What a dreadful days ahead..*sigh*

Well, I don't seem like preparing myself for what happened recently. I don't know why but I seem like not really in a blogging mode. Things keep dwelling in my brain and they're penetrating this old skull of mine too eager to earn their own freedom. I can't really tell how is the process going on but it's sort of slow..and lame.. I don't know..

Anyway, let us not let the boredom control the mood right now.

So, what is up?

Well, I was planning to pay a visit to some of my friends especially that 'somebody' who is secluded there in INTEC (hehe..) but the thing is, I have to wait for my turn to use the car, Lupi is staying at home right now and is waiting for his results, remember? And in between, sitemap to INTEC (Shah Alam generally) is rarely can be seen in my head (no, I'm not going to lose my oh-so-precious time at this period of days) so I asked a few friends of mine if they know how to get there and if they could get me a ride but everybody need to catch up their own stuffs so, I am kinda hopeless right now. Need to seek for the mood again. Heh..

Anyway, my registration day is coming nearer and nearer. It is less than two weeks from now but still, I don't really get myself prepared for the thing. Well, you know, things like searching any information about the college, what subjects offered, how the education system goes, the surroundings and environments and all. Oh perhaps, looking for those who'll be in the same boat just like what Ai did (He asked me about Zul. Hehe..). And I did nothing. Except....well, I've heard that we're going to have a swimming test in the first week, or perhaps during the induction week (Right, Ai?) if I'm not mistaken so I really need to get the cap that I've been talking about in my previous post. Personally, I aint really pro at swimming so, might end up struggling to death for air at the bottom of the pool. Heh.. But no, not that bad. I'm going out with Thirah tomorrow so, 'that cap' would be in the what-to-buy list.

So, I'm digressing now. I think people around me started to talk about you-know-what. Si A is now in a relationship and Si B pulak is planning to buy a present for his birthday. While Si C is now weeping over things that he'd done. Oh this typical thing, I'm sick of it. Needless to say that I'm trying to shun away from all these craps but what choice do I have when Mum started to chat about this? Come on....I'm 18 and still have a veryy, I mean VERY long way to go so why bother? Just let the time comes at its own pace and let it speaks on its own way ok?

I better go. Somebody is waiting for me on the phone x)

oh dummies the dumbbells!

SCENE I
Doc: Tolong admitkan patient ni under diagnosis of dengue.
MA: Dengue? Bukan cirit-birit ke?
Doc: No, it's dengue.
MA: Oh, ok. Dengue eh? Betul ke?
Doc: Yes, it's dengue, you dumb! *and the doc throws an odd stare*

SCENE II
Patient: Err doctor, dalam hidung saya ni mcm ada benda. Sakit pulak tu.
Doctor: Oh, tu jerawat dalam hidung je.
Patient: Oh, kalau macam tu..saya batuk sebenarnya.
Doctor: Ok, nanti saya bagi ubat batuk. Pakcik ni banyak songeh betul!!! *rolls eyes*

I just cant imagine what way would I react if I face this kind of dumbers. Not to say that they are as brainless as the donkeys but they just don't go with the exact ethics and manners. Do they think by being an annoying and ticking-people-off person would raise up their income or anything? Or, maybe they're too dumb and by making a fool and infliction to somebody who obviously knows better than them would reflect them as smart people??? Come on guys, get a brain!!

So now I know why people say doctors need to be patience. Not just for handling with the real patient but for dealing with this kind of creatures! *sigh..*

sixteen days to go

..and I'm still counting.

I just got back from Muar. Visited my grandmas and uncles have seemed what I've been looking forward to since last two months. And the best part was, I ate durians harvested from Dad's orchard at Parit Besar and they were the best durian so far. Totally finger-licking. Aaahh, they were too perfect and heavenly good!

The news about me getting the scholarship and soon will be going for KYUEM is spreading all around the town amongst the family and relatives. Not that I'm pleased of myself but thinking about the expactations they are pinning on me, that's rather mind-numbing. Boy, how I hate expactations.

And so I have read the blog of mr. secretary of previous SCs of my soon-to-be-college. His words and the usage of english vocabulary really amaze me. I'm pretty sure he'd done such a good job as being one of the SCs is not something easy.

Considering all the pros and cons, the place would rather be someplace one would be grateful to be at. All the housetrips to Pulau Kapas, Langkawi (hey, this used to be my homeswithome, people!), and yada yada. I mean, that's cool! And yet, swamping by those shitloads assignments, exams and all, these are the only things that people would shake their heads for.

When I say "Owh, I'll soon be in Lembah Beringin" people constantly thought it's a windy and calm and peaceful place implying the word 'beringin' there. Heh.. I've never been there before, so, can't say much about that. But one certain things is, I'm really looking forward to get the ball rolling!!

Haih..what a life...

I am soo..

...fulfilled today.

I drove to Kolej Mara Banting all alone. Planning to JUST meet up all the friends but it turned out helping people out. Owh, don't get me wrong. This rather not a complaint, just see it as a hand, okay.

For the first time, I went there with a reason apart from picking Lutfi up after his week of school days. I pulled off at 830 and that means, no short-distanced parking was available. I had to park the car somewhere I really not pleased to with the scorching sun and all but duhh..

As I jumped out the car, I saw Ada (my former schoolmate back then during primary years) with her parents. That was quite an unexpectation though since I thought she has been somewhere else. You know, she used to be the most competitive rival back then and she was the one who grabbed 'my title' and then she moved to a school that most of the people claimed better than mine (STF) and now, she's in an average place. Get what I mean? No need to be such braggart, no? Owh, she's not that kind of person though ^^

So, I met quite a bunch of ex-maresmawians there. Everyone looked kinda pleased to be in such place. Needless to say that most of them are, shall I say coincidentally roomates? Yes, most maresmawians chose the same club as roomate. Couldnt consider it as unfair right? It's just as fair as it is.

Everything went off just perfect. So, I drove off to Bangi around the noon.

Did I say I feel fulfilled today?

Yes, I was smug. That cute Celcom guy callled me twice today! =) Haha.. How sweeeeet~

Poorly, Celcom just made up new conditions about their new MINUTES POSTPAID PLAN which is the need to pay for the registration fee for those aged between 18 to 20 which supposedly free! Well, that was what those promoters said. But today, they said we need to pay the registration fees due to some not-very-good assumptions made by them. But whatever..He called me =) Darn Celcom!

And now, the call had put me on drugs *sigh* I'm soo ecstatic! (Ok, that's silly..)

By evening, I went to KRU. I did pretty good today although it was not as good as usual but since I havent been swimming for quite a long time, eleven laps are way more than enough. Heh..

That day, I went out with Yah to KLCC and was about to but a new cap at Studio R (It's soo nice!) but the price was like 6 times than the usual, so, need to reconsider it again. *sigh* And now I think I will get one, no matter what!

Yes, I am soo fulfilled.

In the days of yore..

Aimran called me last night and that was the third time in these straight three days. He's doing alright and that's the main purpose though, to tell me that everything is going well. I'm glad that he finally does something that he had wished for and that's cool. Now, I just need to wait and queue up maybe, to join him flying in the air not without wings, but with two metal wings instead. Aaaaw, it must be real fun! Hehe.. I'm honoured to be invited to his brother's wedding this July but since the ceremony will take place after my registration day in kyuem, so hopefully I'm able to go back home during that first weekend. If there's anyone to accompany me and a car to drive, I'll try to come.

