Black Mood. Ggggrr!

I need someone to be blamed. Why, you ask me. Because I woke up at 1230 and let mum prepared the lunch all by herself. And I wanna kill that 'someone'!!! Arghh!!

Yesterday I was not in a good mood to blog about our meeting with cikgu Hashim, cikgu Afizan and 5 jejake from Langkawi. But all in all, it was fun. At least it could be factored in my plan to train off to Langkawi this June. Heh.. Atikah (and another four of us) had a not-very-serious accident nonetheless. But not that bad though. Long story to tell. Nope nope. I'm still in a bad mood.

The problem is, that 'someone' pissed me off. Ok la, let me be straight. The stalker called me up last night and my Lord, I'd rather talk with a neurotic!! I didnt even understand what he rambled about but geeesh..he sounded like bapak orang!! Ee..scary betul. I dont want to talk much bout that lousy stalker. But he is the one to be blamed for everything!! Gggrrr...

Izy msged me at 130am to ask me to upload the photos of us at Put's house yesterday so I did. Oh and I've uploaded as well the photos during my years in Langkawi. Just check out my photoalbum. Orite then. Really need to freshen up myself and wind up my new book, Time to Kill by John Grisham (so that I dont have to think about that 'someone'!!)

OMG!!

Oooohh My... suara TT sebijik mcm Sir Hilmi!!!!!!!! Haha.. Comel betul.. But I was wondering, how can the american accent goes like the British accent? Eh no..Sir is more to Scottish I guess. Hurm..Interesting..

A stalker

Remember the 'stranger' that I said in my previous post whom accidentally made a call to my number and when I said "Hello" he went "Oh, salah number"? Nope, it doesnt stop there. We had somewhat a falling-out yesterday. Well not to say it's leading in a wrong way (no?) but probably misunderstandings took part most of the matters. Godd..I'm not gonna involve in such mess am I??

So I asked his age:
'4 years older than you' (he knows my age!)
'oh..in that case, you must be 25!'
'dont be redicoulous..u're 18 and im certain about that' (oh yess..he really does know my age!)
'no i'm not! i'm gonna be 21 this july and u must be talking to a wrong person!'
'i noe ur age, i noe u're a school leaver and currently doing nothing at home. and by the way, ur birthday is on april, not july. is that what u call a wrong person?'
'ahaha..yes, that is what i call a wrong person because u dont noe what ure talking about' (geeesh..that's scary man. he noes quite a lot bout me!)
'come on..u want me to make a list?'
'owhkey then..so what do u want from me? if u want money, u just need to go to the bank'
'oh thank you for the info. but no thanx'
'plzz...tell me who the hell are u'
'what's ur name missy?'
'what???! u noe my age and stuff but u dont noe my name?'
'yesssss bingo!...so im talking to the right person!'
'ok whatever. i'm switching off my phone' (ahah..of course i didnt switch it off right away..duh..)
16 mins later.. 'still waiting for my reply?'

And I didnt reply that msg. Ok that was just a part of the whole matter. Somebody must be fooling me around but what the heck, I'm not gonna care a toss! Biasela, org gila kan makin ramai skrg ni.

Anyway, I'm going to UPM this afternoon to meet Cikgu Hashim and some of my juniors. They're attending the National PUM Convention and will be back to Langkawi tomorrow so just would be glad to meet them. So,will write more soon. Have a nice day!

BBQ at Hajar's

I just got home from Hajar's house in TTDI for a barbecue feast. At first, I was not really sure if I could make it because transportation was apparently the only problem since Gem is going off to Phuket (thought of asking him for a lift if he's going to Hajar's but unfortunately he had a family trip to Phuket). And then I asked Din and Tash if they could be along for the ride to Hajar's (yes, driving on my own was the only option. Oh by the way, I just bought the 'P' sticker for the car, just in case. Hahah..Dah 4 bulan drive baru nak tampal P! Thanx to Afar.Eheh..). And by this morning, Mal messaged me if she could fill the unoccupied space in my car and definitely that wouldnt be a problem. So by 615, I pulled off and picked up all of them and started to speed up.

The ride was fine of which I thought I would get myself (and another 3 dudes) lost in the middle of the city but it turned out good. The traffic was not as busy as I thought (since it was a Saturday night) so, getting my car nicely drifted along the road was not very much to be said. Just before we reached Hajar's house, I picked up Noin and Eddy at OU. Hurmm..It's been a while since the last time I met them. Kinda miss those gals. Oh not to forget, Sarah was there too! Duh, havent seen her for quite a time! Apparently she's a bit taller (no? Hehe..) and chubbier in a nice way. Eheh..

