Oh, I'm cool B)

Abg @min.. The first time I met this guy, he was very pleasant and friendly. I instantly liked him and adored him very much. Everytime he came by our house, I’d spend my whole time with him, telling him every single thing about school, friends, and of course, crushes. Hehe.. I remember I told him about N@fidz and R@fiq. I remember how he laughed over my stupid jokes. He was a very good listener and he enjoyed being one. He was a very great brother.

But that was ages ago, when I was probably 8 or 9. Now, they all appear to be only good memories to be engraved in mind. Yesterday, he finally tied the knot. I was glad to see him standing in the middle of the crowd with the bride, smiling happily. And what made me a bit melancholic was the recall I had. That’s all.

There was also another wedding next door. It was amusing to hear what the mothers talked about especially on having a son/daughter in law. There was this one aunty cakap dekat Mum, “Eh, you dah lama tak buat kenduri kan. Lepas ni anak you yg mane pulak?”. Mum smiled and spontaneously looked at me. I knew that was a reflex and I knew Lupi was in Mum’s head, not me.

Then we had a family chat. We talked about some future plans when the rest of the siblings were to get married. And Mum kept asking me if I have already seen anyone. I don’t blame her for that kind of action. In fact, I’ve already become immune to it. Perhaps that’s just a natural behaviour of a mother towards her daughter who’s going to be a doctor in aeon’s time. I already have two brother-in-laws and one sister-in-law. And being an aunty to one nephew and two nieces doesn’t make me feel any younger. And the gap between me and Lupi is just like two years. It’s not that I’m planning to get married whatsoever in the nearest time [sorry, come again?!] but I came to think how funny it must be to be in my position. You know, the nanti-dina-ngan-lupi-kawen-skali-la and dina-kene-carik-org-dekat2-jugak and dina-kene-kawen-by-24 kind of statements. At first it was a bit scarry and unpleasant to think these kinds of thing but come to think of it, I kinda take pleasure in it. Hehe..

Along Ima: Sape kawen dulu? Dina ke Lupi?
Me: Of course la Lupi! Takkan @ini nak tunggu sampai 26/27 kot?
Along Ima: Tapi takkan Lupi nak kawen before grad? Degree 5 tahun. Housemanship setaun. Keje kumpul duit, let say, setaun. Ha, 7 taun lagi!
Me: Ohhoo.. ok la, dina pun dina la =) Takkan nak tunggu 7 taun lagi kot? Hoho tanak!
Dad: Eee ade ke cakap mcm tu..
Me: Heeehee

And how I wish Lupi was there too, backing himself up. Hehe.. I love my family very much. And I love having a big family and I wish for one too, insyaAllah :)

Lempaian Chahya Nirmala

Inang dan dayang- dayang seraya menjerit “Tuanku Puteri!!”

Inang: Mengucap, Tuanku Puteri, mengucap! Jangan dicemar nama almarhum ayahanda Tuan Puteri dengan nista sebegini hina… Membunuh diri itu haram dilaknat Tuhan, tuanku!

Melur: Janganlah begini, Tuan Puteri! Kalaulah hamba menjadi Tuan Puteri, hambalah manusia paling bahagia. (nada berbisik) Sehingga sanggup Sultan berbunuhan, semata- mata untuk meruntas hati Tuan Puteri!

Melati: Ah, engkau ni, berbadan manusia berhati jinkah? (menunjal kepada D1) Setiap yang waras, mestilah berduka dengan kehilangan ayahanda tercinta!

Melur: Ah, bodoh alang sungguh kau ni ya! Berkahwin dengan Sultan, gilalah kalau berduka!! Nanti, boleh jadi maharani seluruh negeri!

