Away from the truth

It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
Can anyone tell what I've done
I miss the life
I miss the colors of the world
Can anyone tell where I am

Cause now again I've found myself so far down
Away from the sun that shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down away from the sun again
Away from the sun again

I'm over this
I'm tired of livin' in the dark
Can anyone see me down here
The feeling's gone
There's nothing left to lift me up
Back into the world I know

And now again I've found myself so far down
Away from the sun that shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me to find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down away from the sun again

It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
And now I can't tell what I've done

In the name of Allah, the Merciful, the Beneficent
"Believers, seek strength in patience and prayer. Allah is with those who are patient." -Al-Baqarah: 2;153

Bowing Out

• I'm going back to college soon.
• Nazme came by with his Mama and Baba just now but they've gone out. So I'm starting to miss him T_T
• My semester exam is approaching this early October. My teachers for each subject, my tutor and houseparents will send reports to MARA and parents so I have no choice but ace excellently *dead!*
• There will be my mock exam in January. Need to get A for every subjects in order to sit for AS papers in June orelse will be sitting for them in November. Of course, I'm trying to avoid the latter. Don't want that to happen! *pant*
• Miss Lupi already T_T
• Again.. miss Lupi..
• I wonder how Lupi would be able to muddle through things over there.
  
• Need to regain my focus. No more distractions please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
• MIGHT NOT BLOG FOR A WHILE AFTER THIS.
• Am I giving this up? I just need to focus, that's all. Will be back later but not sure when. Just hope I will return =)
• Have a nice day, guys!
  

What A Difference You Have Made In My Life

He’s gone. He’s finally there; light years away. I’ve tried not to be so emotional and poignant but I’m not that strong. Too many moments to be cherished and every time I sit back and flip through albums; the pictures always evoke memories of our childhood years and I can’t hold back the tears and undeniably will end up sniffling. I’m too sensitive to bear all those melancholy. It just cannot be helped.

Mum said, when I was born, he could not accept the fact that I’m his sister. He hated the fact that he failed to get people’s attention because everyone was very happy for my presence. Every time Mum called him and asked him to kiss the little cute baby, he would run away from people and put himself out of sight. I don’t know why and how much he hated the baby but somehow I know why he could not accept it as I would act the same way if I were in his shoes.

Time flew and we grew to be very close. Being 2 years older than me, I always depended on him in whatever I did. Like I’ve said before, I could not stop crying during my first day in nursery. I refused to get into class and screaming for Lupi. I didn’t care if he felt embarrassed which he surely did. Hehe.. He accompanied me for several days before I was able to go into class. We laughed and cried together. We shared each other’s secret. We went to school together. We fought and calmed each other. We even celebrated our birthday together every year. We simply did everything in concert.

Time kept flying and something by some means dragged us apart. I’m not sure what it was but I could feel the gap. He got an offer to further his studies in STAR, Ipoh and that was when I was eleven. Ever since, we were not as close as we used to. Every time he got home, we seldom talked to each other. He never teased me the way he did to anid and icah. I don’t know why but we seemed as if we were complete strangers to each other. Albeit so, I knew a lot about him; I was the first to know that he actually a smoker, I’d chanced upon the saved-conversation between him and his friends over YM, I knew whom he had a crush on. I knew quite a lot about him which nobody did. But I kept it to myself, did not tell anybody even to anid. I never realized that I actually had known him better.

Until one day, I happened to answer the phone call from his principal who wished to talk to Dad but Dad was not around. The principal did not leave any message so I was completely baffled by that and did not know what it was all about. The next day, the principal called Dad up again and by Dad’s stunning voice, I could feel something bad happened and my thought was right. He had been said in involving in the High Council group so he was expelled from school. Dad was extremely disappointed but I knew Lupi felt worse. That was the first time I saw him sobbed like hell, kept keeping himself in room. Every night I could hear his sniffle and I could not help myself from weeping as well. I calmed him down, comforted him, lent my shoulder for him to cry on and lent my ears for his entire lamentations. Sadly, that was just my thought. I did not have the guts to do so.

Had been said that despondency will come along with its hikmah and it was the moment where Lupi spent his time with us at home. We rebuilt the bond that used to forge between us and closer we become. Although not as close as we were when we were kids but was enough for me to appreciate him as a brother.

