Take A Break

I’m tired of sitting in front of this desktop and waste my time playing around with friendster and YM. I think I need to take a break and have my own time to invigorate my mood and energy. I was planning to stay over my cousin’s house for some days and tag along any freelance photographer from $FC$ for any outdoor photo shoot but the latter seems more unlikely. Bro Azhar had advertised about his food photography in one of the restaurants in seksyen 8, bangi but I was not able to be present due to some circumstances but he said he’ll inform me for the next session. Oh and bro 2uhri3 add aku as his contact kat flickr. Cis, senang mcm tu je ckp sorry!! Bengang betol.. xpe la, seb baek die terer jugak..

I’ve been concentrating TOO much on photography this lately that I somehow forgot that my dream is to be a doctor. Heh.. I know photography should be something for leisure and hobby but the more I get into it, the more thrilled I become. I have this thought of getting a new lens worth around rm600+ [yes, you can laugh hysterically over this] but to come to think of it, I’m not sure if I really need it for my future happenings and yes, I don’t have such amount of money. Sudah pokai maa!

Just now I went out with thirah to KLCC to celebrate her birthday yesterday. The treat was on me. And much to our surprise, something unexpected happened. It’s a top secret so I’m not gonna tell. Heh.. But anyways, I bought a Readers Digest and one of the topics really caught my attention. “A bullet stood between a young doctor and his destiny: The Healing of Dr Mayoyo.”

Richard Mayoyo was brought up by his single mother and living in poverty in Congo, until he was only nine when his mother died in a road accident. So he then lived with his widowed sister who herself had other five children to take care of. Despite all those difficulties he had to go through, Richard did well in school. And then when he was 17, he visited his friend in hospital. On the next bed, a woman was crying while two doctors tended to her. Then suddenly she was quiet. “She’s dead” said one of the doctors. And ever since, Richard had promised himself to be a doctor and to help poor people in his nation. Along the way, he then became a doctor and after 7 years’ hard work, he won a place as a neurosurgery registrar at one of the largest hospitals in Africa.

Richard learned from Dr Zorio that while operating on the brain required extreme care, it was important, sometimes, to be bold. “You need to be cautious,” Zorio would tell him, “but you have to be courageous too.”

But unfortunately, Richard had been mistakenly hit by a bullet fired at robbers by a shop owner. And his lower body then was paralysed.

In a bitter irony, nerve damage had robbed him of the one thing he wanted more than anything else: to be a neurosurgeon. I don’t want to live if I can’t be a neurosurgeon.

Then, with help from his therapist, he underwent some physiotherapies to improve his body coordination especially his finger so as to get precise gesture when performing surgeries. Lpeastu banyak jugak hardships that he needed to endure in order to become a neurosurgeon. And for all those sufferings, he finally become a wheelchair-bound neurosurgeon. Begitulah alkisahnye sedikit sebanyak. I don’t know why but I was very sentimental while going through the story. Very insightful and enlightening.

You know what I told Mum when she asked me, “Dina nak jadik specialist ape nanti?” yesterday? “Ntahla, taktau lagi but I like neurology. I like the study of the brain and the nerve system,” and this story really tells me something about it, personally, not technically. Tapi aku jarang dengar pompuan jadik neurosurgeon. Huhu.. Kak Sue suruh aku jadik O&G specialist. Hurmm.. No comment! Hehe.. Results exam tak kuar lagi wei!! Cuak cuak!! Huhu..

In conclusion, we don’t always get what we want. And we never know what is waiting ahead of us. Life has its ups and downs and everytime we’re at the top, always remember that the downs are always coming subsequent to the ups and vice versa. So we don’t have many choices in life. But that doesn’t mean that we don’t need to work hard for the better.

Allah does not require you to be the BEST but just want you to do your BEST and He'll take care of the REST :)

Run

Hmm..

Bro Karl masih mengikuti rancagan di blog ini rupanya. Adeh.. segan la sikit tapi takpe, bro karl sporting n kewl saja B)

“For me a hobbyist should just be a hobbyist... no need utk kasi can org kritik :)”

He’s right.. Now, after bro t3d poyo2 nak marah aku and dak2 lain kat forum, aku dah malas nak layan org2 kerek mcm tu. Ade la kawan2 lain yg baek hati spt bro azhar dan bro fadhil dan mereka sangat sporting spt bro karl. [maaf, saya bukan playgirl atau gatal tp photographer2 perempuan yg sifu2 spt miss j@y hanya beberapa org saja. Yg kawan2 lain ade la tp kalau bab2 camera, saya lebih suka tanya straight pada yg pakar.] Jadi kesimpulannya, biarlah bakat aku [ade ke bakat? Haha..] terpendam dalam hati di bawa arus perasaan <-- ayat jiwang ahli L18 yg ajar. Harap maklum..

