When the Nature sings

I AAAAMMMM SOOOOO HAPPPPYYYY!!!!

Why?

Because I have a new boyfriend!! Finally!! Hahaha.. Yep yep.. He sms-ed me this morning and he finally made his confession. After centuries waiting, I knew he’d give in. Nevertheless, I know commitment is not something easy and simple. When you want to start giving commitment, there is when sacrifice that I’ve said before comes in. It might look trouble-free and effortless as you’re actually dealing with someone you love and someone who loves you but the truth is, it is not as straightforward as you think. Once you’ve involved in such situation, loads of things you need to consider and take care of.

Errmmm…ermmm…

Ok la, I know I’m very lame at lying. I’m crapping like shite, I know. Hahaha.. Buruk gile perangai…

No laa.. I’m still single and available laaaa [can’t imagine how you ppl would react. “Haaa?? Dina ade pakwe?? Mimpi ape ni?” Haha..]

So… the trip was fantastic. Although we didn’t really go to so many places but jalan2 naik kereta beemer was a WOW!! We went to Penang Hill but didn’t go up there because the next trem trip was unfortunately in 2hours’ time so along ima decided to go to the bird park laa and whatnots. The funny part is, along ima misread the map. So, last2 dari Penang Hill balik Georgetown balik and only to find that all the parks were not smack bang in the middle of the town [bird park dekat tengah2 bandar?? Apakah?] so in the end, we just went to Batu Feringhi [if it’s not misspelled] and lepak2.

I think I’ve fallen in love with the beach laa. Serious.. I could just sit there, doing nothing, listen to the sound of the waves, counting the waves, the birds, taking pictures like a crazy person and just relax!! I mean, I can’t get that anywhere else!! It’s like, having a tryst with my own and only world! Eceyh poyo laa pulak. Dulu, somebody asked me, which place I’d prefer to stay; at the side of the beach or at the top of a hill. I used to like both places. But since God-knows-when, I feel so belonged to the beach, makes me feel so calm and comfortable. Ni yang tak boleh apply univ kat tepi laut ni, confirm tak belaja, buat course photography plak nanti. Haha.. So yea, I took some pictures..

So.. jeng jeng jeng.. here comes the best part!

Firstly, I took one of the best pictures I’ve ever taken. And then, I edited the picture. YES!!! I EDIT THE PICTURE BEB![tapi takde laa lawa mane..Haha..] So it looks way much better than the original one. Not to say that I’m a bad photographer la kan [memang pun..Haha..] but the fact that the pictures that I TOOK are not like mine others, I feel sooo contented. Hehe.. But not by using Phot0shop laa. My Phot0shop skill is like…blerrgggh. I used another software. Photo Editor ape ntah. But not that bad laa..

Secondly…I can now use the ‘lightbox’!!!! Happy tak terkate beb!!! Penat aku duk depan laptop nih berjam2. Balik2 je penang terus switch on the laptop and bersengkang mate. Finally, I did it :) Nyeh2..Dah nak dekat 2jam tersengih lebar ni. Hehe.. So, here are the pictures. If you want to know what the ‘lightbox’ is [but wait until the page is completely loaded], click on the image and, VOILA!! Enjoy the pics :)

Sooo..in conclusion, my boyfriend is missing in action. Hehe.. Owh, talking about my boyfriend, I came across a BENTLEY beb! It was on the highway and Abg N0rman was speeding at about 180km/h [agak laa membawa maut tapi naik beemer tak rase ah. Heh..] and then, from afar, there came my boyfriend. He sped with elegance and traveled at breakneck speed and…I just got the thrill. 200km/h siot! Memang cun gile ah. Coincidentally, the owner of the car is Along ima’s friend’s brother. Along ima punye kawan tu naik Ferrari. Hahaha…Bapak toke balak beb, mane tak kaye. Yang rase macam nak menjerit tu, Along Ima asked her friend [he’s a doctor and currently doing his masters somewhere in UK so bajet ah kalau naik Ferrari tapi…], ‘So, what does your brother do?’. And he answered, ‘Nothing..spending the money’. Cis!!! Doing nothing and driving a Bentley???! Yep, itulah Dunia. Well, at least it comes as a gentle reminder kan? So, I’m not that thrilled anymore. I’m still engrossed with photos. Heh..

Ok, I’m done and need my rest. Till then.. Nite!

Cuti-Cuti Malaysia

I first started involving myself in the cyber world when I was a bout 12 (having an email, chatting and e-kuzing are lumped together). It was as of then I knew some of my friends of who are still in contact. Throughout those years, I got to know some new stuff and gained quite a lot.