So by 730 we reached Hajar's house and yep, Shat surprisingly was the first to be there, being airish to help Hajar setting up the table and stuff. We did our prayers and by 830, Fira and Jims arrived and a few minutes later, the others arrived. Oh yes, Izy was there too. Indirectly, she was the one who urged me to go for the feast! Ahah..Strong persuasion eh? After everything was on the table, so, it was the time to do our job!! EAT, EAT, EAT!! Hoh yeah, the food was heavenly good. That explained the cooking skill that is possessed by Hajar. Heh..

So by 1030, it was time for us to go home. Anyway, on my way back, I received a call from a stranger. I dont know who the hell was that but he seems like contemplating to get to noe me. Gile kot? Indon mane ntah. Haha..So ignorance is the only way.

Anyhow, I was thinking to upload some pictures but my camera's battery was running low. Thirah said she'll send me the pics so I'll upload them later then. Hurmm..I think I better stop now. Dont think my eyes can stand a bit longer. So, goodnite then. Sleep tight..

Eyh?

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I have no idea if this has to do with my previous post about Cikgu Rahimy but I swear with all my words that I have NOTHING, I mean NOTHING to do with Mr. Rahimy. Come on.. He's married and has a daughter and he's rather a good father. So, just bother your mind with other necessary things ok! =) Oh wait, ade jugak org search loloq?? Hurmm..Confusing.. Plz somebody..Can anybody enlighten me?? Loloq, anything you want to say? Ahah..

I'm cracked up

After reading another blogs, I found that mine is the most hideous one with boring posts and has a bunch of jive. What else can a jobless person like me blog about anyway? If you have been reading my blog from the early months of my blogging world, you'll notice that my earlier posts were full with personal stuffs and that particular aspect reduces in bounds from then on. No comment on that. Blog couldnt play its part as diary could it? Haha I wont blog about people whom I have crushes on for God's sake. Kantoi ah. Haha..

Anyhow, I've stumbled upon these whacky pages that makes me like banging my head against the wall!!! They are sooo soo stupid and totally hillarious and definitely will crack you up. I'm pissing myself laughing at them. Just check them out, something that is worth reading (to me though =p).

• warning labels
• anecdotes of stupidity
• accident reports
• patient charts
• courtroom quotations

Too much to be listed. That wont be enough.

It's time!

WeeHooo!! Now, I'm smiling and giving the biggest smirk I can! =))) Ahah..At last, I triumphantly put up my favourite song in this blog (well, for this particular moment apparently) and thanx a heaps to En.Azfar and Mirul for all the guides. Yep, let the song do its job =)

Nuthing to be said, tho

My dear friend, Shazman, called me up the other day. He left a dozens of missedcalls and thousand of messages asking me, why havent I updated my blog with something 'about-me' post. Haha.. I dont know why he got so mad when he found out that I blogged irregularly. I'm not a blogaholic am I? Haa, man? As if he doesnt keep up with my updates. Gile kot? PMS mengalahkan aku. Hahaha.. "Aku balik umah skali skale je, tgk2 ko tak update blog! Marah arr!!" He's a bit of a nutter. Haha..

Well currently, I'm confronting with a very stupid problem regarding my intention to put up my music box in this blog. I've asked a few 'sifus' about the coding stuff and I think I've done what I'm supposed to do. It just turns out not very good!! Arrghh..Tensyen betul. The thing is, I'm too enraptured by the Michael Buble's song, Home. I listened to it like every single time! While driving, eating, reading that so boring Tony Parsons, blogging (Oh yes, I'm listening to it now), and I've burned the song in almost every cd I have! Haha.. Gile betul. So, I'd be very2 glad if the music naturally wafts through my blog without opening the Windows Media Player. Plus, let it be contagious and you all know how strong the hypnosis is. Eheh..

Ok, I'm off. I'm gonna sleep like a log! Eheh..Nyte2 guys

[p/s: I'm quite disappointed with Jesse's performance today but I know he'll get his luck in another days ahead. *Doffs my hat to Sergio, The Contender =) and Jesse ;)* I'm gonna miss em..]

Aaaahh..Wut a nu lyfff..!

Ahaahaa..I'm recovering now. I'M HAPPY =)) You know what makes me so? I was awaken by something I never thought would make an impact on me. Very soothing and relaxing. I feel like I'm living a new life! The tune, the flow of the music. Somehow it changes my mood, in a way. I like the songs. And now I'm trying to put them in my page. Hurrm..Tough task. Ok guys, have a very nice day =) Cheers!