Eh ape aku merepek ni..

Hmm..

Sebenarnye, aku tengah beremosi skrg ni. So I need to merepek to get rid of this feeling. Help me!! Hmm.. Yesterday I did something stupid. I added this one fella, whom I’m not gonna tell, in friendster but up to this point, she didn’t approve my request. Yep, it’s a ‘she’. So I viewed her page and found out that she just uploaded some photos. And much to my disappointment, she put a photo of ‘her other half’. My eyes just dwelled and I cried. Why? Let me just keep it to myself but it really means something significant. I was not surprised with it, it was so expected but each time I look at the picture, I feel an impulsive infinite emptiness. I don’t know how to say but, I’ve never been in such utmost emotion. So I just cancelled the request and now I’m struggling to pretend like nothing happened which is… hard.

Hmm..

Anyways, I went to mid this morning with tikah for a reunion. It was supposed to be a langkawi reunion tp out of those ppl, only 4 are not from KMB so… yea. It was exciting lepak2 main bowling [walaupun aku x main sbb x suke] and main2 kat arcade. Best! Here’s the mosaic. Gambar2 tu tak diedit sbb malas.

We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess
Light up, light up..

SEDIHNYEEEE :(

Disrupted

My first attempt of posting some of my photos in the Ph0t0 Critic C0rner of the $FC$ forum has finally been achieved! Well, I first thought that the photos are qualified to at least obtain some pleasant comments from the sifus but it happened otherwise. I’m not sure if Bro 2uhr! is one of the sifus but HE’s the one who cakap banyak.

I’m not expecting HIM to go into raptures over the photos but I’m not expecting HIM to belittle me and put me off either. I’ve told them I’m still new in the field and am still learning and I was hoping HIM to understand my situation tapi bagi komen macam aku ni bodoh gile x tau pape. And what really put me down is, HE said I was bluffing by saying that the photos are taken in beijing. “Gambar makcik tgh carving tu macam kat CM je!”, “If you said it’s in london pun I’d still believe you sbb gambar mat saleh!” Cis.. Bengong!! Tensyen gile ok. That’s insulting, really.

Nevertheless, at the same time, HE did give some constructive critics and ways to improve my photos. Well, I thank HIM for that but my mood is wandering off the point now. Banyak betul dugaan. Like what I’ve said before, there’s nothing easy in this world. Sigh..

Let Things Go..

I know it has been a while since I last updated this blog. Too many things happened to be poured out but I’m not really in the mood to blog.

The trip was fantastic. I have so many things to share but maybe not now. I’ve uploaded some of the photos in here. And yep, I’ve finally gotten myself a D70s. Well, I don’t sound as exciting as I’m supposed to, am I? I still have a long road to go before I can be like Bro Bazuki. Heh.. And oh yea, talking about photography, the TT session went out just well. I saw some of the photos they put in the forum and glad to see it turned out good. Almost 30+ of them made it and I believe they had a blast.

Went to the college yesterday to pick up some of my stuff with thirah. I was so happy to see those faces again. I wanted to stay over for the wida’ night and the end of sem dinner but something else got into my way. It’s quite difficult for me to put those nostalgic memories as my past because I’m not sure if I can leave them behind. Too precious to put them aside but life must go on and I have to keep on going. I’m sure gonna miss them so much. Sigh..

I’m now in the position of outlining a new setting of life. Being a college leaver and waiting for my exam results is not something new. I should’ve get accustomed to it by now. I was planning to work during this few-month break but I’m afraid I would be occupied with something else. My intention to be one of the ATSs for the next ESQ Training doesn’t seem to be materialized because I won’t be able to make it to the meeting this weekend and for the training itself next week. I hope I could join in next month.

Cooking lesson. Photography classes. Kelas agama. I hope I could prepare myself for some uncertainties remaining ahead. Bak kata Abg Lan some times ago, “Semoga cuti kali ni membuahkan hasil yang berguna,”. InsyaAllah..

It's difficult to let things go but there's nothing easy in this world.

