I feel like writing..

..albeit I know I am bad at it.

I have been trying to call Afar for several times and all I got was just the voice of the operator of the voicemail. And he does not give me any message or any missedcall so I just hope he's doing ok.

Anyways, I was browsing around Friendster and I suddenly realized that 'max' has deleted his account. That is rather disgruntled though. I'm not sure whether he calls me to his mind but what I do sure is, he will always be there, in the void. Just not very certain for how long. Hopefully not very long! Heh.. And I hope, just HOPE that someone will run after me and say "Eyh Dina, Max conveys his regards to you. And he said thanx for everything" "Oh really? He remembers me? And he thanked me? That's odd. Well, yea, say thanks to him for me. How is he doing?" "He's doing fine. He's moving to Sarawak soon", grinning and leave me perplexed! Heh.. Ok ok, cukup la tu Dina. Enough crap.

So I went to Putrajaya with Faiz yesterday. He wanted to complete his work or project or whatever somewhere in Putrajaya and I was on my way to fetch my friend up so Faiz asked me for a lift. We chatted a lot, catching up each other on recent stuff. I did not know he's in a relationship with somebody I know! Haha.. That's a nice thing to know. I just love the fact that he and 'that somebody I know' are in a relationship. They match each other very well! Hehe.. Well, we were quite close back then, I often told him everything about my problems in school (primary school to be exact) and he was just the right place to go for advice. And then he moved to Kajang and I had to go to Langkawi and since then, we seldom contacted each other. But yea, we still keep in touch until now.

I don't know why but I seem to appreciate friendship very much. I just want all my friends to be happy. Even the ones that I rarely spoke to and the ones who basically know nothing about me, they deserve something cherishable. Remember the guy that I blogged about, the one who played drum in his band, Something-Puppet (heh.. pardon me, I can't recall the band's name). I swear I can't say a thing about him but all I do know is, his birthday is approcahing real soon. So I plan to do something about it, just hope it will give him delightness and notify him that somebody out there still remember his birthday. Heh.. I know, he might not remember which one Dina is but that doesn't matter.

Err.. I think I better go now. Nazme needs to have his lunch by now so got to prepare it before he sleeps. Heh.. Have a nice day!

Oh by the way..

..some of you must have noticed the medical humour fitted in the sidebar. Of course, it is just a mere joke and is definitely not a home made script. It might be unseemly and inapplicable to some people so please try to appreciate your true insight by perceiving it in the right way. Heh.. Sorry for the inconvenience! Cheers!~

Dithering over.. assigments or 'distractions'? Heh..

I was unble to push myself towards getting my shitloads assignments done before the sem break ends for the past one whole week. For the first week, yes, I might forgive myself. But I don't think the excuses are acceptable after the second week approaches and the books are still untouched. This is what I hate the most. And the problem is, I couldn't avoid myself from involving with all those distractions which keep calling me not just in every minute but second! See, what a miserable excuse.

Went to KRU just now. Did not expect such crowd. But I still managed to do 25laps though. I was about to realise that the public pool was taken up by only the adults, no kids at all as I walked through to the women's pool. That would not have occured in decade ago when I had my swimming lesson with Abg Man and Abg Di. Ironically, we who were about 8years old kids at that time were not allowed to swim in the kids' pool but in the public pool instead. So that we knew how to adapt and could get used to such condition. But I couldn't see that today. How time flies and changes everything.

Went to Alamanda yesterday, after dropping by at Angah Aya's in Puchong. Salma is doing ok. Dad said she has grown a bit, in a sense that she's getting longer. Heh.. How is that eh? I wonder if there's any difference in her growth but I could see that her size is just the same! Maybe I need to have a successive kids then I would know how to differentiate between a new born baby and a one-month baby. Huhu.. And that would be in eight to ten years from now. Well, I suppose so! Heh..

Nothing much has happened recently hence ceases me to update the blog. I've been musing to call a halt to this poor-writing blog. At least, five attempts to do so are enough to explain. Or perhaps more. I just suck at writing, very much. I'm not even a writer at heart so, this is just not the right thing for me to do. But then, blogging is just the only channel that connects me with the other bloggers who are responsible for making me addicted. Heh.. So by that means, I'm not really intending to keep this blog for any longer but just for the sake of releasing the tense of which supposed to work that way though. So, just let it takes a few months more and see if it will last for at least a year and that is enough. Or perhaps some revival might take place, that would be a good thing. Heh.. Just hope so.