Somehow, Aimran's call couldnt make my mood any better. I had somewhat a falling-out with someone and till right this second, those harsh words keep lingering in my head. I was really fumed and felt the rage boiled up within myself. But I tried to be as positive and cool as I could. Just imagine how hard you should take when the most precious relationship you have ever been in had finally come to an end. The person who once was the only thing you cared for and the only one that you would sacrifice ANYTHING for is now the furthest thing you could ever reach. Ok, that was quite a hiperbole because that's not what my matter is all about but the feelings cant go any different too much. Of course, guiltiness might get the control most of the time but what the heck, he'd chosen what he wants and I should just go on with my own life. It's now over. No need to recall any of those stupid things anymore.

So, in calming and getting myself better, I decided to clear up all those junks in my room. And what I found were these:

My 'previous blogs' where I wrote almost everything in them. Everything in a sence of what I felt, thought of and anything regarding to my perception of thinking. You know, when you feel like you are the only person ever alive with a mind that no one could merely understand and people around you are going against what you do, nothing would make you feel any good but write down your thoughts into something that totally revolves your own world. And you might feel as souped up as you deserve to. Then you'll reach your self-satisfaction.

These are cards that I received from Along Ima, Angah Aya and Abang Amir during their study in UK. Full of encouragement and saccours that when I felt like a repellent dud and a total failure, they were what pulling me to stand up again. Even until now..

These are things that I've been locking up in my cupboard since I was a girl who knew nothing about 'appreciation' until now that I know how to isolate between those who appreciate people and those who are not. It's not that I want to be appreciated but it's just somewhat an inspiration. (Bla bla bla..)

Hurmm..this is supposed to be given to Hafiz tapi...something was wrong and I knew that he wouldnt even open it and read it on so, buat apa nak bagi. Buang lagi bagus..So, anyone who'll be turning 21 soon, just ring me a bell. It's unwritten by the way =p (Dun worry afar, I'll get you a brand new one. Hehe..And Roy, wait for this card tau! Haha..)

Hmm..the problem is, kemas bilik pun masih tak berjaya untuk membaiki mood ini. *pasrah* Ok la, need to feed my belly =) Hope it will make me slightly good. Have a nice day!

Perjalanan Jauh (Part II)

WARNING: This entry is the sequence of the previous post. It might include all sorts of absurdities so again, you may SKIP THE READING.

12 Jun
Pagi tu saya ingat saya paling awal bangun, rupa-rupanya Izyan dah ada dalam bilik air tengah mandi. Alang-alang ada orang dalam toilet, saya meneruskan lagi tidur saya seminit dua (lebih 2minit kot.Heh..) Kemudian, sekali lagi saya dan Izy terpaksa menjalankan tanggungjawab yang sungguh berat sekali iaitu untuk mengejutkan Aimi dan Man yang sememangnya kaki tidur.

Selepas bersiap-siap, kami pun keluar untuk mencari sarapan pagi. Kami menarik beg tarik masing-masing sehingga la terserempak dengan Husniyah bersama bapanya. Pada mulanya kami ingin bersarapan di Restoran Khaleel tetapi mendangkan kami mengejar feri pada pukul 830 maka kami pun terpaksa tapau makanan dan minuman pagi. Izyan sempat call Faiz untuk menyuruhnya membelikan tiket untuk kami berlima namun Faiz memberitahu bahawa feri 830 tidak sempat untuk dikejar maka kami terpaksa menaiki feri pada pukul 9.

Setibanya di jeti Kuala Kedah, dari jauh sudah kelihatan kelibat Faiz aka Pait aka Abu (sungguh banyak nama kawanku ini..) Mukanya tersenyum gembira melihat kedatangan kami berlima. Kami sempat lagi berkenalan dengan Mak Udanya (kalau tak silap laa.takpun Mak Ndak ke..Tapi bukan Maklong la..) dan sepupunya yang sungguh comel. Selepas mendapat tiket, kami pun bergerak laa ke platform yang sepatutnya. Dalam feri, kami semua terlena kerana terlalu letih. Lagipun feri mengganas membuatkan kami semua berasa lelong maka tidur adalah langkah terbaik.

Setibanya di jeti Langkawi, saya terutamanya berasa sungguh gembira kerana berpeluang untuk kembali ke sana semula. Bak kata Aimi "it's like we're belong to this place" dan pernyataan itu teramatlah benarnya. Di pulau yg terabai itulah tempat kami mencurahkan kasih sayang (ewaahh..) antara guru-guru dan kawan-kawan. Faiz and the gang terus melangkah ke kaunter kereta sewa. Kebetulan Faiz ada sedara di situ maka kami mendapat diskaun 100% (maknanya free laa tu) Kami diberi kereta Wira MANUAL (Adoii!) dan Man konon-kononnya menjadi hero of the day kerana berjaya membawa kami berenam (satu kereta 6 orang! hebat tak? Husniyah duk dalam boot. Hehe..) ke Kondo Istana dengan selamat. Maklumlah, sejak dapat lesen, Man tidak membawa kereta manual, kereta satrianya Auto, kire hebat juga lah dapat membawa kereta manual dengan jayanya.

Selepas meletakkan bagasi kami di Kondo Istana, kami tanpa melengahkan masa lagi terus bergerak ke maktab kesayangan kami. Kami dengan bangganya memasuki main entrance maktab dan mengepark kereta di hadapan kelas tingkatan 5. Aimi, Man dan Izy tidak habis-habis menyakat saya, kononnya saya ingin berjumpa dengan junior bernama **** (maaf, namanya terpaksa tidak diberitahu) padahal tak pun. Lepas park kereta, kami terus ke bilik guru. Masuk-masuk je bilik guru, kelihatan Cikgu Kucai dengan sungguh amannya sedang tengok tv. Mentang-mentang laa dah ada tv kat bilik guru. Kemudian, terserempak juga dengan guru-guru yang lain. Maktab masih seperti dulu. Tersergam indah dan sentiasa gagah perkasa. Kami pun lepak-lepak sambil borak-borak dengan guru-guru satu persatu.

Paling menggelikan hati bila berborak-borak dengan Cikgu Yusmizal. Dia baru sahaja mendapat baby boy yang ketiga (Semua anak dia lelaki) bernama Yusran selepas anak pertama yang bernama Yusri dan anak kedua bernama Yusra. Cikgu Sue yang berniat untuk bergurau memberitahu kami supaya memanggil anak ketiganya "Useless" (haha kesian baby tu..) Pak Yus hanya mampu memendam perasaan. Hehe.. Perangainya masih tidak berubah seperti dulu. Walaupun jam sudah menunjukkan waktu untuk kelas mengajar, Pak Yus masih relex di bilik guru, malas nak pi kelas.