But time kept cutting us off. I was then had to go to Langkawi for study. The moment at the airport when I was about to depart to Langkawi, Lupi hugged me and said “I love you dina. I know you will make Mum and Dad proud”. Tears simply fell down my cheeks and could not stop like water running from a tap. And his words were the encouragement for me to keep going on this life. During his SPM results announcement day, my mind did not seem to focus on my studies for the whole day. I skipped my lunch after class and ran straight to my room and quickly grabbed my phone and called Dad. And when Dad said “Alhamdulillah nak, Lupi dpt straight A1”, I could not stop myself from sobbing. I cried and cried, and missed him very much. I sms-ed him immediately “Lupi, congrats for the excellent result. I’m very happy for you” and he replied “Thanx, sayang kau..” and I… well, you know what I did after that. Heh..

When I was in Langkawi, he never failed to wish my birthday and always wished me all the best whenever I had an exam to sit for. For years, that was how we lived our life, always seemed beautiful in words in sms, email or such but we never told each other about our stuff. Although Lupi seemed to tell anid more things rather than me especially about ‘so-and-so’ but I did not mind at all because we both knew what’s hidden behind all those words.

When Mum and Dad were in Manchester, I spent most of my holidays with Lupi AND his friends. I HAD TO come along involuntarily for every lunch and dinner time. And that was really unpleasing because his friends were so annoying. Because of the fact that he did not leave me alone at home, I could accept that. Although he did not seem so brotherly or whatever, he had helped me a lot. He was my driver to wherever I went and he did not seem to mind if he had to wait for me for hours. He never said “no” if I asked him for help. When I had my seven-month holiday, I was his driver who sent him to college and fetched him up every weekend. It was not a burden at all; the time I spent with him was what mattered.

Time flies. When I got the offer to go to K-wai-U3M, he told me to use the opportunity as best as I could. “Aku dulu teringin sangat nak pergi sana, tapi dapat KMB nak wat camne. Tapi aku happy ah ko dpt pegi lmbah bringin”. And then he got an offer to read medicine in University College Cork, Ireland. I knew he was somewhat disappointed because he really wanted to go to UK but Allah knows better and he accepted it wholeheartedly. Ever since, I kept counting the days before he flew off to Ireland. I was always wondering how he would survive over there (dia paling tak pandai masak!), how he could cope with everything and all. All I could do was just pray him for the best.

The time had finally come. All of us sent him to the airport on Friday evening. I said to myself “No matter what happen, do not cry!” and I did very well initially. But not until the moment he was about to depart, he started to cry. And my floodgate obviously could not hold back the pressure so it opened. I hugged him as if I did not want to let him go but I had no choice. I watched him walked away and prayed to Allah “May he become a successful Surgeon one day”.

Life is never as it seems.

There are twists and turns; in the road, we travel.
When our paths met, I knew you'd make a difference in my life.
You have made that difference.
You have given and continue to give me a reason to live.
There is no other way around it.
You have saved me time and time again with the love you've given me.
Truly, you have made a difference in my life.
Courage to write the next story or poem.
Knowing as I do, that you will read it and tell me what you think.
Not only that, but with that comment or praise, there is love felt with it as I read your Heart Words.
Know for always and forever, you truly have made a difference that only you could do.
It is one of the reasons why I love you so.
-thepoeticbear-

All the best, brother. We're going to miss you as much as you do. Dina sayang Lupi =)

My ailment is getting worse. I’m darn worried!

I knew it! There must be something wrong with my brain. I don’t know what kind of virus or bug or bacteria or prokaryote or whatever you may call but that superfluous organism has been attacking my brain since yesterday. It’s like it penetrates my brain and inserts the code of “Dina Dina! You can’t let the computer sits there on its own!! You better accompany it!”.

I think the dosage is too high and so I’ve been sitting in front of the computer despite the buckle loads of reading that I need to do and those assignments of which I supposed to submit by tomorrow (err no!! it’s already today!!!!!) I don’t know what’s wrong with me but it can’t be helped!! I can’t even help myself!!!! And now, at the hour of 5AM, I’m writing this shit. Duh! Buat solat hajat ke x pe gak!! Pathetic.