Humor Me!

“It’s a good thing you don’t care because I’m going to do what I want to do. You can keep lying, I don’t care either..”

“Let go of it. Don’t force too much if the thing doesn’t belong to you anymore..”

“Hah.. I still can’t find the things that are right in front of me..”

“What were you expecting? It all ended one year ago. You’ve been doing so well, just keep on going.”

“When you think of necessary random thoughts, eating is the best way to forget about it! :)”

I’m in a bit of a mess and am filled with nostalgia. Too many things wandering in head. The ever awaited TT has been cancelled out of my what-to-do list since my flight is on the same night as the TT session. I'm kinda devastated with that actually because I've been so raring to go and meet up B@rzuki, p3t3r lim and the other approximately 30+ photography freaks but no choice I've got.

And since the Awards Day is going to be on this saturday, people have started to talk about the rehearsals, what suits and dresses to wear, who's going to queue behind whom, who's going to be the video-cameraman and whatnots. It's kinda sickening when knowing that I'm not graduating with the rest of the friends. But what to do..

And NOOOO!!~ MM has signed out from her blogging world!! Oh MM!~ You've been a great survivor of your kind! Gonna miss your words and jokes :(

And yes, waiting can be so painful. Sometimes you just got the sudden urge to run away. I'm going back home for good this wednesday. Sigh.

I need some sort of pacification for myself. And zikir is the all-time best transcendental meditation. Trust me..

It's good..

It’s good to be back home. It’s good to be out of college for a while. It’s good to meet up those alumni people. It’s good to see p@k @ry and the gang back. It’s good to see Lupi at home. And it’s good to see him back.

I just got back home from the renungan esq at hotel istana. Alhamdulillah, setelah berpenat lelah mencari transport balik, last2 dpt jugak pergi. Rasa seronok sangat dapat join. For once, I feel the freedom of being away from studies and exams. And the choice of getting away from whatever problems I’m facing right now.

But I’m going back to college tomorrow though. Since this is going to be my last weekend at college, my chaletmates are planning to do some nasty stuff so yea, I have to be around as well. Haih.. And since the awards day is to be held on this 16th on which I would impossibly to make it, I just want to spend some more time with my friends in college. Yep, just a FEW more days to go and I’ll be a college leaver with a vague future waiting ahead.

It’s gona take me days to get over everything. I mean, handling emotions especially at right this moment is not something within my capabilities. It’s hard to abscond from a place that has been MY 2-YEAR LIFE and those beloved friends and teachers who have been beside all way through. They have been great teachers. Couldn’t ask for more. I’m not expecting anything from anyone since I’m going to leave a little bit earlier but it’s expected to be difficult to leave them behind.

I want to leave the college with happy feelings. I don’t want to owe anybody be it financially, emotionally or physically. And I’m not looking forward to apologies like “Dina, I’m sorry for stealing your umbrella.. sorry for reading your blog all this while silently.. sorry for talking shit behind your back.. sorry for this.. sorry for that..” because I’ve never kept any hard feelings inside with anyone. People do mistake so why can’t I just forgive them. I myself do mistake but I won’t take people for granted. If they can’t forgive me for any wrong doings that I have done and they want me to pay them back, I would, by all means.

I might seem smiling and happy in these few days as though I’m feeling good but it doesn’t quite so. It has been a tough week, especially after knowing the big shocking news the other day and having exams at the same time. Eventhough I have to pretend to some people like nothing happens, I do it with my own personal reasons. I’m not expecting them to understand me because they never will but I just hope my heart will get a strong grasp on my beliefs to Allah. Walaupun diorg tak tahu and tak faham kesusahan yang aku dah lalui, cukupla Allah je yg tahu and He indeed knows everything inside.

But the news actually made me think more about myself. I got the chance to ponder upon my past and looking forward to be a better person in the future. I really want to be like him. Of all people that I’ve met in this world, he really taught me the meaning of benevolence and being open-handed. I don’t know how he does that but he is really someone I look up to. He doesn’t manifest his poignancy to people. He always has the patience of a saint even with the hardest obstacle he has to face. He apologizes and he forgives. He remembers his bad deeds to people and he forgets other people’s mistakes. He is really the finest guy I’ve ever met.