I don't see any purpose for this entry (yea, as I always say. Heh..) so, better stop now. My biology assignments have been calling me since last week, it is just me who keep ignoring the calling. Heh.. So till then. Gudnite!

.s.p.e.c.i.a.l.

It dropped from THEIR eyes
so beautifully straight
with a lovely smile
it made my day.

That DIAMOND tear
so special to me
I’ll treasure that forever
something I will cherish for eternity.

As it's from the ones
that brought me here
made me who I am
My beloved DIAMONDERS.

Gem, the only person who calls me Nurdina! So long, pal!

An old adage goes, "Setiap pertemuan, pasti akan ada perpisahan" and you can't imagine how true it is until you confront it yourself. And by that moment, you can't do or change anything but just pray for the best for your beloved ones.

Another day has passed by.. and that day has ended with the most beautiful thing you can ever imagine of. Maybe it does not illustrate the true meaning of friendship, but sending off one of your best pals to a place that you won't get by in a blink of eyes (unless you befriended with Doraemon or such. Heh.. Ok ok, be serious..), you will definitely feel the lost. And yea, now I'm starting to miss Gem. T_T *weeps*

I'm not sure if we both have ever gone through something meanigful all this while, but being a friend of Gem is something that one would never be remorsed for. Yet, it would be something to be engraved in mind. Perhaps forever.

I've known him during my school years back then in Langkawi. We were not that close (as ever being myself, I'm a shy person. Really.. Heh..) until a year passed by and I was chosen to be his Maths tutor, working hard on it together with another few guys. Or shall I list down the names? Ok, no need.

Somehow, I had always dreaded for Maths tutorial. You know why? Because the guys never looked for me and asked for anything but I had to chase for them instead and gave all the question papers and mark schemes! And took care for all those four guys??! (Yea, Gem was included. Heh..) I mean, what was up with that?? That was absolute ridiculous. And it should not work that way. But yea, trying to be a responsible tutor (ehem..), I really wanted to see them ace not just particularly for Maths but all of it. That was when Gem and I become a tad close. At the end of the day, they succeed and got more than they expected. And of course, they got the best for Maths and deep down inside, I really felt happy for them. Albeit my part was just like 5% (just like Aiman said. Uh, I know I know..), I was happy to see them happy.

And as time flew hastily, we become closer. 'Closer' here does not mean we share every single thing but in terms of getting to know each other. You know, since we were on a very very long holiday (7 months perhaps? Uh, that was the longest holiday ever! But yea, I'm missing every bits and pieces of it T_T *weeps*), we often chatted over MSN, met at the KRU when he went "Dina, aku nampak kete BM ko!" or I went "Gem, aku curik WKR 72", got picked up by a new S-Class when I asked him, "Gem, naik bukit!! Aku malas nak turun!" and he went "Belen hang! Aku tak geti naik bukit!" and so on and so forth. I know, they were not as sweet as cherries but they somehow have something that got locked me by.

As of one day, when I knew that he got the same interest as anid (talking about business), I told anid about Gem. And she replied "Dina, ko slalu dpt kawan mcm tu! Mane aci!" and they started to talk about business eversince. Yes, anid and Gem become friends. Can you believe that?? And he kept addressing me as 'akak anid'! Saba je laa.. We often talk about business books that we read. RDPD to be exact.

He once told me that he does not have a best friend. Because he simply appreciates and treats everyone equally. And that is so true. He never be 'pilih kasih' or being a chauvinistic plague or something. He really deserves more than what he gets. The day I knew that he'll be going to Holland to further his studies in International Business and Management Studies (IBMS), I always knew that Gem will someday be a successful businessman as he always wished for. And when he has built up an enormous empire, that would be the day when I be the proudest person ever. Because I know, “Whenever you see a successful business, someone once made a courageous decision” –Peter Drucker.