Selepas berjumpa dengan guru-guru, Pak Hassan mengoffer diri untuk belanja kami semua. Kanak-kanak riang itu apa lagi, mesti laa syok! Heh..Kami pun melangkah ke Cafe yang dirindui itu. Sambil menjamu selera, kami beborak dengan Pak Hassan. Ada juga Man tak puas hati nak suruh Pak Hassan carik kesalahan budak-budak yang tengah makan di situ. Maklumlah, katua warden laa katakan. Namun Pak Hassan dengan bangganya berkata "Saya dah baik dah sekarang. Selalu pergi surau, tak main dah cubit-cubit ni.." Haha.. Dengan muka macho dia tu, baik laa sangat kan....

Kami duk di maktab agak lama laa. Sampai laa ke prep petang, kami mengejoin Cikgu Norlia di Dataran Hijau, konon-konon buat spot check laa. Geli hati juga tengok gelagat junior-junior. Pantang nampak Cikgu Norlia, mesti check diri sendiri dulu, takut-takut tak tuck in baju ke, tak pakai stokin ke. Is dan Umar (dua-dua tu cousin Aimi) dengan tak malu dan selambanya tak pergi prep dan join kami di dataran hijau tu. Saba je laa kan.. Ada juga pelajar baru yang baru berdaftar kena marah dengan Cikgu Norlia. Kesian betul.. Hehe..

Lama jugak laa duk kat dataran hijau tu. Dalam pukul 5, baru balik apartment. Dah selesai solat semua, kami pergi ke maktab semula. Maklumlah, takde kerja. Hehe.. Mula-mula pergi headquarters guru-guru, dengan niat nak pergi laa melawat rumah cikgu mana-mana. Tengah nak parking tu, nampak laa Ustad Rom dengan gagah dan bangganya sedang membasuh kereta Honda kesayangannya itu. Kami keluar je dari kereta, Ustad Rom tanya "Ye, nak carik siapa.." Haha..Biasala tu Ustad Rom. Pait dengan bijaknya berkata "Tengah carik car wash.." Haha.. Lawak betul..Kebetulan HEP tersayang pun ada, so, borak-borak kejap lepastu pergi tengok baby Cikgu Lin dengan Pak Hassan yang kebetulan tengah main-main kat depan parking kereta tu. Kelihatan Damia dan Zaim sedang bergembira bermain basikal. Dah besar dah.. Comel pulak tu.. Lepas tu, pergi rumah Pak Cop yang baru dapat baby girl yang sangat comel!! Daniel dah besar dah sekarang. Agak hiperactive juga. Siap speaking-speakong lagi tu! Hebat sungguh budak kecil itu. Lepas borak-borak dan minum air, kami singgah ke rumah Pak Yus untuk melawat baby Yusran. Sempat juga laa bergambar dengan Yusri dan Yusra yang semakin kacak itu.

Lepas dah lawat guru-guru semua, kami pun pulang ke apartment untuk solat maghrib. Pada mulanya, Cikgu Hariza ingin keluar dinner bersama kami tetapi memandangkan beliau ada appointment dengan XYC, maka tak dapat laa kami dinner bersama. Izyan pun apa lagi, call laa Cikgu Hashim. Lebih kurang pukul 9, kami ke Seri Betong di Pekan Kuah dan kelihatan Cikgu Hashim bersama keluarganya sedang menunggu kedatangan kami. Oh ya, Cikgu Hashim juga baru sahaja mendapat baby boy bernama Asif yang sangat comel!!!!! Kebetulan Asif memakai baju yang saya dan Izyan hadiahkan hari tu, Asif nampak lebih kacak dan sasa. Kami pun makan-makan sambil borak-borak dan bergelak ketawa. Seronok juga rasanya. Lebih menyeronokkan apabila Izyan membelanja kami semua. Hahaha best best..

Selepas selesai makan, Pait dengan beria-ianya ingin pergi ke maktab. Ntah apa yang dia nak buat, saya pun tak tahu. Katanya ingin berjumpa dengan junior-junior tersayang, maka dia pun ikut laa Cikgu Hashim balik maktab. Manakala saya dan lain-lain pun pergi laa ke Dataran Lang memandangkan takde tempat best untuk kami tujui. Bak kata Cikgu Hashim "Kat Langkawi ni time malam bukannya ada apa pun" Sesungguhnya benar kata Cikgu Hashim itu. Langkawi menjadi sebuah tempat yang sangat busan di kala malam. Di Dataran Lang pun, kami hanya duduk lepak-lepak dan beborak-borak. Seronok juga lepak-lepak begitu sambil bergelak ketawa. Teringat waktu-waktu dahulu ketika di zaman persekolahan, terlalu banyak untuk direcall. Sungguh manis sekali kenangan-kenangan dahulu.

Selepas segala lampu di Dataran Lang dipadamkan, kami pun berangkat pulang. Kami mengambil Pait dulu di maktab kemudian baru pulang ke apartment. Setibanya di apartment, saya terus tidur dan lelap kerana terlalu letih agaknya.

13 Jun
Pada mulanya, kami ingin ke pantai awal-awal pagi tapi, maklumlah, siapa je bangun pagi-pagi buta tu selain Husniyah. Hehe.. Maka kami pun meneruskan lena kami sehingga laa pukul 9 lebih pagi. Lepas dah mandi-mandi dan bersiap-siap, kami pun pergi laa sarapan di sebelah Hotel Bayview di Pandak Mayah. Memandangkan Man dan Pait masih tidur, kami pun meninggalkan mereka dengan mimpi masing-masing. Terpaksa laa kami tapau makanan untuk jejaka berdua itu. Sementara menunggu mereka mandi dan bersiap-siap, Izyan sempat lagi mencuba-cuba bawa kereta round-round Kondo Istana. Maklumlah, orang belum dapat lesen memang teruja apabila pertama kali pegang stereng. 'L' pun belum dapat sebenarnya. Haha.. Dah round seribu sejuta pusingan, barulah Man dan Pait siap. Maka kami pun SEKALI LAGI beredar ke maktab.

Kali ini, tujuan utama kami hanya untuk ke pejabat untuk ambil barang dan berjumpa dengan guru-guru buat terakhir kali sebelum masing-masing melanjutkan pelajaran. Kami sempat juga ke bilik pengetua dan beborak-borak. Khabarnya, pengetua Sanusi akan berpindah ke tempat lain tapi, tak tahu laa setahun dua lagi ke. Selepas kami mengucapkan selamat tinggal pada maktab, kami pun pergi ke Langkawi Fair aka Samudera untuk lunch. Teringat zaman dulu-dulu, kalau outing je, mesti pergi Samud. Kebetulan Pait tengah kaya maka dia pun membelanja kami semua.

Selesai makan dan beli coklat-coklat, kami terus ke jeti untuk membeli tiket feri untuk pulang pada petang itu. Kami agak ragu-ragu juga kerana tiket feri yang ada adalah pukul 445, perjalanan pula mengambil masa selama 1 1/2 jam, sedangkan train balik pula akan berangkat pada pukul 650. Namun, terpaksa juga laa kami mengambil tiket pada pukul 445. Selepas selesai mengemas bagasi, kami pun bertolak ke jeti. Kerisauan mula membelenggu fikiran masing-masing. Apa yang mampu saya lakukan hanya berdoa agar kami tidak terlepas train. Dalam feri saya gagal untuk melelapkan mata. Walaupun feri cukup mengganas untuk membuat saya pening dan lelong, namun ada sesuatu menghantui fikiran saya. Tak tahu pebende.