So that’s about him. Now, I try to be positive. I don’t want to get involved with any masalah hati with anyone because it really hurts me. Like what I’ve mentioned above, they will never get to put themselves in my shoes and even if they do, they’ll perceive it in different ways. But no matter what, I’ll respect them, there’s no doubt about it. So let’s say if one day they themselves told me the whole truth about everything, I’ll just smile and say, “It's ok. Let bygone be bygone :)” though I know it’s not gonna be that easy but I’ll try.

My last paper is on next Wednesday. I’m going back home on the same day and maybe will be back to college on the 22nd. I hope I will be back with a new spirit, new person, new me. Wish me luck for my last paper! :)

HECK!

MY FRIENDSTER ACCOUNT HAS BEEN HACKED!

Pretence

Today somebody told me one big shocking news. Oh well.. I’m just speechless. Sedih ada. Kelakar pun ada. Sakit hati pun ade. Tapi redha je la, nak buat mcm mana.

R0y once asked me sometime ago, couples of years back, “Aku x dpt bayangkan mcm mana hidup aku kalau korang takde, ila takde, ajis takde, hilya takde, semua orang la. Mesti aku tak macam siapa aku sekarang.”

I don’t know why but I suddenly called what he said to mind and compare his words with what I'm feeling right now. Sometimes I try to put myself into another life with different set of people around, and imagine how happy or sad my life would be. But fantasy is of course deceiving and limiting. It’s not that I’m not thankful with what I have now. It’s just my mental need just to make sure that they are indeed not within the realms of possibility so that I would easily find my bearings in life. I don’t know. Like what Sya always told me, life is just full of pretence.

I’m trying to cope with what I have to bear now since my maths paper is in just two days’ time. And I’m REALLY counting the days for everything to be over. I just want to get out of here. Sometimes, I wish I were never in this place.

I’m glad there are still people out there who understand my situation. And I’m glad I’m not only attached to people in this college.

This Friday, there’s going to be a session of “Renungan ESQ” with P@k @ry at Hotel Istana. K0c@, n@j and me are planning to go but we’re still unsure with the transportation. Worse come to worse, I would ask Lupi to fetch me up right after my Stats paper. Nak temuntah dah duk kolej. Oh yep, Lupi is coming back this Friday. Flight dia sampai pagi kot so boleh la ambik aku petang tu. Huhu padan muke kene dera. Dulu aku dah slalu jadik driver die every weekend ambik-hantar masa kat KMB dulu. Hek!~

And I just uploaded new song. |2uz@ini send kat email. Huhu gumbire. Thanx a lot ruz! So, enjoy the song!~ If anybody wants the song, just let me know. I’ll email you right away :)

Ada Apa Dengan Dina dan Cinta? Ewah2..

Last year, I heard about some of my acquaintances getting engaged. Some of them are my age, some are one and two years older. But now, I found out they didn’t make it. I don’t know why but I’ve never believed in the concept of ‘ikat’ as what most people do nowadays.

I chatted with N@i|i the other day. “Aku tak tahu la org lain mcm mane kan tp kalau aku ade suke orang, I will NEVER be the first to confess. Macam dalam buku ayat2 cinta tu kan, si hero tu kate kat nurul, ‘kalau kau bagitau awal sket drpd aisha, mesti aku tak pk 2 kali’. Maknenye mamat tu tunggu perempuan tu ckp dulu la kan. And aku takkan sampai bila2 tulis surat mcm nurul buat tu. Never man! Haha..” and she said, “Tu la kan. Ntahla, aku takut kalau aku confess kat salah laki, yang bukan suami aku nanti, aku rasa tak adil kat suami aku nanti..” and the thought didn’t stop there.

Aku teringat cerita sorang kawan ni, she used to like a guy so much. Mmg suke sangat smpai doa solat istikharah sume, first love la agaknye. And then, few days before she flew off to Australia, that guy confessed kate suke kat die and kononnye macam nak pompuan tu jadik girlfriend die something like that. Tapi minah tu tanak. Dia kate, tunggu la dulu die habes blaja dulu [buat accounting takpela 3 tahun. Huhu..] so mamat tu pon kate ok la. Yg si minah tu mmg dah hepi tahap mega la kan. Mane taknye, dah lame simpan sorg2, tibe2 mamat tu pun suke gak, sape tak angau. And then ntah mcm mane diorang lost contact kot. After minah tu grad, dapat keje sume, tibe2 ade sorg mamat lain nak masuk minang. Mamat tu officemate minah tu kalau tak silap. Minah ni duk bosan la tunggu mamat dulu tu contact balik tp x de pon. Kebetulan officemate yg nak masuk minang ni kire doing well jugak and dah establish sume, muke pon bleh tahan, bab2 agama pun ok gak, so minah ni dengan berat hatinye [sbb masih mengharap kat mamat dulu tu] menerima la mamat ni. Tibe2 on the day minah ni nak tunang, mamat lama tu tibe2 contact balik, ckp nak masuk line for the second time. Haha kesian kat minah tu kan. Tapi nak buat camne, tepakse la kate “Wei aku dah nak betunang baru nak masuk line!” lebeyh kurang camtu ar. Huhu.. Tapi the minah and the mamat now live happily ever after with keluarga masing2. Bak kate s@r@h, “Eh wujud jugak cite camni dalam real life. Ingat dalam drama n buku2 novel je..”