Current Mood: t.e.e.d. o.f.f.

I'm really not in a good mood. Something must be wrong but I can't figure it out. My mind seems not getting along with everything very well. Or perhaps it's sort of hormonal imbalance?? I dunno. I'm just tensed up. Evertyhing seems wrong and not right that my head keeps on going through a period of my adolescent angst. Or, perhaps it's because of my premenstrual tension? Warghhh.. I'm helplessly struggling with my initial stiffness am I not?

I'm bored..i'm bored..m bored..bored..ored..(echo)

It has been 4+ months since I started blogging. And calling it to a halt has never seen vivid in my head. I enjoy blogging, I really do but since I'll be starting my studies quite soon, I dont know if I ever have much time to spend on it. Contractually, I do have some times to blog but getting myself established is what I need to do first. You know what I mean, owning a computer with accessible networking, no matter where I'll be settling off.

What sparked me into blogging was these three amusing bloggers who coincidentally to be Malaysian and they currently doing their degree on medicine somewhere in Britain. What they wrote about were usually the daily pukka things you will confront with especially for medical students. That was the best part of all. Putting myself into their life somehow taught me how to handle certain things and of course, it's literally getting myself prepared for all those things. Reading their blogs had always been my all time favourite. But I dont know what had gone wrong, they finally stopped blogging and proudly said 'I'm no longer a blogger! It sucks!' and 'I'm being a doctor, not a blogger'. I dont know which part sucks. Their writings were just great. So, I started it myself, and my english improvingly better than before. That's the credit though. If people say 'No..medical students cant involve in blogging thingy.they just dont have time! with all the on calls throughout the night and will end up knackered. blogging is not a good idea' they are just so wrong. Ask Mirul if that's true. But I don't think so.

When I was twelve, I had my own diary. The book where I wrote everything I want. The sweet memories, the bitter days. And during my times in Langkawi, my SED (Self Excellent Desk, some kind of organiser) was my best friend. No matter how I felt and what I had in mind, writing was my own way to express myself. I'm not the kind of person who talks bilge and rambles gibberish on and on and on (Like anid.Haha..) yet I'm not the person you'll refer to when it comes to writing. Ahah, I know I'm such a bad scribbler but like I have just said long long ago, this is where I pour out all my thoughts, formally or informally. If any one of my readers dont agree with what I blog about, it's fine. They can build up one on their own.

Well welll..what the hell am I talking about, I dont know.Haha.. I'm losing my point. Urghh..Ok, now I need someone to talk to. Humph..

nEw |OokS

Ahah.. I dunno but I'm a tad excited with my new header background. I have no idea how it's going to work on other computer but it looks just fine and cool on mine. You know I've been trying hard on changing my background image since ages ago but they can't be ran on certain computers so it's better if I use the default image. But then, this rustic bloggy really needs a lil bit touch here and there, just to give it a pleasant looks. Hurmm..I think I did pretty good on my header background image. I like the photo. And yea, I miss those moments too =)

The Acknowledgement of Passion

You're excited about life and in touch with yourself and nature. Tell me, do I have this straight?

Virtues: You appreciate humor like none other. Puns might even spark laughter in you (TEHY R FUNNI). You seek adventure and connection with your surroundings. You seek friends who will not only share laughs with you but actually form a deep bond of trust and empathy beneath the surface. You look for adventure and courage in people, and variation is necessary to keep you under control. You see yourself as multi-faceted, so you need people who can see you in your many lights. You're constantly trying to figure yourself out while analyzing the people around you. Silly, silly people.

Aspirations: You can't decide what you want to be yet, but you know you want it to be adventures and interesting, with constant changes. You don't know what love will do for you yet, but it's competing with adventure for a place in your heart. An internal conflict has begun: can you be a successful worker, lover, and parent all at once?

Quirks: Noise of any sort is irritating when you're in the mood. Smacking gum, loud chewing, humming- it's about as pleasing as bodily noises. You dislike emaciated people because of jealousy and just plain disgust.You're a procrastinator but a hard worker, too.

Factors: You need constant attention and support. You're high-maintnence, but a great, reliable friend. Nature needs you and you need nature; it's helped thus far, so keep in touch with the outside world.

Future: Who knows! You absolutely need constant change, so vacationing is surely in the cards. Will you settle down or not? Love will find you eventually, as it does to everyone. Will you choose the sweet home life or the rewarding busy-bee life?

I am truly passionate.

Find your soul type at kelly.moranweb.com.

