!! (aku dah tulis dlm bm ni!sile komen ye..mane2 x puas hati bleh bg tau aku and i'll edit it later.. hehehe) Thanx wan for being such a great and faithful friend. I'm glad to noe ya mate!~ Preng poreber mista loca!! Hahah.. And Happy 22nd Birthday. May you get what you want...

Lost Souls

I got up early one morning,
And rushed night into the day,
I had so much to accomplish,
That I didn't have time to pray.

Problems just tumbled about me,
And heavier came each task,
"Why doesn't Allah help me?" I wondered,
He answered, "You didn't ask."

I wanted to see joy and beauty,
But the day toiled on gray and bleak,
I wondered why Allah didn't show me,
He said, "But you didn't seek."

I tried to come into Allah's presence,
I used all my keys at the lock,
Allah gently and lovingly said,
"My child, you didn't knock"

I woke up early this morning,
And paused before entering the day,
I had so much to accomplish,
that I had to take time to pray.
(Here's the link)

Life keeps puzzling me. Since I was a little, I've always seen 'life' as complicated as it always be. But I've learned that life is a challenge; I have to accept it. Life is a journey; I have to complete it. Life is a study; I have to learn it. Life is full of meanings; I have to try to understand it. And yes..Life is Allah's and I have to protect it..

Fun Stuff

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I found this video clip is pretty amusing. But it might not run in certain computers. To those who are able to see it, I suggest u wait till the end of the vid. It's absolutely hilarious. And don't worry, the message is there. For more fun stuff, click here.

Yeah, it's all about tidiness. But since I'm living in so-called-immaculate home, I don't think I have any good idea to write bout it.

[Note: Thanx to Rom for putting up this ad in his xanga. No, I'm not being a 'thief' or what but juz wanna share the fun. Owh btw, if u're reading this, juz wanna say that ur xanga is sooooo COOL. I've been visiting it like everyday and laughing out loud throughout some of your humorous posts. It's fun!!~ =)]

Things that I long for...

I've been sleeping too much that now. I got lil giddy and tried taking another blinks of eyes to comprehend what was actually happening around but in vain. Yeah, maybe I was hoping for sumthing unreal; to get back to my past and try to lead it the way that I've been wanted. After that dreary moment, I think these are wut I really long for..

1. My memoirs in Manchester : I miss going to Arndale and Trafford Park, wandering around with mum n dad, looking for a Dolcis bag. I got one tho *grins*. I miss watching chocy n whocy actions in the aquarium, their orangy stripes, feeding them, watching they grow into two wonderful goldfishes. I miss going to the movie at night. I miss spending my first time of hari raya with Cheetham Hill Community. I miss sprinting across the roads in town. I miss sipping Starbucks amidst the cold, grey and gloomy days of winter. I miss having a chat with Ariff Vasco *wink wink*. I miss going to Phillips' ancient-yet-authentic dwellings n had that splendid food n strolling around the magnificent landscape. I miss watching that marvelous Lion King Theatre. I miss every single thing that I did in Manchester.
2. My best buddies Sya, Roy n bro Im. I miss u guys very much. I miss the moment we spent throughout our entire childhood years. Couldnt have imagined how my life would be without you guys. Gonna miss every seconds that we spent together.
   
3. The moment when I were about to depart to Langkawi at the KLIA when Lupi suddenly hugged me n said "I love you. I noe you will make mum n dad proud." Tears simply fell down my cheeks. That was surreal. Really. And another one when I was running away from my nursery class, looking for Lupi in his pre-shcool class. God, that was a real sheepish moment I've ever had. Heheh.. I miss abang amir's presence; he's my only brother who would spend his so-called precious time laughing n rambling with me =p
   
4. My two-years life in MRSM Langkawi. I miss my class. I miss my army. I miss my teachers. I miss my roomates (Thirah, Ain n Huda. I had superb moments spent with u guys =)). I miss pekan Kuah. I miss Samudra (or Sun Suria, that is called recently). I miss spending my last days in Langkawi with my frens at the beach. I miss every single things in that bloody little island.
5. I miss ekuzians. I miss scrambling my fingers on the keyboard, trying to score as much points as possible. I miss typing /me slaps whoever *wry smile*. I miss bro giggz (cepat dik!!copy paste je!!!!!) hahaahahah.. I wonder how abang din is doing right now. Married?? Can't wait to meet his little ones. Heheh.. I really really really miss him. Couldnt have missed to wish his previous birthday. I miss chatting with ariff aka john jenin the taraaa guy, mr.tank, vasco_abdussalam (yep, the guy in Manchester. I was being a wuss whenever he was around <-- this is a real confession, aryff *wink*), kak ila, kak semy, kak dzu, sape_ntah, corduroy n so on (don't blame me if u guys' name is not in the list. Do let me know and I will add in later =)). Owh, and another guy; sony_tact. I got to know him in just 30 seconds and I'm terribly missing him right now. Yeah, that's afar my fren (name ko ade dlm ni laa afar. Jgn risau =p)
6. I miss spending my time with Hafiz. Really. (sya: oh my God!!! How corny is that!) hahaha.. Yeah sya. Say whatever you want. He's miraculously in the list.

There's one saying goes "The furthest thing in your life is your past". And there is no way I could ever calculate my future. That is none of my job. But for certain, past is a past. It will never repeat till the end of my life. We never know what the future will be. We never know...

Forgive Me

Forgive me for that which I have done
Maybe I was too young
Lost myself looking for somewhere else to run
Still looking for someone
To forgive me
Know this, isn't how I wanted things to be
But these are my mistakes
And it's my heart that aches
I can't explain this away
Everything comes with a price to pay
This is the only apology I can make
Cause those days are long gone, and the actions are no longer mine to take
So I'll ask this, where ever you may be
Please, Forgive Me

..this is specially dedicated to a fren of mine (u noe who u r) ..i tried to be the best, but everything was a mistake..we shouldnt have known each other in the first place..i shouldnt hav messaged u..i shouldnt have searched for u..i shouldnt hav done anything..but i learnt sumthing bout life..perhaps, God wants me to meet the wrong person b4 i meet d right one so that i would noe how to be grateful..sorry for everything..may happiness always on ur side =)

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yay..this is my beloved family!! yep yep, there's my mommy,abang azam d groom of d day, abg norman with the little 4-and-a-half-months-nazme n the rest have already been introduced..dat was during angah aya's wedding last august

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huhuhu..here comes (drumroll plzzz) jeng jeng jeng....MR. ATTENTION SEEKER!!!~ hahahah..yeah nazme..u always claim dat u're cool enuf to be in d photo..bluwek! well, dat was taken during hari raya aidilfitri..he was 8 months i guess

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here are miss abdul rashidS..huhu..from left is anid yg poyo, me at the back, angah aya in the middle, along ima n icah yg kononnye tengah bawak bende berat (padahal x berat lgsg!!) that was taken during abang amir's engagement occasion last december..cant wait for the real wedding occasion this april..hehehe =)