All the best, Gem! We're gonna miss ya!

This is sooo not right!

Ahah..you know what. I really admitly truly did not intend to use this combination of colours for this blog. Yes, it looks nice. But noooo..! This is the official colour of Topaz house!! Urgghh..I'm sure will change it to purple, oh yes I will. And it will definitely look nicer =) huhu.. Ok, I'm signing off. Have been sitting in front of the computer since morning just to make a slight change for this blog and it winded up to be like this. Pathetic.

I don't think this will need a title

I know I have not updated this blog for a week or so. Busy. Busy. Bz.. Yep, busy. Have I said busy?

Well, I'm not really in the mood. Just rambling rubbish just for the sake of updating. Not that I don't have things to blog about. Uh, tonnes that is! But yea, need to search for a good mood then I can make everything looks beautiful.

For the time being, let me just say this:

• CP has finally over! Yay!! Albeit the seniors (and teachers as well) did not seem to accept it as successful as it SHOULD be but we had fun! A real fun! As one of the backdrops committee (I'm suck at 'acting'. You should know that. Heh..), working together with others was something to be engraved in mind. Sam did a very good job. You know what, maybe because I have never worked together with guy friends who are very committed in work (my male batchmates in Langkawi could not be depended on, seriously..) so it was my pleasure to give my full effort (sacrifising my sleep hour that is!) and gave the best for the CP. Unfortunately, I did not bring my camera along so, what a waste or else you guys would have got the chance to appreciate my artistic hand-touch. Ahah..
• Assignments for the sem break seem like impossible to be finished off. Hyperbole eh? Heh.. They really do. Since I've been wasting time in these three days, doing nothing apart from browsing around the net, it just cannot be helped. Ok, it can be helped but needs such an enormous force to work it out. Heh.. Anybody volunteer for that job?
• Angah Aya and Abg Azam just moved out yesterday. Oh actually, there was an aqiqah last Sunday. Since I were not around during Nazme's aqiqah, so it was good to see people cutting off Salma's hair while she was happily sleeping and dreaming. Heh.. Babies. They know nothing but sleeping. Sigh. What can I do.
  
• What else? Hurmm..

I think that is all. Got to take my shower, and then ride along with Dad to KL. Need to buy something at MV. Till then..

i'm wasting my time..seriously..SCARY!

I know I’m not supposed to blog at this minute. Why, you ask? Because…

Things that I supposed to finish up by this week and/or before the semester break:
- stats assignment
- revise biology for the test
- read on biochemistry
- read on the ionization energy
- do a research on euthanasia for tutor debate (pulun gile tutor buat debate. Homeroom dulu manede debate2. makan2 je banyak. Huhu..)
- wind the PBL thingy up. Thanks to Kai Lin for drafting the idea.

I don’t think I need to list them down else it will definitely bore the ass of you guys. Mind you, that’s just the academic part. That’s not included with the TONNES of activities just yet.

The most approaching event that is coming up real soon is the Cultural Performance which we still have less than 2 weeks from now and things just don’t really on track. I don’t know how the progress is going on but for the backdrops department, I have not seen any significant sign of it yet so, tak tahula diorang tu. I will certainly need to sacrifice my time at the end of the day *isk isk* but I don’t mind though. That is what a team work means anyway.

Mr. Small splendidly launched the closing ceremony of the IAW last Monday. Diamond house was awarded ‘The Most Enthusiastic House’ even though we did not win most of the competitions but we did very great in all the events. The first place for male nasyid and video-making competition goes to Sapphire which I found very touching and emotive especially the part in the video when Fahmi (my former classmate at maahad) passed away because of lung cancer. And then we had the soul-searching session with Mr. Zaidi where a boy was writing a letter to his defunct mother with a very touching song drifting at the background. I wept. The other wept too because it was very dismal. And yea, I missed mum =(

Anyways, the A/AS-level 2005 results had been released yesterday. Husniyah’s sister (which means my super-senior) obtained straight A’s for her A-level. That was excellent. I don’t know the exact results as it had not been announced by the Examination Department but all in all, the super-seniors have achieved very well. And for my current seniors whom have just received their AS-Level results, some were good and some not that good. Even the student whom the teachers predicted to get A in some subjects did not get as what expected. Well, things like that always happen. But as long as we have done our best, tawakkal is the only choice. So if the result is not as good as we aim, just remember that that is the best for us and something better is waiting ahead.