Kami sampai di jeti Kuala Kedah lebih kurang pukul 615. Cuak jugak laa kan sebab terpaksa rushing nak pergi ke stesen keretapi. Nasib baik ayah Yah, Uncle Zainol ada. Kami pun sekali lagi dengan tak malunya menumpang Yah dan ayahnya ke stesen keretapi. Kami tiba di stesen lebih kurang pukul 645. Cuak tak cuak, angkut bag terus pergi kat platform. Tak sempat nak salam Yah. Heh.. Sampai-sampai je di platform, train terus sampai. Nasib baik laa tak tertinggal train kan. Lega jugak laa..

Duduk-duduk je dalam train, terus rasa relief gilaa. Dah Aimi dengan Izyan lapar atau kebuloq, maka kami pun bersantai laa dalam train sambil menikmati KFC yang dibeli dengan tergopoh-gapah di jeti tadi sambil bertangkap-tangkap gambar. Macam biasa laa, dalam train kami hanya mampu lepak-lepak sahaja. Malam tu, kami berhajat nak pergi kantin. Hatta saya dan Izyan pun pergi dulu, Aimi dan Man menyusul beberapa minit lepas tu. Kebetulan masa on the way tu, jalan di block buat sementara waktu kerana abang KTM tu tengah buat ape ntah maka saya dan Izyan tak dapat meneruskan perjalanan.

Selepas Aimi dan Man muncul, mereka pun agak musykil mengapa saya dan Izyan berhenti di tengah jalan. Izyan pun apa lagi.. "Kantin tutup.." Aimi pun agak terkapai-kapai juga "Habistu bila bukak?" "Tak tahulaa, cuba tanya abang tu.." sambil menuding jari kepada abang KTM tu. Saya yang sangat memahami perangai Izyan yang suka kenakan orang tu, tergelak guling-guling dalam hati. Dalam hati je laa..Lepastu Aimi pun tanye laa abang KTM tu "Bang, bila kantin buka?". Saya sangat tak tahan nak gelak maka terpaksa la melepaskan gelak besar dalam train tu. Abang tu dengan muka toyanya berkata "Kantin buka je..24jam lagi tu..". Muka Aimi kelihatan agak termalu jugak laa kan tapi dia cuba untuk control. Haha cian..

Dalam kantin pulak, duk lepak-lepak je. Kebetulan kami terlihat di tingkap tertulis "Emergency Window" maka kami pun berborak-borak dan mencari jalan bagaimana tingkap tu berfungsi. Izyan ada juga cuba nak buat lawak bodoh, menjadi jugak laa. Apa yang merimaskan adalah jejaka-jekaka askar yang sungguh 'kampung' dan tacky itu duk melalak-lalak dalam kantin tu. Ntah apa masalah mereka, saya tidak dapat kenal pasti. Setelah duk di kantin beberapa minit, mula laa seorang kampung boy itu nak mengorat Aimi. Maka Dina yang baik hati ni pun terpaksa laa memulakan langkah untuk keluar dari kantin yang sungguh bosan dan sempit itu.

Malam tu saya tidur awal kerana terlalu letih. Walaupun train mengganas, saya dapat tidur dengan nyenyak sekali. Syok gak ah.. Cuma apa yang tak menarik adalah kesejukan yang melampau di kala pagi dan kami hanya diberi sehelai selimut yang hanya senipis sel. Sedih jugak laa kan tapi nak buat macam mana..

14 Jun
Saya orang pertama bangun! Hooray! Malangnya, saya terpaksa laa kejut budak-budak lain tu. Nasib baik tak payah sangat. Kebetulan train sampai di Sentral KL awal pagi juga lebih kurang 640pagi maka terpaksala kami bersiap-siap pada awal pagi itu. Setibanya kami di Sentral KL, kami pun terus laa ke foodcourt untuk sarapan yang dibelanja oleh Aimi. Actually, foodcourt tu buka pada pukul 7pagi namun kerana bosan menunggu, kami order je laa makanan. Pakcik yang buat air pulak tanak ambik order sebab belum pukul 7. Nak je sepak pakcik tu tapi nanti takda orang nak buatkan air pulak jadi, terpaksa laa bersabar. Lama juga kami duk di situ sambil borak-borak dan gelak ketawa. Rindu pula rasanya untuk lepak-lepak sebegitu.

Selepas puas hati, kami pun terpaksa laaa berpisah dan menghala ke arah masing-masing. Saya terpaksa mengambil komuter ke UKM manakala mereka yang lain tu ambik LRT pergi ke destinasi masing-masing. Selepas mengucapkan selamat jalan, saya pun pergi laa ke platform6 untuk menaiki komuter. Tidak ada apa yang menarik semasa dalam perjalanan pulang dalam komuter. Sampai-sampai je di UKM, kelihatan ayahanda sedang menunggu kepulangan anakanda tersayang. Maka selesailah satu perjalanan jauh yang tidak akan kulupakan (sebab dah tulis dalam blog. Heh..)

TAMAT..

Perjalanan Jauh (Part I)

WARNING: This entry is not worth reading. It's a bunch of jive and full of craps with sloppy words all over the place. Heh..So, DO NOT READ ON.

Saya bangun awal pagi tadi. Mood masih tak berapa elok. Malam semalam bergaduh dengan hantu mana ntah. Pada mulanya, tak terlintas untuk post entry baru tapi mengenangkan nak post jugak pasal trip pergi Langkawi hari tu, jadi saya terus onkan komputer. Pelik rasa menulis dengan gaya sebegini. Tapi nak buat mcm mana, Dia yang ajar. Adren banyak tulis benda-benda 'pelik', apa salahnya kalau saya ikut gaya dia skali skala. Lagipun hari tu Aimi dah ajar banyak vocab bahasa Melayu so, apa salahnya kalau saya guna. Tapi...ish..dah la tulis dalam BI tahpape, tulis dalam BM pun buruk. *pasrah*

10 Jun
Bertolak ke stesen komuter UKM lebih kurang pukul 7suku. Lupi hantar. Sampai-sampai je, trus komuter datang. Bagus betul. Dalam komuter duduk sebelah seorang kakak ni, tak tahulah apa yang dia fikirkan tapi muka asyik bekerut je. Tak tahu la kalau dia tak suka saya duk sebelah dia ke, tapi saya peduli apa. Sepanjang perjalanan dengar discman je sebab mamat sebelah tu punya handphone asyik memekak je. Message alert tone dia macam ringing tone, bising nak mampus. Macam laa tak boleh guna standard tone je.

Lepas beberapa minit, Aimi call, tanya bila nak sampai. Dah lama tak jumpa Aimi, dah matang agaknya. Sampai-sampai je di Sentral KL, Aimi message, kata dia ada di McD. Jadi saya pun melangkah ke sana. Duk tercari-cari Aimi dan yang lain-lain, rupa-rupanya Aimi seorang saja. Izyan dan Man masih belum sampai. Ceh, ingatkan saya dah terlambat, rupa-rupanya ada orang tu (Izyan) masih kat rumah lagi!! Adoi..Lepas dah makan-makan dan semua dah tiba, kami pun pergi laa ke platform yang sepatutnya untuk menaiki keretapi. Memandangkan Aimi dan Man baru pertama kali naik train, jadi saya dan Izyan terpaksa la lead the way.