I really need a doctor T_T

tag-taggy

The internet connection was rather irating these few days. Yet my addiction to bloghopping occured significantly this morning when the internet connection recovered. Hehe.. Pretty many recent things happened. I didn't bother to post anything today (even this is the only free time I have) until I chanced upon this. It was quite surprising to be tagged by her though!!! Now, another assignment issit? Eheh..

Ok, let's take a stroll down memory lane.

20 years ago, 1985
hermm errrmm.. No, I wasn't created yet. Heh..

15 years ago, 1990
Err well, I really need a sledgehammer to crush a nut. Heh.. Lets see..
-The first time I went to nursery, I cried, screaming Lupi's name and ran about looking for Lupi in his pre-school class. Ahah.. the teachers even had to let me wait for Lupi outside his class. I cried for the whole day! Buat malu jek. adeh.. Hehe..
-Things getting better and I enjoyed most of my times in nursery. We usually had biskut merry and air milo during recess. And we had a swimming session every Friday! Those who did not bring any swimming attire can play with the beach-sand. Cool gile. Heh..
-I went to tadika and went back home by bus. So, everytime the school session ended, we would play around the playground while waiting for the bus. When Mrs.Marry made a call for 'Bandar Baru Bangi' kids, we would scatter around, picked up our bags and ran staright to the bus. I always wanted to sit at the front sit, don't know why but there was this girl who always got to sit at the front sit and everytime I looked her on face, she will make this annoying face and sticked her tongue out!!! Always cursing her for that but yea, Hana then become my best friend =). We were very close back then.

10years ago, 1995
-My primary years!!! Well, I was in standard 2 at that time. Can't really recall any significant affairs but I remember that I had a crush on Nafidz. Ahah lawak betul. Well, I knew Nafidz since tadika but never had any crush on him until this year. I told Hana about that and she always used that reason to threat me everytime she wanted something from me! jahat betul.. Huhu.. Not until I found "love you too-nafidz-" out at the back of my Maths book. *MALU*! Hahaha lawak laa pulak.. But nothing happened pun. Heh.. Mind you, it stopped there. heh..
-Also had a crush on Azrin, Lupi's best buddy back then. Both of them were prefects and coincidentally they had to 'jaga' my class so I always appreciated the moments by not leaping to other's place or going elsewhere, just sat on my spot and berangan. Haha teruk betul perangai..
-The first time I got the 'anugerah darussyifa'. It's like the best student of the batch award or sort of.
-The most surreal moment in life where I met my very very best friends (Roy and bro Im) during the sports day and got to know them just in 5 minutes because Dad was waiting for me and three days after that, they had to move to JB. That was the last time I saw both of them at the same time and miraculously, we are very close up until now =)

5 years ago, 2000
-I got an offer from Sek Men Sains Sultan Md. Jiwa in Sg Petani but Mum did not allow me to go due to my unmaturity. Huhu so I had to go to sekolah depan rumah yg agak boring itu involuntarily. I thought the school was heinous because I'd heard quite a lot of bad things about it but I thought that was cynical. The school was not that bad and enjoyed it pleasantly.
-Not until Mum and Dad surreptitiously called up the orang atasan quite a few times to transfer me to another school and they made it!!So it was such an ordeal to be pulled apart with friends in skolah depan rumah yg takdela boring sgt itu.So I got into maahad hamidiah in Kajang and..ermmm..I don't think I enjoyed schooling there but well, no choice! Heh..Not that bad laa but I did not find any cherishable moments there. I even can't call most of my friends in maahad to my mind! Heh..
-Met Alitt, a very good friend (he was my senior actualy). He was one in a million. Albeit we had not gone through any sweet moments or whatsoever and we had lost contact since couple years back, I'm still hoping that we can get back to the sweet days. *sigh* I don't know why but his job is always made me laughing my head off!
-Ermmm should I write about Hafiz? Well, yea, I met Hafiz (yep, surprisingly was my senior too. hadoi..). Don't think need to elaborate on that. Heh..
-Im flew off to Australia *weeps*