Then, the moment I started to endeavor to blog, I came to learn all those coding and html stuff all by myself. Well, figuratively, I called for helps from a few people but most of the time I decided everything on my own. If it’s lawful for me to copy people’s masterpieces (I’m not talking about template laa.. I know nothing about web-designing, I admit), I would have done that sooner but I found that seeking for things and put them up in piece all according to what I like and what I feel good about is something that can’t be received from other people. After months and years of hassles, then I learnt the word ‘garner and harvest’. Superficially, it doesn’t appear to be that of use. Maybe to other people, it doesn’t. But nobody tastes the good but me ;p

So Lupi wants to have his own photoblog. Perhaps it’s to give his friend and friends an easy access to his current updates. I don’t know. But he is surely gonna need my help. He’s such an illiterate, I tell you. Huhu.. Oh by the way, I bet some of you might have recognised this template. Yep, need a new atmosphere. But maybe it's just only for a while. The 'chair in the snow' is still my fav. Heh.. And I'm currently learning on the 'lightbox'. Have been sitting for hours in front of this laptop, figuring out how to use it. Wait until I give up, I'll ask for help. Hehe.. But it's kinda exciting, really.

Anyway, my 2-week holiday is moving on apace. Have been said that another week left is for me to be more pedantic, particularly for my UC@S application. Out of 4 universities I’m allowed to apply to, I only have one in mind. I’m still of two minds over the other three. Haih…and persona| statement lagi. Agak laa cuak di situ. Oh, and I’ve been contemplating to learn s0ny vega$ basic stuff. The other day, kat te|uk rubi@h, my group was the only group to present picture slideshow. Group lain buat video presentation. Terasa bodoh jugak ar tak geti gune movie maker kan. Hahaha.. So was I that keen, I sms-ed imr@n, mintak tolong ajar (he’s somewhat a pro laa..) tapi dah 2 minggu cuti, asyik x jadi je pegi umah die. Huhu.. last2 belajar sendiri je ah. It’s not that hard I guess. Hopefully laa.. Heh..

So I guess that’s about all for now. I need to take my bath. Along Ima will be picking me and icah up kejap lg. We’re gona have a dinner at alamand@ and tomorrow we’ll be going off to penang for hols!!! Fewh..at least I really need that before the happiness ends *sob sob* Take care, people!

Sahabat

"Ku mencintai sahabatku dengan segenap jiwaku. Sahabat yang baik adalah seiring denganku dan menjaga nama baikku ketika aku hidup dan selepas aku mati. Hulurkan tangan kepada sahabatku untuk berkenalan kerana aku akan merasa senang. Semakin ramai sahabat, semakin aku percaya pada diri. Aku selalu berharap mendapat sahabat sejati yang tak luntur baiknya dalam suka dan duka. Jika aku dapat, aku ingin setia padanya.." - Imam Syafie

p/s: Happy 19th Birthday, Thirah :)

Lullaby

When I was about to email my friend;
“Oits..lame tak dgr cite!…”

Had it incomplete, I saved it as a draft. And without clicking on the ‘send’ button, she called me last night.

“Oooo dina, sombong sekarang eh!”

xxxxx

I was cleaning up my room. And as I rummaged through all those boxes, I bumped into Mu$taqim, my former school’s magazine. I remembered my friend on the spot, knowing that she’ll be coming home from aussie soon. And there she goes, she left me a message on the shoutbox :) kewl la beb. Hehe..

xxxxx

I was thinking of sms-ing my friend for other friend’s num;
“Ne|i, ade no sh@h tak?aku nak tanye die pasal promotion tu..”

And as I was about to click the ‘send’ button, my email alert sound went off.

Inbox (1)
“From: Him
To: Me and others..

….yada yada yada… do contact sh@h at 017-XXXXXXX”

“So do you believe in ‘chemistry’?”
“Well, I do believe in it and still trying to keep it strong. But when it comes to him, I need and have to do otherwise. If I need to pretend and lie to myself, so I’ll let it be. Perhaps that’s the best way out. Don’t really have many choices, do I?”
“But if you really do have a strong believe in it, you don’t have to pretend”
“No.. I have to. Exception does take place once in a while..”
“Is it hurt?”
“So much. But bearable. He gives me the strength somehow”
“To pretend and lie to yourself?”
“*chuckles* yea..in a way”
“But for how long?”
“Maybe it’ll take a few weeks..or months..or perhaps years. It depends. But I really hope it to end now.”
“Hah..you choose it to be that way, missy. Remember? But don’t worry, I know you’ll get over everything. You’re tough, I know”
“I hope sooo.. Thanx dude..”
"You'll give yourself a chance? I mean, you don't want to get stuck in the dark, do you?"
"*laugh* of course I will!"
"You're ready to move on?"
"It's not a simple thing to do, you see. I need to stay in the recovery room for a while. But yea, I have my own stars to reach."
"If so, you need to keep yourself contented and make sure you take your medicine on time. You surely don't want to be obsessed, right? Grab this chance ok?"
"Yea, I certainly will. Hey..thanx a lot yea :)"
"Don't be. You can count on me"

Sacrifice...