Well, I can't really see myself in those words above but virtually those underlined words define me pretty well. That's cool I think. I am rather passionate aint I? Ahah, ask Sya anything about me and she'll enlighten you with something that you need to know. She knows me better than myself *beams*

It's been a while..

Yep, it has been a while, I know. Too much things to catch up recently. Mum just underwent the operation and thank God she's doing ok now. I've been staying at the hospital like 4 or 5 days, so, I couldnt show up at any of the offices there and said "Excuse me, can I use the comp for a while? I need to update my blog." could I? Well, I'm not that blogaholic kind of person (my writing sucks..really) so, it's fine with me as long as I'm satisfied with what I blog about in this bunch-of-jive page.

MAY 13
I woke up at 6 with my eyes blinked heavily. Urggh..I din think I slept well the night before. Lied on the bed with a busy mind (Still undecided about going to matrix) and my head shook (left..right..left..right) like it couldnt recall what it was invented for. Tried vainly to put myself into Mum's shoes. The feelings, the mental preparations. At right this stage, what else could we do? Pray was the only option.

And a couple of hours later, Dad and Along Ima showed up along with a nurse "The MAs will be here in any minute. Just lay on the bed, they will bring you to the OT". And I went "Haa? They'll arrive in any minute?? Tak mandi lagi!!". And scramble off to the bathroom I did. Not long after that (Ahah..I dun need one hour for my bath lor!), the MAs arrived. I then took my Tony Parsons and my discman vigorously, trying to keep up with their speed. We went down the lift to the 2nd floor and "Bilik-bilik Bedah" simply caught my sight. Ahah..Jakun? Oh yes, it was my first time to be in such place and my first time waiting outside the OT.

By 9.30, Mum was brought into the OT. And with the permition from Prof.Hashim, Along Ima was allowed to scrub up and she assisted the operation. Ahah..best betul. The operation took exactly an hour and after had the operation done, they brought mum to the recovery room. By 3pm, they brought her back to Sutera 8. Alhamdulillah, everything went well and fine. The first couple of days after the operation, the pain invariably kicked in (I just dont understand how come the aneasthetists didnt give an epidural during the operation. It was farking painful and they had just flourished the stupidity of local doctors. Ok, aint intended to be offensive and prejudice but how foolish could they be when one of the doctors said "Eh..tak tau laa kenapa diorg tak bagi epidural" What was up with that?????! That was really not a professional.) and God, I just couldnt imagine how she managed to get over it. Pitty her. So, I stayed at the hospital, helped her out in any way I could. And now, alhamdulillah she's doing much much better.

Somebody said blogging words is boring, so these are some boring pictures taken when I was bored. Tak de keje. Heh..

It was the most boring part of the plot that made me eager to snap a shot.

And the book is finally closed! Apparently taking pictures did attract me more. The plot was darn slow! Adeh..Gotta be an operator for Mum's phone for a while. Heh..Looks like the DM was like "Eh eh..wanna be in the pic too!!" so, there you go dear. Hehe..

And here's the tv that I didnt even want to look at. Bad tv I tell ya. The picture was barely seen and you could simply got switched between smily faces and angry faces. With the deafening buzz at the background. Trust me, you wouldnt be entertained with such internal broken television. Heh..

Ok, this was the most bangang pic of all. I was actually hardly saw what was the time at that moment (just like I said, I didnt have a good sleep the night before so by the time my eyes shut open, I was a bit giddy and woozy). And my phone was off. Neither did Mum's. So I took a snap and said to myself "I will know the time right after I upload it into the hard disc" Tak ke bangang? itu laa dina. Heh..

Healthy food..Eheh..Kak Sue's mummy brought them along during her visit. And that lovely card from Farah Hani (Kak Sue's youngest sis) and family. Alahai..comey

This is what most people will do when they can't put themself off to sleep and a camera is in their hands. Ok, perhaps they would take another picture instead. But what can you get in a ward?

Hybrid from Japan. Beautiful arent they?

Reddy carnations and pinky decent daisies. From Kak Sue's aunty. Sweet.

The purity of white roses. Also from Kak Sue's mummy along with the purple hybrids.

No thanx, Mam..

I got a call from Pn Nisya from KUTPM in Shah Alam yesterday. (Well it stands for Kolej Universiti Teknologi & Pengurusan Malaysia. I swear, that was the first time I heard of it..) They offered me to do one year of foundation for medicine and then they will send me abroad for degree. Yes, I went excited. So she asked me if I'm interested in doing medicine (Duh!) and asked my parents' occupation since I need to pay the university fees for my first year degree (??! Why cant they just pay??). I asked her "So how much do I have to pay for the fees?". "Around RM50,000 and above..It depends on the university." Ahhaa..Owwwkieee..