Tun Chahya Ningsih: Sudah, sudah! Jiwa kita ini…hiba, sebu, tak siapa pun yang faham. (bermunajat) Tuhanku Yang Maha Kaya, kurniakan daku kekuatan dalam menyusuri lorong kehidupan ini. Hambamu ini terpinga- pinga mencari sesuatu… Harapan…

I've just received the final script from @qtar last week, which means to say that I'm forced to pay as much attention as possible on B@ngsaw@n. I'm not initally intending to be 'Melur' but since the character was not held by anyone after series of audition, I have to be in that position, like it or not. Being one of the cast alongside with a post as the head of props would not be any easier job at all. I've prepared myself mentally and physically for that 2 week of hustle and bustle. Although my studies [and also my preparation for interviews. Well, if I were to be called for one. Hmm..] are waay up there on the top of my priorities, I'm going to work all-out for B@angsaw@n. After everything is over, I'm going to be a queer duck who always clings to academic stuffs and never sees other things as interesting as intelectual books. Yes, I don't care if other people see me as a nerd. I want to be proud of it, once in a while. Hoho.. Well, let's see if I could prove myself right! Hah!

babble and bebel

Last night I slept around 4, abeskan buku Sidney Sheldon, Windmills of the Gods. Dah beribu buku Sheldon aku bace, aku tau, mesti ade elemen2 surprise. So dari awal2 lagi aku cube teka sape pembunuh die tp last2 mesti salah jugak org yg aku teka!! Bengong betol. But the book was good. Sheldon’s books have always been the ones that I couldn’t put down. Memang sangat best.

Lepas abes bace buku, tak bleh tido plak. Risau banyak benda. Aduhai…

These two weeks have been very brief and only 3 weeks left before college starts. As usual, rase tanak balik kolej dan rase stressful tu adalah sangat normal lebih2 dah nak final. Ohhhh~

A recap on my programme in these two weeks:

Mon to Wed ~ went to pd with family.

Thurs ~ went to alia’s house ada kenduri. Tolong2 kat rumah die. Sronok tp sangat memenatkan. Tak bawak camera time tu so tadak gambar.

Fri ~ Pegi un!m ngan thirah. Bawak camera tp tak tertangkap gambar. Heh..

Weekends ~ Babysit nazme and effa. Mama diorang ada seminar kat genting so the aunties la kene jage. Perasaan: Gembire melepaskan rindu di saat2 awal je lepastu dah penat. Haha.. Nazme makin ngada2 dan bajet kewl ar jadik bos kat rumah. Ulang cite Cars ngan Madagascar seribu kali!! Takde can aku nak tgk tv..

Mon to Tue ~ Went to Melaka with ijuon.. Sronok sangat tp knackering la.. As of we arrived until we departed, the rain didn’t stop even for a second. Bejalan2 di banda hilir pun tengah2 hujan. Macam beser pegi banda hilir, ade Afamosa, Stadyhus, pastu tengok pameran mistik yang tak best n tak berbaloi langsung tp takpe, tourism punye pasal. Pastu pegi Ayer Keroh pegi tengok pameran lebah ape tah, pastu pegi Jusco belikan adiah utk Najib pastu balik!~ Ohhoo sangat penat.. Tak bawak camera bleh tak..

Wed ~ Went to Midvel with thirah. Followed dad to cheras first, uruskan hal insurance then Dad dropped me off kat Midvel. Tgk cite ‘Cinta’. At first, I was a bit cynical with that movie. I thought, ‘Alaa mesti cite typical cintan2 tahpape ni’ but it wasn’t quite that true. On a scale of 5, aku bagi 3.8 la. Credits go to the cameraman sebab gamba die sangat lawa. Aku rase cameraman tu mesti photographer yg berjaya. Angles from which he shot memang gempak ar! And I noticed that he [or maybe she] banyak guna shadowing effect. And the colour management of the gambar pon memang best. Jalan crita agak menarik. Cuma ‘cinta’ yang paling bodoh aku rase is between sharifah amani ngan mamat surat khabar yg cakap mcm ala2 pondan dengan eizlan yusof ngan azura bengong tu. Tahpape gak ar.. the rest of the couples mmg best. Kalo tengok sorang and hayati betul2, bleh nangis gak ar. Tp sbb aku tak tahan nak terkucil mase tu so agak tak concentrate. Heh.. Then had lunch at Madam Kwan’s sebab ade ramai waiter yg ala2 hemsem. Borak2 sampai tak igt dunie pastu solat dan seperti biase, window shopping je sebab broke gile. Hah hah..

