The Luck of The Draw

Ouch! I can feel the butterflies flying around my tummy!!! The personal statement has not yet completed (two paragraphs to go but it's like completing 500words essay or wut?) and my form is not filled and my that, my this..everything seems undone. And my interview is tomorrow morning. So, how? I'll try not to bable unnecessarily though but the thing is, I dont even have reasons to ramble about!

Nevermind. Just let it speaks on its way. Wish me luck!~

Ooow by the way, I have winded up the Digital Fortress. Fantastic plot indeed! Two thumbs up to Dan Brown! =)

Something for today

Present from Abg Amir. M&S bag. Cumel cumel.. Love it!

Now, here how the bunga pohor looks. Yes, it does look nice but what a knackered job it takes to finish this up! My hand touch is always presents pleasantness ^ ^ Dah serik dah. Lupi punye die buat sniri. Huhu..

Anyway, two-days occasion was finally over. Alhamdulillah everything worked out perfectly and went off as planned. May God bless both Abg Amir n Kak Sue through all the years.

Unexpected..

A message woke me up this morning. The handphone just fashionably laid beside my ear and the 'bip bip' sound with volume 4 penetrated my brain like hell. 'Al-Ghamidie' caught my eyes. "Hmm..must be Din" some voices wafted through the back of my head. I think Din is planning to come to the wedding and he said he'll be the 'tourist guide' if we're going to rumah cikgu azwani that evening.

And suddenly, wan's msg caught my attention. "Wan? and the msg HAS BEEN read? and he sent the msg at 5.46am? How come I didnt notice that msg??". At right that second, I knew..Mesti anid yg bace. Somehow..somehow..somehow I didnt read that message on the spot. I dunno why. I slipped off the bed, took my bath, had my breakfast, and then I read the message. And Wan had really freaked me out! He needed my help and of course I would help him in any way posibble.

So, I promptly put my shirts on and drove off to UKM to post the wedding invitation cards to Iman and Thirah and then I headed straight to Maybank. Nasib baek tak susah mane nak masukkan duit tu. Haih..wan wan..

And at 1230, fetched anid up at school just like usual and in the evening, went to Banting ambik Lupi plak. Hmm..That's my work, being an unofficial driver with no payment. Heh..

Anyway, Husniyah called me up just now and asked about the personal statement for the interview and that buzz really put me into a mess. The form is hell out of my sight and I havent planned what to write for the personal statement and my certificates and all those stuff are somewhere undetectably in library and..and....byk lagi x buat!! Dugaan dugaan.. "Alaaa..relex laa.MARA kcg grg je.Bebel2 sket, sengih2 sket,dpt laa"-Im. Hmm..hope so

Eh kejap kejap..my blogpatrol showed something odd just now. The number of my visitors for today doesnt look usual. I reckon there must be 'unexpected' visitors who perhaps have been reading my blog eversince without my knowledge. They dont even leave a 'footprint' and that makes them even more 'invisible'. Of course I dont mind..at all! but I wonder who are those people. Hafiz?? (how I wish he does....) abg din? Takkan Mum ngan Dad bace kot? Heh..Well, at least they know I'm stating their name here. Huhu..ok whatever..

Ok, need to help out people down there. Bug later!

Whodahell?

Went to 'Sayang You' yesterday to buy few things for the rosette and I accidentally happened upon this young lady whom surprisingly recognised me when she went like "Dina! Is that really you? Hey, lamanye tak jumpa!!! Tak sangka jumpa kat sini!!!" and I was like "Excuse me? Do I know you??"..

And that woman was cradling a cute little girl which I reckoned to be her kid?? I dunno but she seemed really really unfamiliar which I dont think I have ever met her before. But the way she yelled my name out, somehow forced me to take a minute or so to recall anything I could about that woman. But zilch, sumpah tak kenal..

And my i-swear-i-really-dont-know-any-human-being-with-such-ur-face looks made her a little bit confused and finally she said "Eh, awak Saradina kan?" (or perhaps it spelled Sarah Dina or whatever..or maybe Sardine?Haha..Klaka) "No no. Salah org kot kak" and I didnt plan to waste my time with a stranger and strike up a word or two so I left her with a little bit messed up. Heh..That was awkward though and I was wondering, does 'Saradina' have a same looks as mine? Hmm..What a coincidence..