Masuk-masuk je train, terus carik tempat masing-masing. Aimi dan Man agak terkapai-kapai jugak laa kan tapi lama-lama tu dah ok la. Tiket tu untuk satu katil bawah dan tiga katil atas. Oleh kerana saya yang beli tiket jadi saya memilih tiket untuk katil di bawah sebab lebih selesa. Dan sebab itu juga lah, Mie, Man dan Izy terpaksa 'teman' saya kat bawah tu. Dalam pukul 845, train pun bergerak. Kami tak buat apa-apa pun dalam train:Borak-borak, gelak-gelak, main daun terup (??), pergi kantin (dalam train yang sempit tu pun Aimi boleh sesat. Adeh..Kesian..) lepastu tidur. Malam tu saya tidur tak nyenyak sangat sebab train selalu mengganas dan membuatkan saya menjadi lelong. Dah laa ada seorang kanak-kanak lelaki ni, duduk di sebelah katil Aimi, suka sangat memekak nyanyi lagu tahpape. Rase cam nak bunuh je budak tu, tapi tak sampai hati laa kan sebab budak tu belum puas hidup lagi. Comel tu, comel jugak laa tapi bising! Tak tahan!! Tak leh piii!

11 Jun
Sampai Stesen Alor Star lebih kurang pukul 830pagi. Turun-turun je train, terserempak laa dengan seorang pakcik teksi ni. Dia kata kaunter tiket buka pukul 10, tapi takkan kami nak tunggu sehingga pukul 10, maka pakcik tu mengofferkan diri untuk belikan tiket di pejabat KTM kat stesen tu kerana konon-kononnya dia kenal orang dalam. Padahal saja nak charge lebih!! Dalam teksi, ntah apa dia bebel, malas nak dengar.

Pakcik tu hantar kami ke Lorong Bayu, rumah makcik Aimi. Bila masing-masing dah bawa keluar dompet, pakcik tu dengan tak malunya mintak 20ringgit!! Mahal gilaaa!! Padahal bukannya jauh pun stesen dengan Lorong Bayu tu, tapi sebab kesian kat pakcik tu yang kononnya dah belikan kami tiket balik yang best sebab smua tiket untuk katil bawah, maka masing-masing pun mengeluarkan kertas hijau polimer. Pakcik tu nampak sungguh bahagia sekali kerana dapat duit yang sungguh cekik darah itu. Pakcik tu sempat lagi suruh Man ambil nombor fon dia kot-kot kami nak minta tolong dia hantar pergi mana-mana. Tapi Man hanya menekan keypad saja, tak save pun nombor tu. Haha..

Kebetulan sebelah rumah makcik Aimi tu adalah rumah pakcik Aimi jadi sementara Aimi pergi ke rumah pakciknya di sebelah, kami bertiga berhempas pulas untuk membuka mangga gate. Izyan kononnya bertindak bijak dengan mencari nama brand kunci yang sama dengan brand mangga maka akhirnya, gate pun terbuka membuatkan kami semua bolehla memasuki kawasan rumah itu. Agak besar juga rumah itu walaupun hanya setingkat tapi siap ada buaian semua, jadi tidaklah begitu bosan. Aimi terpaksa membersihkan rumah itu ala kadar saja. Kami bertiga hanya mampu melihat dan tersenyum melihat gelagat Aimi memegang penyapu. Dulu semasa belajar di Langkawi, Aimi laa satu-satunya classmate saya yang tidak tahu jadual bertugas. Nak kata malas, boleh tahan jugak laa malas dia tu. Kalah Dina. Hahaha..

Dah kemas-kemas tu, kami pun bersiap-siap. Dalam pukul 11 lebih, kami pun keluar jalan-jalan cari makan. Dah dekat 1/2kilometer tu, Izyan pulak tertinggal hensetnya di rumah makcik Aimi. Terpaksa laa dia patah balik bersama adiknya, Man. Biasa la, menurut mereka, adik-beradik homeroom mereka kononnya saling memahami (wekk ptuihh!) dan oleh kerana mereka terlalu cemburu dengan keakraban adik-beradik homeroom saya, maka mereka berdua beradik itu memberi gelaran 'poyo' kepada ahli homeroom saya. Tapi saya cool saja, tak kesah pun. Mungkin juga kami betul-betul poyo, siapa tahu? Tapi tak salah bukan? Asalkan kami bahagia. (Ok, takde kene mengena pun...)

Maka saya dan Aimi pun meneruskan perjalanan, mencari-cari kedai makan berdekatan. Tak jauh lepas tu, kami pun ternampak laa satu kedai makan ni, Restoran Mama. Dengar macam kelakar tapi ok jugak laa tempat tu. Saya dan Aimi order makanan dan minuman sambil menunggu Izyan dan Man. Beberapa minit lepastu, Izy dan Man pun tiba di restoran tu. Kami pun makan laa sambil beborak-borak.

Tak lama lepastu, Che Pooh, eh, Che Poon yang berada di sekitar kawasan itu pun call Izyan, katanya dia nak jumpa kami kejap. Oleh kerana ChePoon tidak tahu Restoran Mama di mana walaupun telah diexplain berjuta kali oleh Aimi, maka terpaksa laa kami menunggu sebentar walaupun dah habis makan. Semasa hendak membuat bayaran, saya dibuli oleh mereka bertiga. Saya berasa sungguh tidak adil pada ketika itu. Tapi memandangkan saya seorang kawan sejati yang baik dan baru sahaja menerima wang 43x3 maka saya pun belanja laa mereka. Mereka tersenyum gembira dan tidak putus-putus mengucapkan terima kasih.

Selepas 8tahun kami menunggu Che Poon, akhirnya, nampak juga kelibat budak tu. Dia menaiki motor bersama-sama dengan beberapa orang kawannya yang tidak dikenali. Che Poon kelihatan sungguh riang apabila berjumpa dengan kami. Oh ya, Che Poon tu juga adik-beradik Izyan dan Man, patut laa sengih memanjang. Ntah apa yang seronoknya, saya pun tak tahu. Kami pun borak-borak sehingga lupa dunia dan tak ingat yang kami ni sebenarnya nak pergi Changloon!! Kami pun terpaksa menunggu teksi di luar Restoran Mama itu. Tunggu punya tunggu, haram satu teksi pun tak berhenti! Dah laa tunggu Che Poon 8tahun, ditambah lagi dengan tunggu teksi 10tahun, adoi, letih pale otak. Akhirnya Che Poon mengambil langkah bijak untuk mencari no fon teksi jadi kami pun telefon laa teksi. Beberapa minit lepastu, teksi pun tiba dan terus membawa kami ke Kolej Matrikulasi Kedah di Changloon untuk berjumpa kawan-kawan kami (ex-maresmawi) di sana. Che Poon dan kawan-kawannya pula pergi ke Changloon menaiki motor.