Thurs ~ I was planning to go to sunway main ice skating ngan tikah, syira, aina kam and ramai lagi tp sangat penat dan sangat broke, so tak jadik. Sadis gak sebab mmg dah excited nak pegi tp xde rezeki. Huhu.. so duk rumah macam biase, tengok tv, makan, tido dan buang mase.

Fri iaitu hari ni ~ Takde plan nak pegi mane2 lagi. Sent Mum and Dad kat komuter sebab diorang nak pegi Shah Alam. Abang Tengku akan ambik diorang kat Shah Alam pastu pegi Klang ambek kereta pastu... pastu.. bawak kreta balik rumah and aku akan tido dalam kreta baru malam ni. Hah hah.. Maybe pegi Hospital Serdang jap tengok nazme n effa, jumpe afar jap kalo die ade kat spital lagi [nenek afar masuk ICU.. sian die..] pastu bawak nazme jenjalok ah..

Hmm.. tu je ah. Aku nak kene start study ah. Kotak buku tak unpack lagi. Haha.. Teringat lagi dulu Abg Lan penah ckp, 'jgn sia2kan cuti.. buat la bende pekdah sket, blaja masak ke ape..' tp aku x ikut ckp die, last2 nyesal. So skrg aku tanak nyesal lagi. At least so far aku ade gak ar study photography. Tp naik2 kolej ade berjuta test so kene study gak :'( Sob2.. Ok la, penat la merepek. Tata!~

special note:
i) Yesterday was afar's 22nd birthday!! Selamat Hari Jadi kawanku!
ii) Smalam thirah baru dapat results exam die. And I believe she did well this time. Haven't replied her message but I need some time to arrange my words so that I could make her feel acknowledged and appreciated. She really makes me proud of her.. Congrats thirah!

The Power Of Illumination

I've got so much to blog about but I'm not really in the mood. I am sooo knackered that I cannot do anything but setting up my new photo blog. I've been waiting for an activation email from fotopages for centuries but they still cannot avoid from getting on my nerves. Flickr Pro is the most reliable photo blog I've ever known so far but that's if you could pay 30dollars for every feature they offer and I'm not that rich. Fortunately, at a very right time, Vox appears to be another dependable site. Well, I hope so. I've just posted my first post today so can't say much about it. For the rest of the comments, feel free to drop by the site.

Something Better

Firman Allah: 001_3

~Apa yang ada pada kamu akan habis dan hilang lenyap, dan apa yang ada di sisi Allah tetap kekal; dan sesungguhnya Kami membalas orang-orang sabar dengan memberikan pahala yang lebih baik dari apa yang telah mereka kerjakan~

"Maka, bila mana kita mempunyai sesuatu yang bernilai dan berharga, serahkanlah ia kepada Allah agar tetap terpelihara di sisiNya.

Bila mana kita diselubungi sesuatu keputusan yang tidak pasti, seperti keputusan peperiksaan, keputusan pertandingan, keputusan interview atau apa jua penantian, maka serakanlah ia pada Allah.

Bila mana kita mempunyai sahabat-sahabat karib, ahli keluarga, saudara mara yang kita sayangi, serahkanlah mereka ke sisi Ilahi agar kekal abadi, dijaga rapi dan dipelihara Allah SWT. Sentiasa dan selamanya.

So, berserah sajalah kepada Allah atas segala apa yang kita ada dan bersabarlah menerima ketentuanNya. Kalau Allah tak kabulkan apa yg kita pinta pada waktu ni, jgnlah kita mengeluh atau sedih. InsyaAllah Dia kabulkan doa kita pada waktu lain dgn sesuatu yg lebih baik atau dengan cara yang lebih baik. InsyaAllah :) Kan tertulis dalam Al-Quran, Allah tu Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang. Kalam Allah tu janji Allah, kebanyakan manusia tidak mengetahui. Yakinlah kita dengan kata-kataNya. Sifat Maha PenyayangNya itu tak sama dengan sifat sayang segala makhluk. Renungkanlah~ :)"

Someone once wrote that. Maybe I need to calm myself down before the next killing semester comes. Sigh..

To nazi and sarah, thanx for your concern and thanx a lot for the encouraging words :)

Hang In There

"Nampaknya hobi menangkap gambar semakin tertutup rapat. Good luck untuk Erin dan Arep dengan kamera masing-masing dan sentiasalah belajar untuk jadi yang terbaik." -encik niz@m yang sungguh pelik dan mungkin ade sakit mental.