2 years ago, 2003
-My wish had finally fulfilled (to get out from the previous school that is!) when I got an offer to MRSM Langkawi! Yay! The best school I’ve ever entered and always wished to get back there and live life like I did in Langkawi. I don’t think I could list down everything in one post but I think it’s enough to say that it was an oft-cited memory.
-One of my toughest moments in life when I had to survive by myself without the presence of Mum and Dad around. They had to do their sabbatical in Manchester and had to leave me alone in Malaysia! Uhhu.. Not literally though. They left me alone with Lupi who knew nothing about taking care a sister and Along Ima who was pregnant. Hence, I had to do everything on my own. Well, at least I’m improving myself in muddling through things though. Yea, being independence! Hehh..
-After several months of suffering and struggling to fight against the longings for Mum and Dad (manje? Heh..) I finally flew off to Manchester! Yay!! Upon arriving at the airport, I was ushered through the immigration and all by a handsome officer. Sangat macho. Hahah.. And I just can’t describe the moment when he brought me to the arrival hall and saw Mum, Dad and Angah Aya smiling, waving hands. Ok fine, I cried. I had not seen Mum and Dad in 5months, how could I don’t cry when I see them? I know I might be facing a worse situation once I’m in UK (InsyaAllah) but that’s another story laa. Heh..

Last year, 2004
-Should I write first about sitting for SPM? Heh.. Well yea, I did. And that resulted me in spending most of my times in school because every time the holiday arrived, we needed to attend those boring programmes. Program Gerak Gemilang laa bla bla bla. We even had to get back to college few days earlier after hari raya because we got shitloads papers to sit for the next several days. Thank Allah I’d gone through that! Heh.. Well ermm.. Yea, AS/A-level’s waiting ahead T_T sigh..
-There was a poignant moment before my trial. Somebody had hurt me for being so selfish and self-centred. Frankly speaking, I had never been in such situation. I was in the class, struggling to insert biological facts in my head (esok tu paper bio wei!!!) and suddenly received a message from him: “How could you lie to me?” (No need to comprehend it, just read on..) and he kept giving me calls but I rejected it. I’d told him not to interrupt me through out the weeks but he just did not care a toss. Well, no wonder, he’s really such a dim-witted twat. And Allah knows how bad I felt, so He sent me somebody to ask me if everything was ok. I was flattered really for having someone who really cares about me. Oh well.. what a day.
-Saw a shooting star for the first time in my life!!!!! It was bravura! Magnificent! Stunning! and whatsoever laa. Izy and I were night walking and chatting when suddenly; a dazzling straight shooting light flew across the sky. We looked at each other in stunned, of course! And I was like so hyped up and started to yell all around the town. Heh.. But people did not really give any good responds! Haih saba je laa.. And I saved the date and the num in my hand phone as a reminder! Heh..
-I got my first nephew!!! Weeeeeeeeeeee =P and that meant my job as an auntie had started. Sigh.. Not that I hate it or what. I love being an auntie or Mak Na as my nephew call me but not when I need to clean up his butt! Huhu.. sungguh malas sekali.

This year, 2005
-Had the longest holiday ever! Huhu.. seven months that is! Nak temuntah dah duk umah lame2. Heh.. Got my SPM results in March (Alhamdulillah) and then spent another few months faffing around at home. And not to forget, it’s the beginning of ‘Dreaming in Fantasy’!! Heh.. Although I’ve contemplated to give it up for a few times, it still stands sturdy. Huhu..
- Got the MARA scholarship to further my studies in KYUEM. So, here I am!

10 years from now, 2015
Err it’s an anticipation issit? Heh.. Well, let see. By this time InsyaAllah I’ve passed my medical membership in UK and am married with a doctor as well with at least one child. Kalau 2 pun takpe gak. Hahah.. Sounds fervent and fanatical, I know. This is what people call Dreaming In Fantasy after all. Heh.. Well, it’s a chestnut but nothing is impossible so why can’t I work on it right? Yea, think positive! Heh..

15 to 30 years from now 2020-2035
Ok, this is too keen but tak kisah, nak ckp jugak. I’m going to possess a z4, insyaAllah kalau ada rezeki ^_^

Yay! I’m done! So let’s start the game. Ermm well, I’m not sure who’s going to read this so I don’t really know whom I’m tagging this to. But just for the sake of the game (and also to know more about you of course!), you might be honoured to take the challenge! Heh.. Usaha tangga kejayaan!