Setibanya kami di KMK, Izyan call Nazirah, tanya hendak berjumpa di mana. Besar juga KMK tu, lawa jugak laa. Nazirah kata jumpa di kafe admin. Kami pun round punye round, akhirnya kami mampu berhenti di masjid saja. Man pun call Fudhail. Akhirnya kami terpaksa ikut Fudhail pergi ke kafe A yang hanya dipenuhi dengan jejaka-jejaka asing. Saya, Aimi dan Izyan agak terkapai-kapai juga dan akhirnya kami pun bergerak ke kafe B yang lebih aman damai. Di situ kami pun berjumpa laa dengan Nazi dan beberapa kawan yang lain seperti Faizah, Huda, Ili, Syud, Rusna dll. Kami pun minum-minum sambil borak-borak dan tangkap-tangkap gambar.

Lepas tu, Nazi berhajat nak bawa kami bertiga ke Pekan Changloon maka kami terpaksalaa meninggalkan Man bersama dengan Man off, Sabrun, Fudhail dan sape2 ntah. Dalam perjalanan ke main entrance tu, terserempak laa dengan Syahid (kind of good friend jugak laa..) dan tertunai laa hajat saya nak jumpa dia. Hehe.. Dia kelihatan agak terkejut dengan kehadiran kami. Saya agak gembira jugak laa jumpa dia sebab dah lama sangat tak jumpa (eceh..poyo gile.haha..). Oleh kerana dia nak pergi ke kedai 'Secawan Copy' maka terpaksa laa kami berpisah dan meneruskan perjalanan ke Pekan Changloon dengan menaiki teksi.

Di Pekan Changloon kami hanya pergi ke bank dan kedai apa ntah nama. Lupaa. Heh..Sempat juga kami terserempak dengan Yuzuar bersama dengan kawannya yang rupa seperti Adib. Tersengih-sengih budak tu. Gembira agaknya baru kluar duit. Lepas dah jalan-jalan di pekan Changloon, kami pun balik ke KMK dengan harapan Husniyah boleh tolong ambil kami bawak balik Alor Star. Maka kami pun menunggu Husniyah di pondok guard di main entrance tu. Izyan call Man yang masih leka di kafe A untuk segera ke pondok guard dan Man hanya mampu berkata "on the way". Ye la tu on the way, Husniyah dah datang siap boleh posing-posing lagi, kelibat Man masih belum kelihatan. Geram jugak laa kan. Izyan call lagi dan Man mengulang ayat yang sama. Tak tahu laa pula kalau Man datang naik kura-kura ke tapi memang lambat jugak laa kan. Dah tunggu beberapa minit tu, baru laa dari jauh nampak tiga sekawan terkedek-kedek ke pondok guard.

Husniyah datang dengan emaknya maka kami pun bersalaman. Terpaksa laa meninggalkan Nazi pulang ke hostelnya bersendirian. Tak sempat nak jumpa Syahid before balik tu. Isk..Pasrah jugak laa kan. Kemudian, emak Husniyah terus menghantar kami pulang ke rumah makcik Aimi. Setibanya di rumah itu, kami berehat dulu sejam dua. Lepastu, malamnya itu kami bersiap-siap untuk keluar dinner di Menara Alor Star. Sekali lagi kami berempat dengan tak malunya menumpang Husniyah bersama ibunya ke menara tersebut. Pada mulanya, kami agak jakun jugak laa kan terutamanya Dina. Haha.. Tapi lepastu dah biasa dah laa. Kami makan di Restoran Berputar yang berjaya membuat Aimi berasa sungguh lelong. Makanan di situ memang best gile!! Dan lamb steak menjadi pilihan utama kami. Ada macam-macam juga laa sehingga kami semua terpaksa tambah dua tiga kali sebab sedap sangat. Heh.. Saya dan Husniyah sempat lagi meminta supaya memainkan lagu Michael Buble, Sway. Lagu Home takde sebab pakcik tu tak geti main.

Lepas dah kenyang dan penat bergelak ketawa, kami pun pulang dengan gembira kerana segala perbelanjaan ditanggung oleh emak Husniyah. Oh, sungguh kami terharu dengan sifat pemurah ibunya itu. Husniyah pun pemurah jugak laa (ye ke Yah? terpaksa cakap jugak laa kan? Hahaha gurau je..) Sebelum menaiki kereta tu, sempat lagi Man dan lain-lain mengusha-usha persembahan Mawi AF yang ditayang di situ. Saya punye laa terkapai-kapai siapakah Mawi itu. Maklumlah, orang tak tengok AF memang laa tak tau. Heh.. Kemudian, selepas tiba di rumah makcik Aimi tu, kami pun berasa sungguh bosan. Maka kami pun keluar lagi pi carik kedai minum. Jadi kami pun minum-minum sambil borak-borak di Restoran Khaleel yang dibuka 24jam. Dah puas hati, kami pun balik rumah balik. Mata saya dah berat kengantukan maka terpaksa laa tidur meninggalkan dunia buat sementara waktu......

TO BE CONTINUED

Just for the sake of updating

I was too excited to tell Mirul about the scholar and the results was as delightful as I felt when Mirul the doc-to-be replied my comment with such a mere compliment! I appreciated it indeed. And that is just the right thing to play the role as an encouragement for me to go for my programme of which I will be confronting reaaal soon. Such words are enough though. They do make me HAPPY =)

Anyway, it's been a quite a long time since my last post about myself. Nothing much was up and I was too busy melayan kerenah of my friends during our trip to Langkawi. And my mind is still in its not-very-good condition (you know what I mean) and getting more worse after I got this recent news about furthering studies. Pitty brainy. Again, it will be facing another such a competitive environment and highly fulfilled conditions by MARA itself. *sigh* It has never seemed enough has it not? But yeah, after all, it is barakah that counts as well as uphill struggle and prayers. What else a mundane human being like me could do anyway?

So, the registration will take place on July 12 which means I still have about another one month to kill and that is really not a good news ok!! Geesh..6 months doing nothing at home, what more could I expect than feeding my brain with junks and craps?! Hehe.. Nonetheless, I gained something valueable though. Words cant say more now. Give it another 2 years then we can know if that 'something valueable' does it job perfectly.

I'm going out tomorrow to lunch with Tikah, Nisya, Atun and few more friends of mine from Bangi. And afterwards I got a few more dates with Yah, Afar, Gem and bla bla to look forward to. Hehe.. A trip with Izy, Aimi and Man was too precious that it couldnt be in the list so guys, just be proud of it ok. Poyo people still has feelings tau!! Hehe.. Thanx guys, I really had a nice time =)

So, ok then. Need to call this post to a halt or otherwise I'll crap on and on and on till the wee hours of morning. And I'm too tired for that. Heh.. Sleep tight!

the narrative of my trip to Langkawi will be posted a.s.a.p (as if ppl care!)

RUSHDINA SOFIA BINTI ABDUL RASHID ( 870409565154 )

TAHNIAH..!!, ANDA BERJAYA.

KURSUS	:	PERUBATAN
PROGRAM	:	A LEVEL
INSTITUSI	:	KOLEJ YAYASAN UEM (KYUEM)

Alhamdulillah, after all those hardworkings and uphill struggle, I finally attained what I've been waiting for. Congratulations to those who got the scholarship. What you get is the best you could only achive so be grateful. And good luck in your future undertakings.

To Im, thanx for your support and the tips. I know I can rely on you. And to all my friends who read this blog, thanx for all your guidance and for always be there for a hand.

i wish i could turn back the time..