Tak tahu nape tapi aku rase sedih dengan kenyataan yang dibuat oleh beliau. Terase sungguh sentimental sekali. Rase nak nangis. Sob2.. Adoi..

Anyways, I’ve once blogged about my anxiety over my future carrier. And I just realized that there has been an argument about the working hours of housemen.

• This. [A@ron was my super senior]
• This. And..
• This.
  

Sue me if you wish but I will never concur with the current health service the Government is working on. Different people have different views but to think out of the box, housemen are the last people who deserve to be treated that way.

All these stuff, they have been bothering me these few days. So many events cropped up without warning and I’m becoming more fretful from day to day. I’m not even sure now whether I’m capable enough to keep striving on this line. The desire is too strong that I would go for it no matter what, whichever path I have to go but… I just don’t feel confident with myself at times. After got rejected by my first choice university, I cannot assure myself anymore whether I am meant for this vocation or not. I hate to disillusion myself and I want to feel confident with myself but I’m not that strong.

All this while, I’ve been dreaming to further my studies abroad [in the UK particularly] and become a good muslimah doctor and Alhamdulillah, I was chosen to be on the right track. I’ve been given a scholarship, which means I’m beholden to other people’s trust to make sure that one day, the money that I was paid for is worth every drop of sweat that other people are showered with. And with that, I should have gained self-beliefs from every return of acknowledgement I obtained but the rivalry is too intense and never gets any easier. When my other colleagues are worrying about getting offered by all universities they apply to, I’m idly floating in the air, not sure whether to get even one offer. And when they come about with ‘Tu la, sape suruh nak jadik doctor’ or ‘Naseb baek aku bukan medic student’ kind of statements, all I could do is just be strong and be proud of myself for having the strength to go through every predicament that is coming along. They could never experience and understand how satisfying it is to help and cure other unfortunate people in need.

I used to dream about working for few years in the UK, get married, get my MRCPs done, become a specialist and then get back to Malaysia and serve my country with every expertise I gained. But the other day, Along Ima told me that her friend, a King’s graduate and an MRCPs holder is coming back due to the unemployment of international doctors in the UK. They now give priority to the EU doctors. So, that in a way explains why Leicester is now calling for only 100 international students for interview and I’m not lucky enough to be in the list.

The other day, thirah asked me, “Katekan la one day, awak dapat offer to read medicine kat UK and right before awak fly overseas, tiba2 awak jumpe your mr. Perfect and korang decide to get married. The problem is, the guy cannot tag you along to the UK sebab masalah keluarga or ade business besar kat Mesia. And he is just the right person for you and you cannot imagine your life without him. Will you go for your dream or for the guy?”. Within a few nanoseconds, the words ‘my dream’ slipped through my tongue. And I knew how thirah struggled to make me understand that the guy is just the ONLY man and it’s a decision that has no turning back, whether I go with the guy I love, have a family and continue with my dream to be a doctor with a local degree OR leave the guy, study abroad, be a doctor and will never have a family. "No matter what, I would go for my dream. First, kite tak leh bayangkan diri kite in that kind of situation. Second, after sacrificing my whole life for my dream, I won’t let it slip away just like that." I couldn’t even give myself a second thought on that because I couldn’t imagine myself letting go my ultimate goal. But what really came to mind was ‘Am I gonna hold an extreme job and become a workaholic or am I gonna become a good mother and a good wife?’.

See… I keep on thinking and thinking. I can’t help myself.

For now, I cannot just quit, start on my own business and leave my college just like that. Or can I? Hah hah.. No no.. that is soo irrational. You know what, sometimes, the more I think about it, the more stronger I become and this is not the right time for me to give up and the time will never arrive. I’ve thought about it and now, I’m not sure if to not commit to the UK universities is the right thing to do. I’m contemplating now whether to give myself a chance to apply to IUMC or RCSI. It’s not really a big deal actually. As long as I have a strong faith in Allah and I know, wherever He puts me in and whichever way He destines me for, it will always be the best outcome for me. And I hope I will always cling to that belief.

Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

The Warmth

It has been quite a while. I’ve been in my own world that I somehow put this blog aside. But it has been good though. The world.. it treats me great.

I went to PD last Monday and got back home last Wednesday. Mum got a seminar in Guoman Hotel and Dad had to make a business trip to Melaka so worse come to worse I had to drive. The journey was not that long and tiring so there was nothing I needed to complain about. The place was stunning (!) because first, the scenery was spectacular, second, it provided me with loads of subjects to photograph and third, it gave me a chance to meet a hot guy. Daym! I wish the moment froze for eternity! Anyways, I was very glad to get the opportunity to snap some nice and gorgeous pictures.

“Anid, diri sane! Eh tak diri sini!”
“Ape..ko ingat aku model ke?”
“Asal? Tanak jadik model?”
“Kalo ko jadik photographer nye watpe. Takde klas!”
“Cis! Tak kire.. diri sane! Posing maut cepat!”
And there you go.. I think the B&W mode is better tapi tak geti nak edit bagi lawa. But I think that’s ok. I had to be the photographer after all. That’s why anid and icah kene jadik model. I couldn’t be the model sebab kalau anid or icah tangkap mesti goyang!! Cis.. As for the second one, the photo is not crisp enough. I was in a hurry so I couldn’t stop the shake. But I like the angle from which I snapped it. I used low ISO, wide aperture and low shutter speed. As for the third, I tried eight times to get the right one! Hah.. But I think it still can be improved. Low shutter speed, wide aperture and large ISO. To tell you the truth, I haven’t mastered the right combination of all those criteria yet. I’m still experimenting but they still turned out quite impressively though. And I haven’t reached the level to be proud of myself, don’t worry. I got tones and tones of things to learn. There are more pictures actually but I haven’t finished to make some editing and retouching. Just got my laptop back so I need to work on other photos first.

Anyways, I went to UN!M just now with Thirah. Since Mum and Dad had some work to settle off in Klang regarding the tax for the new car so we had to pull off by 630pm and we reached there by maghrib. To be honest, I wasn’t expecting anything AT ALL. I just went there just as my manner to pay @my a visit and just to look around. But much to my surprise, @my and friends cooked some scrumptious food and they invited some other friends for dinner, one of whom was someone I know and I wasn’t really pleased and anticipating for that moment. But for the first time, I didn’t feel any awkwardness at all like I used to feel whenever he’s around. We were like normal friends and I was glad to feel that way. Before he arrived, my heartbeat was so fast that I barely felt my heart was pumping. Sounds exaggerating but it’s kinda true though. Perhaps I was just in a shock stage. But everything went off smoothly. I couldn’t deny that I was happy to see him back. I was very glad. But to some extents, I wish I didn’t meet him at all, especially at that moment, because I’ve promised to myself to let everything go. So I’m beholden to that promise and I cannot break it in any way. I know I sound so stupid and childish, I admit it. But if that can make me happy so, let it be. I’m sorry for myself for everything but that’s what I should expect in the first place.

To thirah, @my, int@n, di@na, d!ni, zu| and ru2@ini, thanx for the nice dinner and the warmth. I couldn’t thank more. And to thirah, you are right :) I couldn’t stop myself from blogging about the incident. Heh.. Nanti kite blanje starbucks ;) and to you-know-who, enjoy yourself in the training. I know you've been dying to go for it because I know you're amongst the chosen ones. And thanx a lot for the great time... It was good to see you back.

p/s: I've received the rejection e-mail from Leicester. No comment[fullstop]

My own comments...

..on my own photos.. Just bear with it. If you can't stand the self-glorious words I'm going to write, then you can close this window if you wish.

To start off this entry, I finally received a reply from one of Amy's team members. What she wrote in her website were enough to convince and encourage me to keep me on this line. It's not that I've given up before [well, to be honest, I did have a slight thought of that] but I just need some words of support that can drive me forward and yea, Amy had done a good job. So I was contemplating to get one for myself and I’ve told Dad if he would give me a green light and he said ‘yes’ :) But when I told Abg @mir about it, he said it’s too expensive and he could find a cheaper one at eBay so, that’s what I’m waiting for right now. Heee~

So I stayed up these few nights, winding up the book and now I know what all those photographical terms mean. It’s quite interesting to know that all this while; I’ve never known such thing. I mean, we’ve been having a camera since ages ago but we’ve never known how it properly works. All we knew was just to get a right angle [which most of the time were not very accurate actually] and click the shutter straight away without knowing that there are other things that actually play other major roles. But that’s the second matter. What actually matters after all is how all those photographs that we took have gotten the power to stop the memorable moments and how they steal our hearts with expressions they potray. Aren’t they powerful? I don’t know.. I just think they’re authoritative in pronouncing emotion that lies within.