The atmosphere around is getting hazier from day to day. I don’t know if the wind affects the condition but today it’s getting worse. The sun does not even look yellow but orange instead! We’re supposed to have a basketball tournament tomorrow so Shat and I were like very semangat to have training today but since the air condition for the time being is very bad, the tournament would be postponed sometime later. You won’t miss everybody keeping their noses just to avoid lungs from being polluted. However, I just hope that the Green Thumbs will cancel the weekly meeting this Thursday so that I can have more time for my nap =P

Anyways, just like Mirul said, a mere word-blogging is boring so, here I got some ‘pictures’ illuminating this forlorn blog. After there is no interesting thing to lay your eyes on for so long, let us just appreciate what Azuan has done. I know they do not have any significant meanings but……..duh! Can’t find any suitable word! Just enjoy yourself!

Dreaming in fantasy #1

“Is that bad?” Diane asked lightly. The gypsy fortune-teller did not answer. Diane watched as the old woman turned up the next card. She shook her head. Her voice was eerily hollow. “The Death card.”

Diane got to her feet. “I don’t believe in any of this!” She said angrily. The old woman looked up, and when she spoke, her voice was macabre. “It does not matter what you believe. Death is all around you..

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The wedding took place one month later. The ceremony was warm and wonderful, with friends and family congratulating the newlyweds. Diane looked over at Richard’s beaming face and thought of the fortune teller’s ridiculous prediction and smiled.

They had planned to leave for a honeymoon in France the week after the wedding but Richard had called her from work, “A new project has just come up and I can’t get away. Is it all right if we do it in a few months? Sorry, baby.”

She said, “Of course it’s all right.”

“Do you want to come out and have lunch with me today?”

“I’d love that!”

“You like French food. I know a great French restaurant. I’ll pick you up in half an hour.”

Thirty minutes later, Richard was outside, waiting for Diane. “Hi, honey. I have to see one of our clients off at the airport. He’s leaving for Europe. We’ll say goodbye and then go on to lunch.” She hugged him. “Fine.”

When they arrived at the airport, Richard said “He has a private plane. We’ll meet him on the tarmac.”

A guard passed them through to a restricted area, where a Challenger was parked. Richard looked around. “He’s not here yet. Let’s wait in the plane.”

They walked up the steps and entered the luxurious aircraft. The engines were running. The flight attendant walked in from the cockpit. “Good morning.”

“Good morning,” Richard said. Diane smiled, “Good morning.”

They watched the flight attendant close the cabin door. Diane looked at Richard. “How late do you think your client is going to be?”. “He shouldn’t be very long.”

The roar of the jets started getting louder. The plane began to taxi. Diane looked out the window, and her face paled. “Richard, we’re moving!”

Richard looked at Diane in surprise. “Are you sure?”.

“Look out the window. Tell—tell the pilot!”. She was panicking.

“What do you want me to tell him?”

“To stop!!”

“I can’t! He has already started.”

There was a moment of silence and Diane looked at Richard, her eyes wide. “Where are we going?”

“Oh, didn’t I tell you? We’re going to Paris. You said you like French food.”

She gasped. Then her expression changed. “Richard, I can’t go to Paris now! I have no clothes. I have no makeup. I have no—“

Richard said, “I heard they have stores in Paris.” She looked at him a moment, then flung her arms around him. “Oh, you fool, you. I love you.”

He grinned, “You wanted a honeymoon. You’ve got it.” She smiled.

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The detective walked into the apartment. She was looking at him, frowning. “What is it? Is something wrong?”

The words would not seem to come. “Yes, I’m sorry. I—I’m afraid I have some bad news. It’s about your husband.”

Taken from 'Are you afraid of the dark?' by Sidney Sheldon.

Time flies..