I got this from Azfar's [En.Azfar, saye cilok awaknye vc!]. It's Pupus by Dewa. But the lyric at the bottom is taken from the song by Westlife. Watch the vc and compare it with the lyric. They somewhat related and revolve the same thing. So, my point is, i'm not that kind of 'gal'. Thank You.. Ooh ooh, that guy, the hero in the vc is soo kacak! Aish..

i'm missing you..girl even though you're right here by my side..cause lately it seems..the distance between us is growing too wide..i'm so afraid that you're saying it's over..the last thing that i wanna hear..

you say that you love me..but baby sometimes..you're just saying the words..if you've got somethin' to tell me..don't keep it inside..let it be heard..i'm so afraid that you're saying it's over..girl i'll make it easy for you..

but if your heart's not in it for real..please don't try to fake what you don't feel..if love's already gone..it's not fair to lead me on..cause i would give the whole world for you..anything you ask of me i'd do..but i won't ask you to stay..i'd rather walk away..if your heart's not in it..

How i wish i could take us back in time..but it's gone too far now we can't rewind..and there's nothing that i can do to stop me losin' you..i can't make you change your mind..if your heart's not in it..

Happy Birthday, Doc!

In covering up my previous entry, I'd like to take this opportunity to wish Mirul 'Happy 21st Birthday!'. Going back the first time I read his blog, it was not a coincidence. It happened by purpose. That is what Friendster used for. The relation was pretty much like this: me -> alitt -> syazwan -> mirul. So dear Mirul, good luck in your future undertakings, may you achieve whatever you pursue and can't wait to see you as a doc! Wowweee! God bless! =)

the day when she fell in love..

WARNING:This post might be too long and too funny that you probably end up puking (Hahaha..) It's just for the sake of writing (bad writing particularly.Heh..). This is not intended as a disparagement and not dedicated to anybody but if it happened to relate with anybody's life, pardon me, it might be arrived by coincidence. Some of the names might be funny and hillarious (Haha bangang gune name Max. But that name was once a history of mine..) So, you've been warned..

Hurmm..How do I start this? I was bloghopping and I stumbled upon this one blog with hundreds of visitors per day (whoaa..somewhat impressive eyh?) and his writings are killing me!!! Noooo! He brings all these up and no, of course I'm not pinning the blame on him but somehow, he sounds VERRRYY familiar. I cant remember when I happened to come across his name but I swear I've heard of him before! But geesh..he's from another planet for God's sake, how could I possibly know him? Well, yea..who cares? Unfortunately, I'm not gonna put a link to his blog. Search it for yourself. Don't worry, they'll be a hint or two but siapa yg dah tahu, plz remain silent! Ssshh..Let's keep to ourselves. Ngehngeh =P

"Kebanyakkannya putus kerana pasangan nya rupanya sudah ada pasangan lain tanpa pengetahuannya. Terjadi la insiden itu dan ini dan akhirnya mereka terpisah dlm keadaan penuh hasad dan benci. Yang merana si dia yang tiada penganti untuk dia meneruskan rasa cintanya yang tulus. Si pasangannya pasti akan terus lupa dan bergembira dgn teman barunya."

"Oh Tuhan. Aku hampir lupa anugerahMu ini. Aku hampir lupa apa itu cinta. Kerana aku sudah enggan mahu mempercayainya lagi. Aku bosan dengan perkataan itu. Aku jelik tiap kali membicarakan soal cinta."

"Nobody ever knows how I sensitively cried over things that irrelevant. Nobody ever knows how I always talk to myself when I’m driving alone and sob over things that I reminisced. How could I possibly felt depressed over things that no one merely understood?"

-----Mungkin naluri kita tidak banyak berbeza-----

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Two years ago..

"C'mon laa..you tak payah nak bagi alasan! I know everything. He told me everything! Plzz..tak boleh ke you tell me the truth? Why? If you really want this relationship, plz dont tell me shit about loyalty!"

"you tak faham, Max! Dia mungkin salah faham! Maybe he wants us to be apart and ruins everything! You've gotta believe me..I love you, Max and you know that!"

"Huh..love? That word better left unsaid. I always try to be the best for you. I've sacrificed everything!! you je yg tak sedar! I dah buat macam2. And I dah banyak bersabar.."

She bewailed.

"So what's now? you nak I buat apa?"..

"I have no choice..."

"So, we're breaking up?"

She did nothing but throwing her innocent face. Two years had never been long enough for her to swallow those bitter bits and get rid of everything. She missed him so bad but she always hoped that he was going through his life with the most joyous feeling that he deserved. She tried looking for him but what she found was zilch. She thought she had lost him.

Until one day..she happened into a good friend of Max's. They talked and chatted and poured everything out. From then on, a new hope had started to stem within her heart. She somehow knew that she still got the chance to fix everything up. She was too confident that he would forgive and forget all her mistakes. Erroneously, she was wrong.

"I'm sorry to say this, but he's getting married next month. He thought of inviting you to the occasion but then I don't think you could make it"

Her heart sank. The moments she used to spend with him loitered vigorously in her head. She sobbed. And the last instant she saw him was the day she let him go and it had been on her conscience ever since.

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Fifteen months after that..

'They say, if we do something in terms of putting ourselves nearer to God and we pray, we ask everything we've been wanted for, insyaAllah, He will fulfill our wishes. But the Almighty knows what's the best for us. Sometimes, we cant even be with somebody we loved. But I'd always know that 'hikmah' must be laid upon it all.'

She switched off the phone. Buck kept bugging her all day long. She didnt understand what did the geek want from her. He claimed that he had fallen in love with her from the first time they met but what the heck, as if she would care a toss. He was so pathetic.

"Tak bolehke awak bagi saya peluang?"

"Awak nak apa, Buck? Kan saya dah kata, saya dah berpunya!"

"Saya tak kisah. I just ask for a chance. That's all!"

"Macam mana saya nak bagi awak peluang? I'm taken! And I'm sick of you, Buck! Saya dah malas nak layan awak.."

So she walked away. Left him all alone by himself. The tears slowly fell off her cheeks. Too much hesitance, she kept avoiding herself from facing her facts of life. She still hoped for Max. She missed Max. But thinking about Max with his new life did nothing but build up the flame and anger within her. She tried to give Buck a chance but she just couldnt. Perhaps he was too good for her. She did not know. She weeped too much over insignificant matters but she could not help herself. She was hopeless, helpless. Only God knows the true passion that lied within herself.

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Three years later..

She staggered to the small bathroom a few feet from her bed, trying to search for the screaming alarm clock. It penetrated her brain like hell!! She stood in the dark for a moment, breathless. "I have to accept it. I need to start a new day, new life.." She said to herself. She stepped to the sink and splashed cold water on her face and hair. The water was too cold that gripping her nerve and wifted along her spine up to her brain. She took her shower and started to dress up to class.

As she strolled along the sidewalk, her handphone beeped. Amidst the cold, grey and gloomy day of winter, her heart stopped for the very first time.

"Tak perlu mencari teman seindah Sulaiman jika diri tidak secantik Balqis. Mengapa mengharap teman setampan Yusof jika kasih tidak setulus Zulaikha. Tidak perlu diri menjadi seteguh Ibrahim jika hati tidak sekuat Hajar dan Sarah. Mengapa didamba teman hidup sesempurna Rasulullah jika hati tidak seistimewa Khadijah.."