But anyways, I went to Klang the other day with Mum Dad and anid. I saw the new replacement. At that time, I didn’t really feel excited. Dunno why.. Maybe I was not expecting much. But not that I hate it. I like it really but.. it just didn’t lift the exhilaration out of me. Hah.. it’s just a car after all, I couldn’t look forward to anything could I? But I took some pictures anyhow. And after putting endless effort on photoshop, these are what I finally come out with :)

What I really like about this picture is the not-so-deep DOF. And the black shadow effect fits just nicely. But it's not the best picture anyway. I just like the outcome :)

And for this one, the shadow effect is ok la but the DOF is not that good. I'm still working on getting the right DOF tapi masih tak berjaye. Huhu.. I'm sure it's not that hard but what you have to know is just the right skill and the right steps to take.

And I like this picture :) Bukan sebab anid la of kos (!) but this is the right colour scheme and the right effect I've been working on all this while. Cumenye yang tak brape menjadik is anidnye kulit mcm bepenyakit sket. Haha.. Naseb baek anid je so takde hal lah. Huhu..

Out of all pictures, I like this one the most. But if only the DOF is good, it'd look much much better. And kalau lagi banyak variety of colours lagi lawa but this is satisfying enough :)

And as for this one, it doesn't look that successful kan? Bughuk ar jugak the filled-in blue colour but variation wise, it doesn't look that bad. But it can be improved though.

So I need to restart my project. The only problem now is that my laptop is ill so ade kat kedai and all pictures ade dalam laptop and I'm crossing my fingers that it wouldn't need to be reformated kalau tak memang mati. Oh tidaaakk~ Sob2..

To end this off, I'm more encouraged now :)

When two hearts are meant to be one

While we were watching ‘Beyond Borders’..

Abg @mir: Eh, sape name mamat ni eh..
Kak Su£: Tak ingat laa.. Clive something..
Abg @mir: Bukan bukan.. something Owen..
Kak Su£: Ade pulak.. bukan laa. I’m very sure it’s Clive something..
Abg @mir: Ish.. Bukan! Something Owen laa..
Dina: Shhhhh! Orang nak tengok tv la! *concentrating on the screen*
Kak Su£: Ya Allah.. tak percayeeee. Ok, nanti dah habes, tengok casting..

At the end of the movie..

Abg @mir and Kak Su£: Haaa.. Clive Owen!!
Dina: Bengong! Aduhaii…

Credit to Nadya

A long ramble..

I’M FINALLY HOME! YEAY!~

Sungguh banyak benda yg berlaku in these few days.

The college drama performance was taking place last Wednesday, ‘C0mmunicati0n Pr0bl3m’ which I think the best drama of all.

Bangsawan practice dah start. Although aku tak bleh nak deny ade banyak sangat problem berkaitan dengan bangsawan yang rase macam nak pecah kepala but that is what we expected. I’m in charge of the props and naseb baek Bad is my counterpart so boleh harap jugak la pakcik tu and senang sket keje. Kalo keje ngan the other housecapt, aduhai.. And the most embarrassing and surprising part is, I’m one of the cast. HAHAHAHAHA.. Tak bleh blar btol. Hari tu time audition, all the heads of department kene attend jugak and masa tu takde sape yang nak jadik one of the dayang and aku pun rase macam nak test2, jadik la dayang tu kejap. Tak pasal2 director suruh aku go for the position. Aduhai… but not as the main actress la. Konfem diamond kalah! Haha.. but it’s fun to work together with the rest of the team la and as of now the pressure is still bearable. I’m just dreading of the next semester when the force starts to kick in *sigh* Btw, more pictures will be posted later on.