Anyway, finally MARA called me for the interview this 28th. So, my mind currently goes round and round still looking for space to relax and have a sip of coffee and sit back and gain some ideas on what to write for the personal statement that is required for the interview whereas, still got few things undone for Abg Amir's wedding, soon. Rumah besepah plak tu. Haih, pening pale lagi.

Urgh..somebody's calling me down there. So, will write more soon. Chiow!~

I'm Done~

Ok, now I'm not sure what happens here. The background suddenly disappeared and everything turned out white. Hmm..ok, I'm not gonna waste my time for all these stinks. So, the lesson of the day is, always be thankful for whatever background that is fixed to my blog. *sighhh* I'm pretty much done...

It's a new day, a new plan and a new book (have had the book completely read. It was extremely good! Will move on to the Digital Fortress a.s.a.p!). Anyway, Abg Amir will be home tomorrow. Looking forward to meeting him up and let's see what has he brought home ;) *winks*

Wake Up!

Ok, now I know how to change my background image. Weehoo! This is the best image I could find, though, for this period of time. Dont have that much time to look for all these craps. Mum dgn Dad asyik bising je..Huhu..

Abg Amir will be home soon. Cant wait to see him, so that I can claim any stuffs that he brings from Norwich. Hehe.. Will there be any anyway? Dont care and dont mind.

Anyways, his bunga pohor is finally done!!! Uish, tak larat ah. I definitely will not volunteer myself to do such thing again, especially for Lupi's, later on.

So, nothing much to be written here. Now, I'm started to get worried about my scholarship. Have not got any feedback from MARA yet and those who got called from JPA will have their interview soon! I just need to search for information for the interview, you know, get myself prepared. But at the same time, I need to bother myself about benda-benda remeh for this coming wedding occasion. Pening pale!!

And another thing that I'm worried about is my finishing up my resume and sorting out all the certificates and other things required for the interview. Lupi will be having his final exams this May, two days after the wedding and just for the addition note, he probably will be flying to Ireland this August. So, hopefully he'll pass the exams with flying colours and achieve his ambition to be Dr. Lutfi.

Err..I dont think I'm pointing out a message here. Just for the sake of updating. So, will catch you guys up soon!

Life must go on..

Two days in a row, I slept at 5 in the morning, spending too much time on my blog (I kept trying so hard to change the background layout but in vain. I couldnt find the right one..Huh penat! But I did change the header background. Ok, tak penting pon..), surfing the net, trying to search for any information for my interview (at least MARA will call me for the interview right?) and reading people's blog is as well an interesting thing to do.

So, as the result, I woke up at noon and I found myself dizzying around and laziness would definitely kick in! And for the addition note, Along Ima is having an entrepreneurship course for this one whole week so, I have to take care of Nazme all by myself and mind you, it's absolute exhausting!! Argghh..

But..Life must go on..

Recently, I got rejected by Petronas from attending the Educamp Programme in Teronoh which until now, I still dont understand how they did the selection and why they rejected most applicants who applied for medicine. Ok, I know, perhaps priority is given to under-staff-applicants but hey, they have not evaluated my interview! At least I can do my best during the interview and that is much much satisfying than get rejected without any good reasons. Ah well, I may sound desperate to get the scholar but not anymore. It's ok, I'll wait for MARA then.

Oh, and for the matriculation, I got a place in PASUM but still have not decided whether to go or not because MARA programme for IB will probably get started by June. So, waiting is the least thing I could do, anyhow. And 'penantian itu adalah satu penyeksaan'? Is it true? Well, I have not reached the suffering stage yet, though. I dont think waiting is gonna be that bad. Heh..

Yep, life must go on..

So, it's almost four months and doing nothing at home is totally sickening. Apart from finishing up those bunga pohor (Serious penat!! It is sooo meticulous) for Abg Amir's wedding this May, babysitting Nazme, watching tv and bla bla, the best thing I can do is putting myself in other's life for instance, reading blogs and novels. And they are just the most appealing stuff to get myself busied with.

For now, I'm trying to wind up all the Dan Brown's books and currently Im reading the Da Vinci Code which I found reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaallly cool and absorbing. The plot is just well done and excellent. It is normal to predict or foretell what the next scene would be but practically, my prediction would go wrong and that is the best part because everything is unexpected and you'll find yourself saying "oh my godd!" and "oh noo!" and bla bla. It's good fun! Just grab one and get glued to it and you'll know what I'm crapping about.