Her eyes dwelled with tears. She knew..She always knew that Buck was the right and perfect man for her. She turned her back, tried to search for any sign of Buck but in vain. Now she knew that her true love had always been with Buck. Suddenly, her shoulder was tapped. She turned and all she could see was the decent, white, handsome (and bla bla..tak saba nak habis ni! Hehe..) face of Buck. He smiled and at right that moment, she knew, that was the day she fell in love....

---THE END---

So..?

KEPUTUSAN PERMOHONAN BIASISWA JABATAN PERKHIDMATAN AWAM Bagi Pelajar Lepasan SPM 2004 Untuk Program Ijazah Luar Negara Tahun 2005 No. KP : 870409565154 Nama : RUSHDINA SOFIA BINTI ABDUL RASHID Maaf, anda tidak berjaya Terima kasih atas minat anda kepada program ini. Bahagian Latihan, Jabatan Perkhidmatan Awam, Malaysia.

Bengong! Of course I didnt get the scholar because I applied for MARA you idiot! Now they really got me confused. If I'm not under their authority, why must they keep my poops and show it this way?? "Maaf, anda tidak berjaya" (???). Ahah..So, did I actually apply for this anyway?

Just like Cikgu Hashim said, dapat result bagus pun susah, dapat tak elok pun susah. I'd struggled like a freak to get the best for my MARA trial in hoping to get any offer but what I got was none. Russian programme would never get my pick. So I'd struggled again for the real exam. Ok fine, I got what I supposed to get but Petronas rejected me without any good reason and Sime Darby didnt offer for medicine and KUTPM will be sending me to Indonesia. And now, I'm done with everything. I have had enough. As long as I'd done my best, God knows what I deserve more. Tawakkal je laa..

So, I might be going to Langkawi this Friday. YEEEEHHHAAA! Cant wait to meet all the teachers and juniors. And new babies. Hehe.. Need to chill out my mind and get everything under control. Then I will gain a NEW spirit for the next adventure. Hoh!

Anywhooo, check out this very cute and comel blog: Randumb Drawings. Oh yes, maybe being the blog promoter suits me pretty well for this period of time. Hehe.. But what the heck, I'm enjoying myself!

Ok then, I'm signing off..

[p/s- I've uploaded the pics of BBQ at Hajar's so check out myphotoalbum. Thanx to Thirah.]

Pick Whatever You Want

Check this out: The Lost Codger. Kinda kewl! [Sorry mr.Ijun for promoting your site without your permission *smirks*]

Nengok nih. Klaka gak ah..



Anyway, nothing's up today and not much to be blogged about. Went to watch Madagascar yesterday with A.Ima, A.Aya, Lupi and Icah and trust me, it's hillarious and comell!!!! I like Marty and funny Melman. If one day they happen to perfome it in theatre just like The Lion King, I'll pay for whatever price to get the ticket. And I dont think they would. Heh..Not that appropiate to play in such attires on the stage. But why not?

..s....i..g.........h..

Have you ever felt like starting a new day with a new hope, new plan and eager to get it started? Well, I feel it like everyday! And the results have never seemed good enough. To be frank, I'm not really sure what my life would lead to in the future. I've been waiting for MARA since months ago and none of the news were ready to be heard. What I really wanted eversince I was a kid had always been my own possession that nobody would comprehend it no matter what. But I'd rather not care what other people think about me. Well it depends. If I think it's worth bothering, then I'll try to improve necessarily.

Eversince I was a little, I try to obtain every dream I pursued in the sence of satisfying myself. And made my parents proud of me. But that was just not the point. As long as I know where to go, I would try to train myself to go with the flow. And if the path was not clear enough, I would rather give it up. Yes, 'give up' was however in my list of options. And I tried to get rid of it though. So, the hardest I work, the satisfied I get. But the problem is....I'm not that good enough to prepare myself for all those things and hesitation held me back most of the times. So, here I am, undecided and unsure with my ability to go through the days ahead.

Yesterday I asked Mum if MARA sent me to do AUSMAT (which I really not prefer to do) instead of IB or A-level. And Mum started to talk about MRCP la bla bla bla. The point is clear, I know. It was just that I got more hesitated than before after I thought of those MRCP Part1 and Part2 laa and whatsoever. "What the heck is that all about???" thought me. I'm not even certain if I got the scholarship!!!! Dush! I feel like killing myself!!

So I woke up this morning, yes, just like usual, with a NEW hope but hell to that anyway. My hopes and dreams were not to be changed. They'll be there, right inside me, barely seen to other people but are vivid to myself. Thanx Abg Amir for the lovely book but as being myself, it has not been written yet. Hehehe =)

'It was the last ray of twilight when my Dad told me that Mum was undergoing a Caesarean delivery for my last sibling. Being a five-year-old girl without knowing the exact meaning of ‘life’ had put me into a very deep confusion. I did not know what it was all about but my thoughts flew off and Mum’s image wandered around my mind. How I wished to be beside her in the operation theatre and comforted her with every will I had. There was a moment of awkwardness, as I tried desperately to come up with a way to explain my thoughtlessness but Dad had always saved me from agitation. “One day, you will understand. And that is if you end up as a doctor.” Ever since, the event is what sparked my interest in medicine.' -the introduction of my MARA p.s. but it's load of waffle that cant be used for UCAS p.s. *sigh*

C'mon! Make ur first move!

So, promotions for today are:

1) Soap star and trained dancer Tracy Shaw brings you the lattest fitness sensation..Salsacise! Not to say that I've been doing it all this while (Haha kantoi) but believe me, it's the salsa dance that counts! Seriously it's fantastic fun that you'll want to do it again and again and again! And now I'm ruminating if I could join in any dance class if I happen to study abroad somewhere later on. You just can't tell until you get your feet on the dance floor. Whoo Hoo..it's absolute cool!

2) Noin's geocities webpage. Since she's been telling around the town about her website, so, I vainly thought of dropping by her page. It just turned out inaccessible due to using the Netscape Navigator. So make sure you use the IE instead. Nice first attempt she did!

3) Ying Yang Twins' new album, U.S.A United State of Atlanta, featuring a song, Wait. Cool! Yea, Thanx Noin ;) Too much sensored words. Banyak lagu lain lagi. Heh..

Nazme Busuk

Today is Along Ima's off-day so she decided not to send Nazme to nursery. Why? Because Dad is missing Nazme so badly. Ahah yea so do I. Nazme just got recovered from his flu but his voice still has not completely recovered just yet. Sexy gituh.. Ahaks.. While he was taking his nap just now, I snapped a few shots, just to indicate that I'd rather not to let even a second slip away. He'll be away for several days after this so the pics pretty much do a good job for me. Hehe.. [Sorry Along Ima sbb curik gambar Nazme! Haha..]

Hurmm.. Sleeping style is not a genetic trait is it? Haha..But don't worry, that's totally not my style of sleep. (Way much worse? Haha no comment)

Aaahh..I'm in heaven! Yeah!

'Mak Na ni ape takde keje. Tido lagi besssssss'

'Ish.. Paparazzi mane lak ni!!!'