But..oh yes, I forgot to ask her the places they would send me to. 50k is not gonna do a good enough job in UK or even Ireland. So ask I did. And she said "Oh..kitorg hantar ke Indonesia saje.." Strike!! My heart crashed off..... Indonesia has always been the last place I want to go. Why?? Well, there must be a lot of reasons I bet.

First, not every universities are english orientated.Well, except for UGM- Universiti Gadjah Mada.(that's all I know anyway). Second, it is somewhat not a nice place to live (Hafiz had told me something not very nice over there). Third, if you deserve to go to another better place, with a good matriculation or any foundations results, why must it be Indonesia? Fourth, this is specifically pointed to UGM: I dont want to be assigned under any Medical Officer of which happened to be Dr.Hafiz because I'm afraid I'll flunk my entire course exams. Ahahaha..No no thanx. I'm not gonna put myself into such big problem.

Sooo..I'm still going for my plan to go to pasum (Heck!! The registration is soon which is gonna be this Sunday and I havent gone yet for my medical check up!! Ahah..lantak laa..) The other day, Dad said he's not gonna be able to send me to pasum, so he will ask Lupi to send me instead. But, Lupi will not be at home for this weekend since he needs to revise for his last paper of Economics (I bet he just got started.Hehe..) s.o.o.o..takde org laa nak hantar eh? Ah well, drive off on my own would be the last resort. It's fine with me.That would be no problem (Boleh jalan2..Ngeh ngeh =P) But mum didnt allow me!! In the end..tak payah pegi lg senang. Heh..

Anyway, Mum has been admitted to hospital just now. Thank God Along Ima and Angah Aya have a day off today so diorang teman Mum at the hospital. And I'll be accompanying mum tonight. So, bug later!

Some pics in Shakey's MidValley

Here are some pictures during the gathering the other day. Remember the entry I post about going to MV with few of my friends? I didnt bring along my camera so I asked Pie if he could attach the pics to me. So here you go!

First row from left: Fehy (excited with Milah's new hp.Hehe..), Tash, Dina, Nad and Fira. Second row from left: Milah (my second cousin), Amy the Beauty Queen, Hanim, Allia, Thirah and Shique.

Clockwise from left: Johan, Ijat, Gem, Loloq (cut it off Loloq!! It's too obvious!! Jangan poyo bleh tak?), Pak We and Sabrun. The guys who are sooo boorish because they added another bill and ordered pizza just for themselves! Ceh..!

There there. You're at last in the pic, Pie! Hehe..Ayay!..U guys spoiled the pic la Gem n Loloq! Gedik gile..

Missing him..Uwaa!

So I woke up this morning and found out that...He's gone!!! Noooooooooo!~

How I miss his cute face, the way he smiles and laughs at me and the way he makes me keep smiling throughout the day. He is what I really wish to see first in the morning, wake him up, give him a kiss and start our day together as ever.

And today is Nazme's first day in nursery. At last, Along Ima has to send him to nursery no matter what. Since I'll be going to matrix soon, nobody is able to replace me as the most successful babysitter ever!! Haha..I'm the one who taught him how to crawl across the floor, how to start his first few steps and the one who taught him how to play peek-a-boo and hide-and-seek. See! I taught him a lottt. Heh..

Well, just hope that he's doing fine over there. And reallly can't wait to see him!!!

.i.n.c.o.m.p.l.e.t.e.

empty spaces fill me up with holes..distant faces with no place left to go..without you within me I can’t find no rest..where I’m going is anybody’s guess..

voices tell me i should carry on..but i am swimming in an ocean all alone..it’s written on your face..you still wonder if we made a big mistake..

i don’t mean to drag it on, but i can’t seem to let you go..i don’t wanna make you face this world alone..i wanna let you go..alone..

i’ve tried to go on like i never knew you..i’m awake but my world is half asleep..i pray for this heart to be unbroken..but without you all i’m going to be is incomplete..

oh yess..i’ve tried to go on like i never knew you..i’m awake but my world is half asleep..i pray for this heart to be unbroken..but without you all i’m going to be is incomplete..

.i.n.c.o.m.p.l.e.t.e.

Physics Rocks!

SCENE 1
PUs: Cikgu, nama anak cikgu ada 3 pekataan kan?
Mr.Rahimy: Ha'ah. Triple N bt Rahimy Fitry (Damn! I keep forgetting his daughter's name. How come I forgot my favourite teacher's daughter's name? *slapping forehead*)
PUs: Tak panjang sgt ke. Nanti nak isi borang utk pape ke mesti susah.
Mr.Rahimy: Takde la. Isteri cikgu ade 3 jugak.
Dina: Isteri cikgu ade 3???? *completely surprised*
Mr.Rahimy: Haaa?? *mata terbeliak*
PUs: Wakakakakakaka!! Muahahahaaa!!