Ok, enough crap. Need to wind up the lifeguard notes. Yep, am going to take the life saving exam for Bronze Medallion this October sebab kene pakse. Heh.. Have fun guys!

[note to teek: Next time, do notify me about it! Huhu.. I’m kinda bz lately so haven’t bloghopped to your page for quite a while. But it’s fun! Heh..]

I really need a boyfriend!!

..so that I can call him right now and demand him to pick me up here and head straight to the airport!!!!!!

Uh, I'm very disappointed.

I just called Izy and Yah. They're at the airport, sending the Russian peeps off to Russia. They sounded very excited and happy. Riuh gile! Waaaaaaaa, how I miss that part so much!!! And certainly will miss Syikin and the rest very much. Hmm...I wanna cry!

Cinta? Love? sounds beautiful but..errmm..

Cinta~bagaimana fitrah menjadi anugerah..

Soalan: Saya begitu komited dengan gerakan Islam. Malangnya, saya tidak dapat mengelakkan daripada rasa cinta. Saya telah jatuh cinta. Soalnya, salahkah rasa cinta yang ada di dalam hati kita?

Jawapan: Remaja selalu bertanya apakah salah kami bercinta? Tidak, bercinta memang tidak salah justeru ia adalah fitrah semulajadi yang Allah kurniakan kepada setiap manusia. Ingin cinta dan dicintai adalah instinc. Jiwa manusia memerlukan cinta seperti jasadnya perlukan makanan. Oleh kerana cinta adalah fitrah, maka tentulah tidak salah untuk merasainya. Namun Allah tidak kurniakan rasa cinta secara polos begitu sahaja. Dia juga mencipta peraturan cinta demi menjaga kemurniaanya. Peraturan inilah yang kerap dilanggar oleh remaja. Rasa cinta tidak salah tetapi kesalahan selalu berlaku sewaktu menjalinkan hubungan cinta. Di sinilah berlakunya cinta terlarang yakni cinta yang menafikan peraturan Tuhan. Ketika itu fitrah telah menjadi fitnah. Bila kehendak semulajadi tidak disalurkan atau diisi mengikut peraturan maka akan berlakulah kekalutan dan kemusnahan.

Mengapakah perlu ada peraturan cinta? Jawabnya, kerana Allah mencintai manusia. Allah inginkan keselamatan dan kesejahteraan buat manusia melaksanakan keinginan fitrah semulajadinya. Keinginan tanpa peraturan akan menyebabkan banyak kemusnahan. Begitulah hubungan cinta yang terlarang, akan membawa banyak implikasi negatif dalam kehidupan. Pengalaman sudahpun mengajar kita nahawa jangan sekali-kali bermain cinta, nanti terbakar diri. Sudah banyak tragedi yang berlaku akibat hubungan cinta yang membelakangkan Tuhan. Cinta yang terlarang, adalah cinta yang sudah dicemari oleh kehendak nafsu dan kepentingan diri. Keindahan cinta yang sudah tercemar ini tidak tahan lama. Sudah dapat apa yang dihajati, sudah terlaksana apa yang dikejar, cinta akan terkulai dan bersepai.

Hubungan cinta jangan dicemari oleh sebarang tindakan menyalahi syariat. Lebih banyak perlanggaran hukum berlaku, lebih tinggilah risiko kemusnahan yang akan berlaku. Jangan kita tertipu dengan pesona cinta yang dihiasi berbagai janji dan sumpah setia. Jangan kita mabuk dengan rindu dan asyik yang membuai dan melenakan. Seteguk kita minum dari kendi cinta terlarang, racunnya akan meresap membunuh akal, jiwa dan perasaan. Pada ketika itulah cinta dikatakan buta. Maka butalah mata hati dan mata kepala hingga seseorang akan menjadi hamba kepada siapa yang dicintainya. Ketika itu hati tidak nampak yang lain kecuali apa yang dicintai. Lupalah diri pada Pencipta cinta kerana terlalu asyik dengan cinta yang dikurniakan-Nya. Ah, bagaimanakah perasaan kita agaknya, jika seseorang begitu leka dengan hadiah hingga terlupa bersalam dan berterima kasih dengan pemberinya?