One week has passed by and I do not seem to have mellowed with the passing of time that happens lickety-split. Everything is indeed 'invisible' as time passes as rapidly as it can. Remember MobileMom that I blogged about several months ago? She has just undergone her operation days ago in Sydney and alhamdulillah she is now doing stabily alright. The moment I read the entry posted by the 'Male Nurse' I was a tad surprised. I just cannot imagine (don't even dare to think about it) how things around me go off as I am here, busying with my own stuff. I often bother about this kind of unnecessary things whereas I should have thought of else thing good but I just can't. Another week has been killed and that means it has been almost 4 weeks I started my 'new' life and that is not a good sign really. Now I'm starting to worry about my studies *sigh*..

Since I stepped my two feet on this so-called verdant outland, I always heard people around me talking about confronting two dreadful years in kyuem as it will definitely be tough. "Ni baru first sem korang. Kalau ni pun korang tak boleh cope, bayangkan laa 2nd and 3rd sem korang macam mana. Lagi teruk.." ......Speechless? Well not really. I have already thought about this thing. I even have prepared myself for this kind of 'advice' but what choice do I have? I am indeed knackered; sleeping at 2am every night (yea yea, I've been talking about this repeatedly) and classes are waiting the next day (imagine..just imagine how my two eyes will react if the surrounding is darn cold due to the breeze of air from the aircond with an unacceptable low temperature). And during class the next day, teacher will say "Don't push yourself overboard your own limit. You need to manage time as best as you can." and yada yada yada. Ok, that is fine. Accepted. But then, what attempt should I take when my two eyes (again) lay upon notices of "your attendance is compulsory" with a huge exclamation mark at the end of the words??????!! Dah laa..malas nak complain. Redha je laa kan..

Anyways, as I have mentioned before, the IAW was launched by the headmaster, Mr. Small last Monday. The slogan for this IAW is 'Akhlak (morality) is the flower of life'. Many competitions have been conducted through out the week and the one that is the most awaited competition is the Nasyid Competition. The female nasyid comp. was held last Thursday and I'm very very glad that it has already ended. After putting so much effort on it, we performed splendidly albeit we did not go for the first place. Believe me, we were great and superb but Sapphire somehow was very lucky to be leading us with 4 points! However, we managed to top off Garnet and Topaz though. Heh..

And talking about the male nasyid competition, it was as great as well the female's even their performances were more outstanding. The coolest performance must definitely be from Diamond (ehem ehem..house bias? who cares. Hah..Pejai pun ade, lawak gile..) but still, I can't deny that Topazians did better. Bro Husni (that's the name if I'm not mistaken) siap nangis lagi. Terharu betul.. And credit goes to Adam AF for the amazing performance of Topazians!!! Hahah..Nah, not the real Adam AF but since the guy's name is Adam and he's quite good-looking (no no, it's not my words, I swear. That's from the other's point of views. Heh..) and his voice is kinda boleh-tahan-and-sedap-jugak-laa so you know what I mean

Eh, have I told you that Lupi knows Adam? Lupi asked me the other day if there is anyone from STAR and I said Adam Effendy and Lupi went "Adam? Budak tu pun ade..?". I was like "Err..salah ke die ade?" and Lupi did nothing but chuckled. That's the irritating part, not knowing the meaning of the chuckles but yea, who cares, Adam tu takde laa hot stuff sangat. Huhu.. AND....jeng jeng jeng *drumrollzz* Lupi also knows Akmal! Or he also known as Batu (I still don't understand why people call him Batu but honestly, I don't like the name!). Well, akmal was one of the SC's who conducted our induction week the other day and the moment I first saw him I was like "God, his face is soooooooooooo familiar. Have I seen him before??" but keeping it to myself, the mystery was not being solved until I showed Lupi the picture of him during the induction week the other day and hoping that Lupi recognised him and Lupi eventually said "Oh, akmal kat kyuem ke?" and I was like "Lupi kenal dia jugak???" and guess what Lupi said? "Laa, dia duduk depan rumah kita ni je!". Ceh, patut che cam kenai jaa muka ang,akmal! Mystery solved! Heh..