SCENE 2
Dina: Eh korang, pergi lab la. Cikgu dah lame tunggu.
PUs: Dina sorg je semangat nak pegi kelas Fizik. Huhu..
Dina: Korang tanak pegi dah. *walk with a slow gait. waiting them to start picking up books and ready to go to the lab. But they didnt!! They idly sit still on their own spots!!!!*
Dina: Wei korg cepat laaa sikit!!!
PUs: Ok laa ok laa. Eee..susah betul Dina semangat2 time Fizik ni.. *so I finally rush off their feet.. ~prouds~ Hehe..*

SCENE 3
Mr.Rahimy: Ok, cikgu dah habis tanda kertas. Nak tak?
PUs: Mesti laa nak tapi cikgu teka laa nama kitorg.
*So he called our name one by one*
Mr.Rahimy: Rushdina! *trying to look for the right face*
*Everyone in the class intentionally not listen to him including me! Hehe..jahat*
*And suddenly Kay raised her hands up and Cikgu Rahimy started to look confused*
Mr.Rahimy: Ni bukan atikah ke?
PUs: Aisehman..Macam mana cikgu boleh tak kenal Rushdina ni!!
*And laughter wafted through the air. He blushed. Comel comel. Haha..*
Mr.Rahimy: Haaa..Ni Rushdina. Apsal buat x tau je. *Passing the paper to me*
Dina: Hehe..Saje *Grinss*

SCENE 4
Mr.Rahimy: So, trial MARA tak lame je lagi. Dah prepare ke blm?
PUs: Alaa cikgu. Trial MARA susah laaa.
Mr.Rahimy: Selalunya lagi susah dari SPM tapi takpe laa, kalau study ok, insyaAllah ok la. Kita kena yakin.
Dina: Yeaa!! Saya yakin dengan fizik!! (Dush! Kill me kill me!! My voice filled up the room out of nowhere!! How stupid I can be? Haha..)
*Everybody stared at me*
Mamal: Hahah..Dina poyo gileee

SCENE 5
Mr.Rahimy: SPM tak lama lagi so, cikgu tak masuk kelas, korg study sendiri. Kalau ada apa2 masalah boleh jumpa cikgu.
PUs: Dina ada banyak masalah, cikgu!!!
*He blushed again. Haha.. Tak gune punye classmate*
Dina: Tak de laa cikgu. Saya ok! Diorg je yg byk masalah. *Grins*
Mr.Rahimy: Ok Rushdina. Kalau ada masalah boleh jumpa cikgu.
*So he left*
PUs: Suka laa tu boleh dating! Ok la, sape2 ade masalah tak payah jumpa cikgu, jumpa Dina je.

Hahaha..Why why, how I miss the class so much!! Well, back then, my classmates used to tease me with Cikgu Rahimy. I dont know how it started but we had so much fun in the class. Not that only we enjoyed the times, he sure felt the same thing. People say we, the PUs (stands for the class' name, Plutonium) always pulun for the exams. Yep, The Plutoniums were also known as The Puluniums. But hell no, we played a lot, laughed our head off like we never know the meaning of sadness. Yes, we studied like hell but not as pulun as they think. We just tried to be as happy as we could be. That was the most happening class I had ever been in. Sweet memories they are.

And now, I'm preparing to go for the matriculation. Still waiting for MARA but going to matrix could be fun too. Meeting up new friends, attending the orientation week. Just hope everything will be fine. Oh yes, I did not mention about starting classes did I? Haha..That's because I'm reaaaaaaallly not looking forward to starting my classes. Duh!! My laziness still at its high level. Haha.. But whatever it is, I really really hope to get the scholarship. Tanak laa duk matrix. Hehe.. Ok, I've been talking gibberish so much, so better let it stop. Cheers!~

Put up, Shut up, Go hard or Go home

And the winner is..the one who gave the knockout, JESSSEEEE BRINKKLLEEYY!!

Well well, can anyone tell me what's the point of blogging a boxer? 18years of living is never enough to enlighten me with so much about boxing. No, my intrigue towards it has never been stemmed. I dont like boxing or wrestling or whatsoever. They punch each other intermittently and the one who punch the most wins the game. That's it. Well, yea yea, I havent sit in front of my tv and enjoyed even one game properly and did not know how the boxers control the game and did not know how the rules play their parts and bla bla. But what the heck, its boring and has never caught my attention! Nothing can be blamed though.