Tuhan kerap terpinggir dalam hubungan cinta yang terlarang. Hukumnya dilanggar bukan dengan rasa bersalah tetapi dengan rasa manis dan megah. Tangan kekasih dipegang walaupun jelas Allah mengharamkan sentuhan antara lelaki dan wanita yang bukan muhram. Tergamak berdua-duaan di tempat sunyi walaupun sudah diperingatkan Nabi bahawa dalam keadaan begitu syaitan adalah orang yang ketiga. Lebih dari itupun banyak berlaku. Semuanya seolah-olah halal hanya kerana cinta. Racun-racun berbisa yang memusnahkan cinta telah dianggap sebagai baja. Akhirnya pohon cinta terlarangpun berbuah. Buah yang pahit, masam dan memabukkan. Buah yang muncul dengan pelbagai jenama yang aneh dan menjijikkan bohsia, bohjan, buang bayi dan zina. Ketika itu indahkah cinta?

Peraturan cinta bagai tanda-tanda dan lampu isyarat di atas jalan-raya. Kereta diciptakan dengan kuasa untuk bergerak, tetapi pergerakkannya perlu diatur dan dikawal. Jika tidak, dengan kuasa itu akan berlakulah perlanggaran dan pertembungan. Begitulah cinta, ia adalah kuasa tetapi kuasa itu perlukan peraturan dan kawalan. Apakah peraturan-peraturan dalam hubungan cinta? Hendaklah cinta kita itu didasarkan kepada cinta Allah. Ertinya, cinta yang kita berikan kepadanya semata-mata kerana mengharapkan keredhaan Allah. Allah memberi kita fitrah itu lalu kita niatkan dengan fitrah itu boleh menghampirkan diri kepada-Nya. Cintailah sesiapapun tetapi pastikan cinta itu dapat memudahkan kita mencintai Allah. Sehubungan dengan itu, cinta antara lelaki dan perempuan mestilah diniatkan untuk Allah. Soalnya bagaimana? Iringilah dengan niat untuk berkahwin kerana berkahwin itu lebih memudahkan seorang lelaki atau perempuan menyempurnakan agamanya. Sabda Rasulullah SAW: Apabila seseorang itu berkahwin, sempurnalah separuh agamanya, tinggal lagi separuh untuk disempurnakannya.

Oleh itu usahlah bercinta sekadar untuk bersuka-suka. Lebih buruk lagi janganlah ada niat-niat yang jahat dalam bercinta samada didorong oleh hasutan nafsu atau bujukan syaitan. Jika tidak ada niat untuk berkahwin, cinta sudah pasti bukan kerana Allah. Hakikatnya cinta itu adalah cinta terlarang yang akan membawa kemusnahan pada sebelah pihak atau kedua-duanya sekali. Cinta jenis ini seburuk namanya Cinta Monyet!

Selain itu hendaklah dipastikan semasa menjalinkan hubungan cinta tidak ada hukum Allah yang dilanggar. Antaranya, tidak ada pergaulan bebas, tidak ada pendedahan aurat, tidak ada pengabaian perkara-perkara asas seperti meninggalkan sembahyang, puasa dan lain-lain. Hubungan cinta juga jangan sampai terjerumus dalam perkara yang melalaikan dan merugikan. Remaja tidak seharusnya mengeluh dan berkata, cinta apa namanya ini jika tidak ada dating, perbualan talipon secara marathon, surat cinta, sentuhan tangan, kerlingan dan senyuman? Yakinlah tidak ada keindahan dengan melanggar peraturan Tuhan. Putus cinta, frust cinta yang begitu dominan dalam kehidupan remaja adalah disebabkan racun-racun cinta yang disangka baja ini. Justeru banyaklah cinta yang gagal disambung di alam perkahwinan dan lebih banyak yang putus tanpa sempat menempuh perkahwinan.