And ada lagi satu crita from Ustad P@hr0l masa bagi ceramah ‘tentang cinta’ dulu. Cerita lebih kurang je la. Ade sorg pilot ni, dulu mmg kaki pompuan. Pastu dia ade sorg awek mat saleh kot kalau tak silap. Pilot ni mmg sayang tak hengat kat awek die. Awek die mintak nak kawen tp si pilot ni kate die blom ready lagi, lain agama plak tu. Pastu ntah mcm mana, si pilot ni tiba2 dapat hidayah untuk kembali ke pangkal jalan so terpaksa la cakap babai kat awek die tu. Die punye la sedih cam hape sbb mmg sayang gile kat awek cun die tu. Pastu dia ada suruh sorang ustad tu carikkan isteri untuk die. “Tak kisah la ustad lawa ke tak, janji boleh jadik isteri solehah”, kata si pilot itu. “Betul tak kisah?”. “Betul ustad. Saya terima aje!”. So ustad tu pon carik la kan isteri untuk encik pilot yg segak tu. Lepastu, first time nak jumpe bakal isteri, si pilot ni mesti la bedebar2 kan. Sekali tu, aduhaiiiiii, luruh hati encik pilot tu sbb bakal isteri die mmg tak lawa. Sampai berkecai hati, maknenye mmg tak lawa sangat la tu. Terbayang2 awek cun die yg dulu tu. Tapi sebab die cekang, die pun kate “Ok la ok la. Aku x kesah, janji aku kawen.” First few years mmg encik pilot ni agak sedih n tak bahagia jugak ar sebab die masih x bleh lupe bekas awek die n isteri baru doesn’t make things any better. Tapi lama2, berkat kesabaran dia, akhirnye Allah tiupkan jugak rasa sayang dia kat isteri dia tu. Sekarang dah ada 5 anak dah. Huhu.. comel kan?

What I’m trying to point out here is, jodoh pertemuan tu di tangan Tuhan. Kalau tiba2 korang dapat kad jemputan ke majlis pertunangan Rushdina Sofia dgn mana2 jejaka bertuah tu, tak semestinye aku akan kawen dgn jejaka bertuah itu. Tapi harapnye kalau aku dah bertunang ng sorang laki, aku nak la kawen ngan die. Alang orang yg dah kawen pon bercerai, apetah lagi bertunang, apetah lagi ikat, apetah lagi cinta monyet!!!! Hah!

Semalam ada sorang kawan aku ni bising2 kat aku sbb dia kata dia tak suke cara Mu$c0m [kire macam Islamic body kat kolej ar] tegur orang kapel. Mungkin sebab dia terasa la kot. Mu$c0m bagi flyer pasal ‘Bestnye Couple’ konon2 nak bagi orang2 yg berkapel terasa tp ntahla, bagi aku yg tak terase ni pun aku tak suka cara pendekatan yg penuh sindiran n kata2 yg tak menyenangkan. Aku faham la niat diorang nak menyedarkan but to me, that’s not the right way to do and not the right words to say. Orang bukannya makin sedar, makin bengang and pandang serong kat diorg ade la. And ada lagi satu poster pasal kapel2 ni, ade soalan berbunyi: “Adakah perempuan yang pernah berkapel tidak akan dipandang oleh lelaki2 lain?” dan jawapan yg diberikan: “Mesti la tak. Yang first hand belambak2, sape nak perempuan second hand.” Isn’t that harsh? I mean, how could you say something like that? It doesn’t sound like helping at all and doesn’t give any room for those involved to repent. Tak tahu la. Mmg la bagus for them to at least take actions to prevent sins from coupling from widespread tapi mungkin boleh guna cara pendekatan and wordings yang lebih berhemah.