These are ‘the white children’ bak kate Aqt@r. These gifted and chosen students came all the way from the UK to visit Malaysia to see and learn new things about our multicultural events and also to discuss world issues with some of the students from our college. I wasn’t involved in the programme so I didn’t have many photos to share. They are nice, very friendly and we’re glad to hear good feedbacks from them during the end of semester assembly yesterday morning, the day when the break started. They’re doing A-level as well but they’re still in their first year. Muke sume matured gile tapi diorang baru 16tahun. The way they talked in front of the crowd, giving their presentation and performances, they really showed how different they are from Malaysian kids in their age.

End of semester dinner went along well. Since the ‘white children’ were here, we called it Malaysian Cultural Night instead. The event was ok la. Menarik la jugak and the food were awesome! Sedap gile sampai full and rase nak tido kat dewan tu jugak. Heh.. The performances were ok and the cleaning-up-session was a bit frustrating though sebab junior sume cam siot tak tolong langsung. Lepas dah habes kemas sume, our beloved pn. r0g complaint about the juniors. She’s a bit worried sebab junior sume cam siot, takde sape yang menonjol and kitorang tak nampak lagi budak2 yang layak to run for Student C0unci| next year. Sehampeh2 post housecaptain pun aku tak nampak lagi budak yang bleh take over nanti. Agak kecewa la but I think they’ll learn over time. Perhaps they just need extra time.

And the most frustrating news is, I’m not called for Leicester interview. Actually, last week Bad received a rejection email from Leicester and that was enough to sent shock waves amongst the medic students who applied to that univ because we thought, that particular univ was ‘easy’ enough for us to get a place since it’s said to have this so-called good relationship with our college but when I knew that I wasn’t called for the interview, I wasn’t that shocked. Tak tahu nak rase ape. Sedih tu memang la tapi… ntahla. Bak kate athirah ‘Dina.. kite dah rase macam awak akan dapat notts yg awak tanak pegi tu..’. Hah.. rezeki and luck.. that’s about it. All I could do is just keep on praying. I know Allah has something else better for me :) I know He would never let me down.

Remember the project that I was talking about? Well, initially, I wanted to present my photos on the net by using the simpleviewer. But then, the other day, Fir@ told me that she had come out with her own collection of art in deviantArt. I’ve been hearing about deviantart dari dulu tapi tak terase macam menarik to come out with my own but basically, her’s is actually like the project that I’ve been working on. But needless to say that her photos are waaaaay much better than mine [at least she once joined the photography club and I’m sure she learnt some of the skills then while I started everything on my own from scratch!] so please don’t compare. You can but I know you must have lots of things to comment on mine. Well, please do if you wish but I’m not expecting much anyhow. The highness of clicking the shutter is enough at least to me. Most of her photos were edited by photoshop but mine was edited by ONLY Picasa and the results are of course different. So I was planning to change a bit on my project which of course, edit my pictures with Photoshop tapi kalau nak tunggu siap memang lama ar. Dah la skill cam siot. But anyway, this is one tenth of everything. Hah.. I need to re-edit the pictures. Click the image to go to the site.

Anyway, just now I drove the new car. Ohhooooo sungguh menarik sekali! Definitely lagi power dari Sentra but of course the beemer lagi best. I was on my way back from Hosp Serdang sebab hantar along ima balik and tiba2 seekor kancil dengan yakinnye memotong kereta2 lain and baru aku perasan yang aku tak bleh tengok kalo kereta kecil seperti CLK nak potong2 kereta lain. Tak tahu apesal… menyampah meluat sume ade. Bukan la nak eksyen tetapi.. oh mengapa? Kalau modified punye kereta aku bleh paham tapi.. oh, sungguh saye tidak faham. Maka saye pun 'mencuba2' dan akhirnye encik CLK tewas juge. Hoho *bahagia* syok gak ar dah lame tak racing :) Nak kene tunggu afar dapat die punye Waja berenjin Turbo dulu. Huhu..

So it's almost 4.. This is the standard time I go to bed during holiday. Kadang2 kalau 'study' photography tak tido langsung pun pernah. Heh.. But all in all, I've got to get LOADS OF THINGS done during this holiday so I shall start plan things out. Fuh~