…is when you give up something that is valuable to you in order to help other person especially the one that you love and care the most. You won’t have the guts to sacrifice such precious thing until you know that it’s not the value that matters so much but the amazing feeling that you get when you see the ones that you love are at their highest peak of life.

Sacrifice appears to be anywhere especially when there are trust, hope and love. One might be contemplating over people he/she wants to sacrifice things for but no matter how hard the decision needs to be made, there will always bliss ahead. I used to believe in it. Even until now. To me, the happiest moment in one’s life is when he/she has made the greatest sacrifice just for the sake of other people especially when they least expect it. That’s the true happiness. Yet again, although it differs from one thought to another, it always brings about the same theme.

Sacrifice is made because it’s believed to have the ability to generate the contentment that sometimes could never be formed through other elements. When you want to be a great professional photographer, you need to invest and sacrifice so many things along the way. When you want to become a doctor, you need to sacrifice your whole life just to see other people get what they deserve in life. When you want to be a great true friend, you need to sacrifice your patience, serenity and understanding. When you want to become a great person, you need to sacrifice everything in your life, even if it’s the most hurtful thing to do. With all the wills you have, you lighten other people’s paths, you grab the falling hands, you lend your noble heart and you touch other people’s souls. Once you’ve done everything you need to, it’s all about satisfaction that speaks louder than anything.

And so… I’m in a process of learning on how to sacrifice myself for other people, especially the ones that can’t be replaced by anybody, the ones that have taught me so much about appreciation of my life, the ones who have given me endless help and support, the ones who have had falling-outs with me just to make sure I get what other people don’t, the one who simply have done and sacrificed everything for me.

Since I’ve accepted the lost, the truth, I know I’ve made one of the greatest sacrifices in my life. Maybe in a short run, I feel terrible and full of pretence but in a longer run, nobody knows the fulfillment and pleasure I’m about to face.

"...And for those who fear Allah, He (ever) prepares a way out. And He provides for him from (sources) he never could imagine. And if any one puts his trust in Allah, sufficient is ((Allah)) for him. For Allah will surely accomplish his purpose: verily, for all things has Allah appointed a due proportion." 65:a part of ayat2 and ayat3

The One with Traps!

18/06/06

0653 – The buses have just arrived to the female chalets area. My bags are already loaded onto the bus and now I’m on my way to the café for breakfast. Can’t wait to set off!

1334 – Tengah lepak2. The place is ok. Not a 5 star resort but much2 better than what we expected. At least we’re not staying in tents like what the initial plan was. The food is nice. The environment is great, both for doing research and traps and also for relaxation. The beach is beautiful! We’re enjoying it so much. That could at least drive me off from those distractions, so to speak. But I feel the lost though….

1819 – My group first experiment is setting up the insect pitfall traps. The task is not that tough as compared to say, handling with bubu stuff but the trap site is quite far away, requiring us to walk further! Sangat penat!! But it is fun though. And my group mates sangat sporting, really enjoy working with them. That’s the happy part. The melancholic part is unfortunately still somewhere in the void. But I’m getting used to it though. I know I can be far more better than this :|

2312 – Having a group project now. I’m sooo exhausted and sleepy. Waaarghh..

2349 – We’re now waiting for the other groups to arrive at the secretariat for the post mortem. My eyes can’t stand anymore! They’re struggling, man! I wanna sleep!! But anyways, I’m missing home badly :( and yea, regrettably, him too *sob sob*

19/06/06

0056 – I’m dozing off. I’m sure gona sleep like a log. Yaya’s not in. She went out to watch football (there’s a big screen in front of the café so there shouldn’t be any problem why you can’t keep updated on world cup). She invited me to join but I’m dying here, man! I’m not gonna sacrifice myself for that! Sleeping is far far more blissful than watching world cup. I’m soo thankful I’m not into those things. Well I used to follow each and every match but not this time around. Malas nak bersengkang mate during morning classes (I’m talking at the college). That is a sore homicide. Oh well… I’m crapping like shit I noe. Nite guys…

1205 – We’re just done with quadrat, sweep trap and soil test. It’s hot like *tut* and the scorching sun is going up higher. Now I’m waiting for the food to be served. Lapa gile siot. And ngantok gile beb!