Cumanya, what I don’t understand is, what differentiates ‘couple’ from ‘ikat’ or ‘tunang’? To me, it’s just the same thing because as long as you’re not married, no matter what status you’re in, you’re still prohibited from doing things that married couple can do. Tapi sekarang ni, kalau kate ‘couple’ je, “Haaa dosa!!!” tapi kalau ‘ikat’, “Haa macam ni baru boleh!”. Tahpape kan? Ntahla.. aku mmg tak suke pandangan orang kalau kapel dosa tp kalau ikat ok. Just because it sounds more proper. Ish, mmg tak masuk akal. Ade je couple yang baik n orang dah tunang yg x baik. Alaa apa2 hal pun kalau niat nak kawen dah ade mmg jaga batasan, what’s the problem? Ade je yang tak declare kapel pon tapi duk bekepit 24 jam. “Eh kitorang tak kapel! Kitorg kawan je!”. Aduhai..

Ntahla.. Ok maybe I might be biased or whatever but to me, different person has different preferences and views so I’m talking on behalf of myself, not of other people. I’m not saying that couple is good. No, don’t get me wrong but neither I say that couple is bad. If you think tunang or ikat is acceptable, why is couple not? Ok aku faham la bertunang ni is masa untuk berkenalan dgn lebih baik sebelum kahwin, maknenye mmg dah confirm nak kawen kalau takde aral melintang. Tapi still, selagi tak kawen mane bleh bekepit n duk pegang2 sane sini. And I hate when others brand people like me as the ‘second hands’. What the ****? What do you know about second hand? Tolong la. Semua orang buat salah, buat dosa. Habis tu, kalau macam tu ape gunenye taubat kalau first hand n second hand berbeza? I just don’t get it. Please, get a life people. H@fiz [I used to use M@x konon2 nak elak die trace blog aku. takde beza pun Huhu..] had taught me a lot about life ok and I don’t regret even a bit being with him. It’s just that I’m learning in different ways, different pace. And stop being judgmental. You cannot expect other people to have the same frame of minds as you do. People think differently and although they might be wrong at one point or another, it’s their own way of learning. And their own way of repenting.

I’ve always thought that this topic is wasting my time and not worth thinking about but sooner or later I’m going to face marriage anyhow. Tu pon kalau kawen la. Hah hah.. insyaAllah, ameen. But that doesn’t mean that all these ‘love’ ‘relationships’ ‘engagement’ or ‘marriage’ things can be taken slightly. They are serious matters and it’s not gonna be easy once you’ve gotten the responsible as a wife, a husband, a mother or a father. I’ve seen so many cases that people are not happy with their families. And I’ve witnessed as well, those who had problems in the first place ended up living happily in the end. Tu semua Allah dah tentukan, betul tak? Yang penting, all we need to do is keep on praying hard and mudah2an Allah permudahkan urusan kita supaya dapat family yang baik2, yang soleh n solehah.

Oh ade lagi satu cerita kelakar, hari tu duk belek2 The Star ngan Ijun n B@d, tibe2 ade satu iklan gambar, "Ingin mencari janda umur 30an. Tiada anak takpe, ada sorang anak pun takpe. Tak kisah lawa ke tak, yang penting baik hati. Yang benar, encik Yus0f. Boleh hubungi di talian 01&@#%^*!$". Tegelak besar kitorang. Ade jugak orang desperate mcm tu kan. Kesian pakcik tu. Nak offer diri sniri, tak qualified plak, pakcik tu nak janda. Huhu.. dah2, merepek plak.

Jadi kesimpulannya, tak payah la sibuk2 nak carik cinta manusia yg selalu mengecewakan ni. Kejarlah cinta Allah yang Hakiki. Tapi jangan la pulak sampai tak kawen sebab berkahwin tu adalah sebehagian daripada penyempurnaan agama. Mmg Allah dah ciptakan manusia supaya ada perasaan sayang n cinta. And Allah dah berfirman dalam surah An-Naba', "Dan aku ciptakan manusia berpasangan." Aku ada terbaca kat mana ntah, berpasangan ni bukannya maksudnya lelaki n perempuan je. Kecik n besar, pendek n tinggi, gemuk n kurus tu berpasangan jugak. Betul tak? Ok, dah penat dah, nak tido. Esok kene pulun maths plak. Berusaha!~