Anyhooos, since I watch this tv programme, 'The Contender', now I know how to appreciate boxing. Every game will come up with the best boxer and every episode will somehow preach me a particular way of life. It's not just about boxing, it's about how to control your emotion, your relationship with each other, build up strategies, loving a family in which I found the most touching part of all. Oh yes, I've weeped several times (Haha..) because it seriously sad and emotive! How tear-jerking it can be when one of the boxers committed suicide because he lose a game and let down his family especially his small little daughter. That's sad.

This programme by some means teaches me how to appreciate people around me. Especially my family of course. Since I was a little, mum and dad broke me in how to resolve difficulties especially regarding my education. Before I sit for any examination, dad will definitely say "Genggam tangan, cakap pada diri sendiri 'I can do it!' " I did, I do and will always insert it in mind. At least it works for me though. And mum, I know she has sacrificed a lot for the family. She will do anything, I mean ANYTHING to see her kids live in a wonderful life. Too much she has done that makes me responsible to get anything she wants. That's the slightest thing I can do. Mum and Dad always come first even myself come after them.

And Jesse Brinkley really shakes the stage man! Haha..Kewl! Oh how I wish he gets that one million dollars because I think he deserves it more than anyone. Haha..Ok laa, lets give Alfonso the baby face a chance ;) *winkss* and that Bosante the Hairy is out!! Haha..He is such a braggart really that makes him lose the game. That's the most far he can go, why must he fume? Perhaps he hates to see Jesse win but Jesse just did! *applause!!* One thing I like about Jesse is he is sooo optimistic and cool and tak poyo macam Bosante and Ahmed yet he can be really annoying and irritating at some certain points. Hoho.. But that's ok. Everyone has their own specialities and flaws. The optimistic side controls him the most though. Ok, I'm starting to babble and bebel so I think I need to stop before it get worse. Bug later! *Hail Jessee!!*

A dramatic life

*Phone ringing*
Mum: Hello?
Jerk: Can I speak to anid plz. This is an international call from Indonesia.
*So Mum passed the phone*
*Anid talked crap with that jerk for about AN HOUR or so*
Mum: Siapa tu? Bukan main lagi. *Fumes*
Anid: Ntahlaa..kawan dina. Mana anid tau. Tanye laa dina.
Mum: Dina? Then what does he need to do with u?
Anid: Ntah laa. Anid pon x tau. *Running away..*
Mum: I'm not done with you. *with serious tone*

I swear, if I were there, I'd pick the phone up and squawk out "F**k off!!". And I'll tell mum "Everything is over Mum. Anid has nothing to do with this piece of shit and I'm outta here *with that poyo movement of mine*" Haha.. Well, that was ages ago I think. Hehe.. Klaka klaka

My endless support

Regarding to this post, I think putting up the button would cause no harm. I know Mirul has such a noble heart. Oh yes he is. Mobile|Mum must be very glad with Mirul and thankful for every support he shows. Hehe.. Well, suffering from cancer is what most people spurn but who knows what is going on next? It's beyond our authority. It's nothing more than a way of life.

We would never feel the genuine agony endured by one who is in the throes of something we dont know how it's going to end and the increasing pain inside until we confront it ourselves. Most of us are not aware to this piece of grind because everyone is busy with our own business and never take even a glimpse to other's life. When people need helps, we always be the last person to lend a hand and always be the first person to run. Why must it come? Why does it happen? Why should we shun? It's not wrong to be curious but just bare in mind that everything happens to be God's job. Who are we to protest?

Well, mum will be undergoing her operation next Friday. That little fiendish fibroid really must have been ditched as soon as posibble. Excessive bleeding has put her through quite a tough experience. Last week, she was admitted to hospital for a blood transfusion due to the very low level of hemoglobin in her blood (I'm not very clear about this) but according to the scale, if the level reaches below 8 over 11 then you need to undergo a blood transfusion in order not to get anything affected especially the heart.

It was one day before the kenduri kahwin, mum looked very pale and ghastly so Along Ima brought her to Hospital Putrajaya to check her anaemic level and it was read 6.6 which is very very low. So, Abg Amir and Kak Sue brought her to HUKM and there she was, admitted for a day for a 2 pints of blood transfusion. It hurts for me though to see mum helplessly lying on the bed, with a mind thinking about loads of things. It was bitter.

Dad said it is genetically inherited but that does not mean one of us will be facing the same thing. We never know. Semua kejadian ada hikmahnya so why must we avoid it?