Allah Maha Mengetahui dan Maha menyayangi. Segala peraturan-Nya dibuat dengan rasa cinta terhadap hamba-hamba-Nya. Cinta suci mampu tumbuh tanpa semua itu. Dan cinta itu pasti akan membawa ke gerbang perkahwinan untuk bercinta lagi dengan seribu keindahannya. Bahkan jika ditakdirkan cinta itu akan terus bersambung ke alam akhirat. Suami yang soleh dan isteri yang solehah akan bercinta lagi di syurga tempat pertama yang melahirkan cinta! Ketika itulah fitrah akan menjadi anugerah ^_^

Allah memberi kite 2 kaki untuk berjalan
2 tangan untuk memegang
2 telinga untuk mendengar
Dan 2 mata untuk melihat
Tetapi mengapa Allah hanya menganugerahkan sekeping hati kepada kite?
Kerana Allah memberikan sekeping lagi hati kepada seseorang untuk kite mencarinya~ ^_^

Hope we get the message.

Mr Ren, thanx..

A person where the vigour lies

Have you heard of a magazine called Education Quarterly (EQ)? Well, I first heard it today so if you have not, it’s nothing to be blamed. Or perhaps I am the only one who doesn’t know about it. Anyway, basically the mag is all about higher education not just evolved over the nation but also all around the world. It’s a good and highly readable magazine indeed. It’s an absolute recognisable.

Well, I was actually being asked to read an article for the English presentation tomorrow and that was how I’m introduced to this mag. And while I was flipping through the pages, I stumbled upon this article of which entitled ‘London is Education’. I don’t know what the article is all about because I have not gone through the whole thing. What the first thing that caught my eyes was: Was Dr. Johnson right to say, “When a man is tired of London, he is tired of life”? Nik Nazmi thinks so..

And I was like “Wow! Nik Nazmi!”. Despite the fact that he was once a KYUEM student who is now the President of AKYUEM (Alumni of KYUEM), he is indeed a very educated and respectably knowledgeable. Before he enrolled in KYUEM, he was from MCKK. I reckon Abg Amir knows him since he is one year junior to Abg Amir. And then he furthered his study in King’s College, London, reading law. Yep, a good educational establishment, right? That does not stop there. Read this on, and then you will get astonished by him.

“And what publications do you write for?
I write essays and commentaries in Bahasa Malaysia and English for a variety of publications including Malaysiakini, Education Quarterly, Aliran Monthly, Asia Times Online, IslamicCity and Kakiseni. The BBC World Service, Channel News Asia and Warna FM have also asked me to contribute for their programs.”

Yep, you’ve guessed it. Gempak gile!

Do you know the new high-powered attorney of MAS? I don't know what's the name but certainly somebody who has an important job to do with MAS, he is just 34 years old, I repeat, 34 (!!) and was elected to be the frontrunner to be the next MAS CEO! I've read one article pertaining to this issue about one man (Richard Teo) who resents against it. Richard is impressed with his academic qualifications (he's a Cambridge graduate) but what he doubts is the experience of a young man of 34 in running a huge company like MAS. Well, something like that, I'm not sure.

I was wondering if Nik will be somebody important one day. He is simply impressive!! Kalau nak carik someone yg hebat mcm ni boleh tak? Berwawasan? Yea right. Totally a mere wishful thinking! Haih..

Some random thoughts

Dad just walked by "Dina, dah habis study blm? Assignment dah siap?". Yea, you've guessed it. BLOM! Heh.. Yet here I am, handling with that blardy Hello and fixing out how can I speed up this blardy cheesy and very slow streamyx despite the fact that I'm going to have a biology test this Monday (arggh!!). And no no, I'm not going to repeat my mistakes that I did for my previous test. What mistake you ask? Well, how about facing your paper with a huge letter 'D' stated on it? Yep, that was really inflicting was it not?

Oh well, I shall have bidded farewell to my dreamland by now. Yes, BY NOW and go packing up all those stacking stuff of mine. You might ask "Aih, how come your stuff is still stacking when you have gone home for many times??". Heh.. Because I want to exact my revenge (on myself??) for not having pleasure with my piled up baju, bantal, food (priority!! heh) and yadayadayada during my years in Langkawi. Come on, Lembah Beringin-Bangi is like one and a quarter hour journey so why can't I bring along my stuff from home everytime I get back? But yea, getting all those stuff back home after I've finished my A-level is rather burdensome though. Sigh..