And what I like about reading this book is, my brain keeps working out all those coding explanation and stuff. It's truly fascinating. But one thing I quite dont like when I got gripped to this kinda book is I will not put it down and leave everything aside and Mum and Dad will definitely say "pegi laa siapkan itu..siapkan ini.." Hmm..

What to do? Life must go on..

So, I just got to know my new friend whom accidentally added me in msn and we have chatted for several times. And attention people! He's the drummer of one of the blast off band which fortunately got the first runner up (Perhaps those who keep up with that thingy recognise the Media Puppets band. Yep, he's the drummer. Ah wait, do I have to promote the band here?? Haa?? *confused*) and they will perform at KLCC this 24th which coincidentally on the same day as Abg Amir's wedding.

So, if anyone free and would like to waste your time there, just feel free to come. And be a green ogre! Haha..I mean, where green outfit and you'll be one of their fans and dont forget to yell out 'MP's suck!' (I hate the singer! I think he's suffering from hysteria or whatever.Haha..) Ooops, I mean, 'MP's cool!'. Ok, I know it's crap. Just promoting though. I actually hate those bands in blast off. They think they're cool or what? They are just soooo not coooll! They look like sleazy dandies acting on the stage and trying to be, what, backstreet boys wannabe?

But this guy I know, he's ok and fine. Really amusing and fun to chat with. I enjoy chatting with him though and he has quite a good sense of humour, too.

Ok, it doesnt end here. Life must go on..

And just now, I learnt some French words from Aimran. Haha..It's fun to learn such language where you need to know the gender of the words then you will know the purpose of the words. Like 'le' and 'la', they come with different usages. For example, 'la voiture' means 'the car' and 'le stylo' means 'the pen'. In this cause of event, the car is female and the pen is male. See, it's how they work!

And the way you pronounce the words with the letter 'r', you just need to emphasise the 'ghhh' sound. Ok, it might be harder to pronounce it in words but despite that, learning French is really cool. But it does need a class or else you'll be talking to yourself. Heh..Still looking forward to learning more words from Aimran but yea, it's not as simple as I thought. Hmm...

Ok, it's already late and I can't sleep at 5. I need to rest. Tomorrow, Auntie Nailah and Along will have their lunch here so, need to get up early and help Mum out. Haih..Life must go on...

Ok, this is the last quiz

Your Dominant Intelligence is Logical-Mathematical Intelligence

You are great at finding patterns and relationships between things. Always curious about how things work, you love to set up experiments. You need for the world to make sense - and are good at making sense of it. You have a head for numbers and math ... and you can solve almost any logic puzzle. You would make a great scientist, engineer, computer programmer, researcher, accountant, or mathematician.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

How come doctor is not in the list??!! Haih..

Hmm..Not Bad..

How Your Attitude Ranks

Your Attitude is Better than 75% of the Population If you scored... 80-100: You've got a winner attitude. You're always optimistic and cheery. Your personality will get you far in life. 60-79: You have a good attitude. While a realist, you do see the positive side of most things. People love to be around you. 40 - 59: You have a positive attitude... somtimes. You prefer to see the world through clear glasses, not rose colored ones. 20 - 39: You have an average attitude. You take the good and bad in life as they come. Though sometimes you could use a little more good. 0-19: You have a negative attitude. You tend to see the dark side of every situation. Free ice cream? No thanks, it will just make you fat!

How's Your Attitude?

Am I that good? Whoaaa..What a not surprise. Hehe..

Psychic or Psycho?

You Are 50% Psychic

You are pretty psychic. While you aren't Miss Cleo, you've got a little ESP going on. And although you're sometimes off on your predictions... You're more often right than wrong So go with your instincts - you know more than you think

Are You Psychic?

Ok, I'm not psycho! WeehoO!

HoHo!

You Are Somewhat Honest

You do tend to tell the truth a lot But you also stretch the truth on occasion You figure a little lie isn't a big deal As long as it doesn't hurt anyone too much!

How Honest Are You?

Exactly!! There you go, Hafiz. Haha..

Abnormal?