So, here I put the button as showing my endless support to Mobile|Mum. May God bless her for every sacrifice she has done and may she always full of strength and spirit to go through the days ahead. 3:139 So lose not heart, nor fall into despair: For ye must gain mastery if ye are true in Faith. (Al-Imran)

So dear friends, let us pray for the happiness of both Mums and God always know what is the best for them. Happy Mother's Day, Mum. I love you so much.

Sooo knackered I am

Last week I saw him in red and I was in blue. Yesterday, I saw him in blue and I was in red. Hmm..Is that a good sign?? Ooo and he just got his new haircut. Nice! =)

Spending one whole day in MV with dozens of companion around was like using one big ammount of energy and indubitally backbreaking! Not that they forced me to go there and here but the need to smile more, need to talk more, preparing the mind to drift with the flow. Adeh.. But it was fun really!

Met Pie, the one I used to joke around with back there in college and he will be going back to Kangar tomorrow morning. He is just the same. That skinny figure with naive looks hasnt gotten even a little change. Hehe.. Klaka laa pie ni. So he stays in at Gem's for several days where I thought that Pie is here for his interview when he is actually not. Well he has told me that he didnt been called for the interview tapi telupe. Heh.. So he just came over for the sake of holiday.

There there. The monitor is blurring and my eyes are going to close tight. And that means I really really need to go to sleep. Aiyah, cant stand any longer. So, gudnite.

Current mood: Mixed up

April has passed by and May just met the beginning. Everything seems like changing at its own pace. Confusion may hold me back at this precise moment of time. Talking about my future is what I dislike the most because it never seems spot-on and it is totally not black and white that may arise the worriedness and agitation. But that is how it works. You will never know what will happen next and you dont even get to lead the way. Sometimes I try to shun myself away from thinking about all these stuff and bottle things up but I just can't. I have been trained to be this way since I was a little and I have to accept it.

Alhamdulillah, my interview went .p.r.e.t.t.y. well. I enjoyed the session and the panels were just the finest ones because they did not bring up any 'unexpected' questions (eg: Do you have AIDS?? Tell me what are the symptoms.) I mean, how come they asked such question? Does that mean we have to study about all those diseases existed before attending the interview?? I know, they wanted to calculate the quality and see how much do we know and aware to that kind of things. And they were actually evaluating our performance, not to know the exact asnwer for questions dedicated. And it's invariably asked to medical applicants. But "Do you have AIDS?"???! What is up with that?? And that is not enough. Some panels they just tried to be soo bitchy and irritating and some even said "Your english is tip top but your answers didnt up to my expactations". What did they expact then?? To form up a debate or sumthing?? They just really pissed people off, seriously.

But my panels were ok. That was quite a credit though. However....They asked me something, well, I couldnt say 'unexpected' question because I was about to revise about it but time just did not let me. You know, last week was quite a hectic one, so, I was actually not that prepared for the interview. I once thought "Hmm..Is it possible for them to ask me something about basketball?" Since I played the sport back there in college and it's neately printed on my testimonial, the thought simply popped in. But I was like "Alaaa, bantai je laa kalau die tanye pape.." And at the end of the day...

Panel: Can you tell me what are the rules in playing basketball??
Me: Damn!!! I had the exact question in mind!!!!!!! Shooot me!!! I couldnt even recall one of the ruless!!! (Ok, I will kill myself if that is what I answered. Well, I'm not going to type down my script =P but it was ABSOLUTE HIDEOUS!! That was seriously the lousiest part of all. Hahaha..)

But hey, it was not that bad though. Not to say that I am reaching up the vagueness level but just like I said, we cant foretell the future. Yes, they were other hundreds fantastic applicants, indeed. But all I can do is just wait and see..and of course keep praying hard. Nonetheless, I am actually thinking to go for matrix..but I dunno. This is what I said, pented up by confusion. Haih..Mengeluh lagi...

Anyhow, the wedding went on like a bomb!! I was really happy especially when I received a surprising visit from a few of my friends. Why why, I was really had a great time. Heheh.. Ooowh, and afar dropped in as well with his cute lil bro (Jgn jeles ye abang! Heh..) Really glad he made it =) The bottom line is, I enjoyed meeting up with my friends and cant wait for the next gathering.

These are some pictures taken during the big events (including akad nikah, wedding in cheras and bangi)

So, I think that is all for now. Oooo wait!! Wira just came up with his new blog and he keeps yelling around the town about it and begging for comments (Haha..Gurau je wira) so, do stop by at his blog and check out those interesting stuff!! Good job, Wiraa!!