Anyways, Sya asked me about my new list of reverence there, in the sidebar. Well, actually those blogs (the new ones) have been in my bookmarks since God-knows-when but then, I found difficulties to call the URLs back to mind when I'm in the chalet at college. I'm not going to waste my time by searching them from google or doing any bloghopping so there they go, smack on the list. After all, I just need to see them there, so that they encourage me in a way to forget about all the nasty things in my head. When I sign in my page and see the links, my hand cannot resist from clicking on them. Forget about the pack times I have. Wasting time is one of my favourite pastimes! Heh.. You know, when one is irated or stressed out, he or she just need something else that could blow the problems away so that's the purpose of putting the blogs there. heh.. Plus, I just wish, just WISH that I could emulate their skills in writing. Be it crap or not, I just love what they write! Heh..

Ermm.. what else? Oh yea, Lupi is flying to Ireland on this 17th. I feel like blogging something about him but not now. It would be something emotive and surreal, maybe. Just can't find the mood for the moment. But of course, I'm gonna miss him. Very much. Very very much. A LOTTT! And not to forget, I'm gonna miss Nazme once I'm at the college. Sigh.. Here I got some pictures of him. Poor Nazme that he had fallen from the bed (Tu laaa dia, excited sangat tidur sampai jatuh katil! Heh..) and had caused a gash on his lips. But it's getting better now.

A 'Good Luck' card for my junior in Langkawi. She'll be having her trial next week so just thought that this would encourage her to do her best. And ease her from jitters. Ain't I thoughtful? Aahaha.. Nah, I love giving people cards. Just like I've said before, I want to see my friends happy so this is one of the attempts. Hmmm.. Any cards for me? Heh.. Ok, no. T_T

And this...just bought several hours ago. (Sya, I can hear your voice sya! U better shush yourself up!) Just want to change the air. I have LP, Michael Buble and blabla in my collections and none of them is Nasyid kinda songs so, why not I buy one right? Well, ok laa, somebody... I mean, someone..errr nope I mean, there is a person who recognised me some nasyid songs and I found some of the songs just bring a lump on my throat.. *insaf* and actually I have wanted to have this one, long ago but just don't really work on it so just now, I rummaged some CDs at the speedy store and found this one! Hooray! Ermm.. I try not to say this but that 'someone' is really a someone *taking the risk if he chanced upon this!* Uh, cut it off la.

Anyways, I got a message from Shat the other day. "Dina, hari rabu basket lawan topaz!! I dah naik 5kg duk rumah! Oh tidaaakk!!". And my brain acted very unpleasantly. What a strenuous days I'm going to lead ahead!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hate it hate it!! Sigh.. Sungguh penat laa begini. Adoi.. It's ok laa. I'm signing off.

*drooling over......* haih..shall I mention?

.. two days ago, I went to Muar with Mum, Dad, Lupi and Icah. I slept late the night before hence my eyes could not stand for the whole journey and so I took a nap. You may think that I had a good, deep nap but I didn't. I missed a race!!!

And during our lunch, I overheard mum n dad's conversation..and Lupi yang menyebok.

Dad: Adik Abg Man dah ade E240 baru.
Mum: Banyak duit die eh. Dia buat bisnes kan?
Dad: Untung laa tu.
Mum: Tapi I rase 5series baru cantik laa. Berangan pulak nak beli.
Dad: *gelak besar*
Mum: Kalau ada duit apa salahnye.
Dad: Tadi race dengan E280, boleh je menang.
Me: Race? *tak puas hati* tak tau pon?
Dad: Laaa sape suruh tido.. *gelak kurang besar* mula2 die nak potong. Orang dah bagi potong nak slow pulak. Hint laa tu. Main potong2 nasib baik menang *gelak besar*
Lupi: Orang tu siap angkat tangan lagi. Surrender laa tu.
Mum: Tapi Mercs pon ok kan.
Lupi: *menyebok lagi* kat sini orang pakai Mercs sebab luxurious. Kat sane orang pakai bm sebab performance. Sebab tu Amir suke bm.
Me: Errr.. Dad bawak brape dad? *masih tidak puas hati*
Dad: Tak boleh bagitau..
Lupi: Takyah tau..
Me: Alaaaaa..bagitau je la
Dad: Minimum..170. Tapi ko bawak tak bleh exceed 80!
Me: 170?????! 80???????@$#$!!#^& *suara kecil: mane aci!!!*

..and now I know where I got the gene from. Haih..