1520 – We just got back from ‘bubu’ing. As expected, there was no catch and the baits were still there so we didn’t really do anything actually. So kitorg mandi pantai ah, ape lagi!! Sangat syok! The water was cool and the sand was a bit muddy so macam jalan atas snow (bajet gile haha poyo..). And then we walked along the beach. It was very very nice. I’ve always dreamt to walk together with someone along the shore, appreciate the beauty of the nature, value and realize the greatness of The Almighty, witness the luminosity of the sunset and take pictures like nuts. But yea, dreams are always disappointing…

1826 – I’m now at the coastline with Hann@h. Sangat2 cantik and nyaman. The weather is just nice and it’s just the right time for melancholic person like me to get deeper into the imaginings. We’re just done with mammal trap. Hampeh sekor pun x dpt. Tapi best ar lepak2 kat tepi pantai. Very the forlorn one. Hmm…

20/06/06

0027 – Fewh, just got back from fishing and light trap. Best!! The fishing part was interesting. So far my group got the highest number of fish. We got 5 fish of which none of them was caught by….m.e… heheh but the experience matters after all. Bak kate mr. @zman, ikan kecik2 je tapi riuh satu dunia. Hahah mesti la. First timer beb! Haha..But there was one embarrassing moment though. Can’t write it here coz u won’t get the joke but serious horror gile! Hehe.. Siot bash.. And then, like the previous night, we went to the light trap. And as usual, that was the boring part of the night. My group had been working on the insects since the first day! But since Sh@hrin (the ec0trip CEO) is in my group and he is soooooooooooooooo into insects, so I don’t really get my veto power as the group leader. Cis! Tapi takpe, the weather was nice and windy so layan jiwang gak ah. Heh.. I’m doing better. I really hope I can run everything away by now. Hope and keep on hoping…

0801 – Morning! I’m having my breakfast now, makan nasi goreng and telur dadar. Since my group doesn’t have to do many trap checking today, aku nak tido! Sangat ngantok! Enjoy the food!

1012 – Now I’m heading towards the beach. We’re just done with sweep trap and the next trap checking is at 12 so now we’re going for fishing!

1700 – Tadi buat underwater crab trap. Best gile!! But we only got 7 crabs. Unlike the first group to go early in the morning, they fortunately got 20 crabs! And then lepak2 satu group. Syok ah.. Heh..Tapi tak sabar nak balik rumah jugak!!!

1917 – I’m now at the beach, carik shells. And the sunset is beautiful!! I love beach. The sound of the waves really pushes me down into my deepest thoughts. Sometimes the emotive ambience does bring me down in a way. Such that it makes me reminisce things that I should not in the first place. It’s really not enjoyable at all, having this kind of feelings to be aware of. But that’s particularly my life…

2252 – Baru abes light trap. And we caught some elegant and exotic insects. Kewl gile!! But I don’t have the pictures now. They’re all in Sh@hrin’s. Now, we’re having supper sambil tengok bola german vs equador.

21/06/06

0124 – It was a tiring day. The crab pitfall trap ended around 12 and then I had to see w@wan at the secretariat to give group pictures. Kol 1 lebeyh baru sampai chalet. My legs are aching! Had been walking from one end of the world to other for hours. Sangat penat. But today was the most pleasurable day. We played with crabs and the traps got some catches! *gembire* Tomorrow will be the 2nd last day. Gonna miss everything in ecotrip! Waaaa….I really hate this feeling, man! But what to do, that’s life.. A happy start will always lead to a moving end.

1251 – Lunch kol 130 so I have a few minutes to kill so I wanna sleep! Pagi tadi we had beach activities. We had war between 2 groups. Violent gile.. Haha tapi best ar..Then we had tarik tali and proudly to announce that my group….l.o.s.t.. Heh..And then we had to clear up all the traps and pack all the equipments up to be loaded into the van. Sadis ec0trip dah nak abes. Wuwuwuw..This evening we’re gonna have group presentation and then the closing ceremony will take place around 8pm. And tomorrow we’re gonna pull off to kl early in the morning.Yay!

1834 – Volley time!!!

2248 – Guys can never be trusted. I don’t know what makes me say such thing (actually, I do) but seriously, I’m sick of it. Everytime I make that kind of statement, I know I’m being cynical and so I always try not to be skeptical but I just can’t. They always prove me right. It’s very disappointing, isn’t it? I mean, the guys whom I trust so much always turn out to be the worse. It’s just soo pathetic. Or perhaps it’s just me who always finds everything is not right. Haih.. I’m soo frustrated. But anyways, the closing ceremony went out smoothly. Mr. Sma|| and Dr. Ikma| were there too.

2351 – Bye2 crabby. Bye2 hermit crabby. Bye2 buggies. Bye2 waves. Bye2 palm trees. Bye2 secretariat. Bye2 fishy. Bye2 teluk rubiah. Bye2 ec0trap! Bye2 everything. Gudnite..

22/06/06

0814 – We just had our breakfast and now we’re waiting for the bus. Gonna miss teluk rubiah!!

1325 – We’re now at the college, dropping the hi-coms, staff and equipments off. Others will be heading straight to kl central in a few minutes time.

2322 – Everything is over. I mean, E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G. I’ve learnt a lot..

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