Anyways, yesterday, my tutorial was at the cafeteria. When Mrs. B said last week that we were going to have our next session at the cafe, we were like "Best nye!!!". But sadly, everything did not turn out just like we expected. The image of 'nasi goreng ayam' or 'nasi pataya' turned into buah rambutan and pisang. The image of teh-o ais and sirap bandung that we had in mind had turned into watermelon and papaya juice. That’s the problem, Mrs. B is a kind of person who really concerns about food so we shall expect more fruits and vegetables (..kot?..) later on. Oh, we actually gathered at the café to celebrate Azim’s birthday the day before whereby we actually expected a happening celebration with cakes and snacks and whatnots tapi….apekan daya. Heh..

Anyway, KMB students will be coming by KYUEM tomorrow for several friendly matches; basketball, netball, badminton, table tennis and so forth. And I'm heading to the MPH for cheering!! Haha sronok betul..Go go guys!!! And talking about the tournaments, DIAMOND has won every inter-house matches against Sapphire for both volleyball and basketball tournament, be it for guys or girls. DIAMOND hebat!!! So, the girls diamond will be going against Topaz this Wednesday for basketball and just hope that we will play our best.

Anyways, just now I went to Tanjung Malim. Ah wait..I'm not going back home for this weekend so you shall not expect me sleeping (or more politely taking a nap) through out the evening even though I was darn exhausted but at least, I gained some idea of not going to Tanjung Malim after this but balik rumah instead. Heh..Mesti laa balik rumah lagi best! And.....Pekan Kuah lagi best =( *missing Langkawi and pekan kuah and sun suria and penarak and jeti and simply everything in Langkawi!! sob sob..* Imagine how irritating it was when I was looking for BCB to draw some money but in vain. And then I asked a kakak and she said 'kat belakang tu' and I went to that 'belakang tu' and still lost. I asked a pakcik and he said 'adik ambik jalan ni lepastu ada BCB kat belakang tu' and I did go and still...could not see any sign of BCB!!! Mind you, the sun was scorching like hell and my shirts were soaked up with sweat (cece..hiperbola laa pulak kan) and the scene was definitely not pleasant (not like Langkawi laa..mana ada pantai and kapal2 macam kat pekan kuah tu). And lagi menyakitkan hati when I asked another pakcik and he said "Laaa..tu BCB kat belakang awak tu!". Dush!!!! Shoot me shoot me!!! Saba je laa. Enough said about Tanjung Malim, nothing interesting. Perhaps I'll blog about 'Ten good things about T.Malim' when they build up more interesting dwellings with interesting things to buy.

Ok, moving towards family matter, alhamdulillah Angah Aya has just delivered a baby girl the other day. Can't remember whether it's 2nd or 3rd of August but definitely not July 27! (Note to myself: Dear Dina, PLEASE mark a huge 'X' at every date of July27 at every calendar of yours and throw that particular date away as far as you can then you will have a peaceful life..). And errr...NOOOOO! I forgot her name!! Ya Allah, saba je laa aku ni.. Mum asked me the other day if I want to go back this weekend but since the kenduri at Gem's is next week and I don't want to burden Dad to come and fetch me up so I said I'm not going home this weekend. But then..can't wait to see my first niece!!! *sigh..* takpe laa, just one week to go and it won't be that long.

Hurmm..I don't know if anyone of you knows about Abg Din. Well, I've known him like 4 or 5 years ago in IRC during my 'zaman kegemilangan bermain e-kuiz' and we were quite close back then. But things did not go as what we thought so we had lost contacted ever since. And just now, with the power of HIM, I someway got to know that Abg Din just got his first child sometime ago and I did see his son's face. Sangat comel and hensem mcm bapak die!!! Hahahaha.. Well, frankly speaking, I often talked to myself that I really want to witness Abg Din's happiness, one sweet day, I will. And that sweet day is today =) I'm happy for him and I can just hope and pray that happiness will always on his side, forever and ever. I do miss him actually but knowing that he is now having a wonderful life with his new family, nothing could fill my heart up but delightness and gratefulness for him. May God bless him throughout the years, insyaAllah..

Ok guys, have a nice Sunday and I will come up with hot news later. Have fun!

[Note to abghensem: Sorry for the long post. Brace yourself for more long posts after this. Heheh..Thanx for dropping by anyway..]