You Are 60% Normal (Really Normal)

Otherwise known as the normal amount of normal You're like most people most of the time But you've got those quirks that make you endearing You're unique, yes... but not frighteningly so!

How Normal Are You?

It's Over..

If you're in love, you must want to be the best for him/her. But sometimes, when you tell a lie for your own good, he/she doesnt make any effort to understand the situation that surrounds you. And sometimes, when you tell a lie for his/her own sake, he/she tries not to comprehend the reason why you do so. And when you tell a lie for the sake of both sides, he/she cannot even accept why you attempt such action. All he/she does is keep blaming and condemning you. And the lesson here is, do not ever be in such relationship. Your partner is the most selfish and self-centred person on the earth!!

So.stop.pretending.and.stop.being.a.fool.

Kewl Blue Scrubs!

Eyh, check this out!!!! I love this blog!

Eat Eat Eat!!

Yesterday was the most happiest birthday celebration ever! Yep, thanx to Wani for every little things she did just to make it happen. Supposed to have a 'gathering' of my former classmates at the Secret Recipe in Mid Valley but as it predicted, only six of us presented. But hey, believe me, it was darn fun! Perhaps more people might be more happening but six of us were enough to make the party went like a bomb.

Yep yep, the cake was heavenly good but..one slice of it was a lot! Seriously, I didnt even finish it off. Huhu.. And the most swanky part was when they sang me the birthday song!! When the abang baju biru light on the candle in the cake with my name written on it, and another abang baju biru suddenly sang out loud "Happy Birthday to you..!", my whole world gradually swamped with people's voices, sang along together. And I got a big applause too! Haih, what a wonderful day... Wani just got her new handphone with a camera and since my blardy camera was not working well, so, Wani sent me these pics.

pakcik blakang tu saje nak mencapub. Haha..

From left is wani, faris, mirul, syira and fiza. Ooow, and those abang baju biru at the back. Hehe..

After that, I met Afar and his other friend, Boy but we didnt have a long chat. Went shopping afterward with anid at Alamanda and guess what.. 400 plus was gone! Hahaha.. Sorry Wani..Baju tu serious lawa so aku beli je. Haha.. Kene bebel dengan afar but 2 pairs of Belle and a pair of Goggles were worth such ammount. So, good thing!

Meeting up with Faris, Mirul and Fiza was a nice moment. Hoping for another gathering after this (my next year birthday?Haha..Mirul blanje..) and wish we still keep in touch for all time..Thanx guys!!

Just Look For Somebody Else

When you think you need somebody beside you, just need to feel the comfort one should hold by, and nobody was there, what do you expect? Sometimes we think that those who are close connected to us are the most suitable people to tell everything to but I may not think so.

I have met thousand of strangers out there and not every people are the same. I have once told this so-called top secret about something really unpleasant (which obviously too vulgar to mention here) to this one particular stranger and he was just the right person to turn to at that period of time. It was like doing something illegal (not literally though) and that pulled you out of the guts to tell the truth to your parents or even your good friends. I poured out everything and told him every single details and at the end of conversation, I just said "Ok, sorry for wasting your time for all these craps and thanx for listening and giving good responds. Babai." Full stop...Wasnt that cool?

What else do you need after letting go all those burdens in your head without have to bother about actions that might be taken by your parents or your friends when you could find a stranger who dont actually give a damn about what you have said. Letting go is all about, after all. Say if you have stolen a story book that you're dying to have one from a bookstore and when you reached home, guiltiness kicked in. What would you do next? Go back to the bookstore and make a confession? Or instead you go straight to the police and say "Go on. Put me in jail"? If there are really that kind of people, believe me, they must have a screw loose.

Well, sometimes, you do need to let out those bad feelings in ur heart no matter to whom. It depends. Some know what they have to respond and some do not. Some know just exactly how you felt but some know inversely. Probably the ones who know you well may end up in your next good friends collection. People just keep coming and going and we cannnot even foretell who will be in the 'collection' in the future. It is just a norm of human kind that we seldom not notice that this cycle of life is actually surrounding us.

Anyway, today, I saw this new 7 series BMW with a very cool number plate 'C3' (must be the royal family) on my way to Banting. And again, my heart skips a beat...OUCH!

Beautiful Things..

They say "Life is just a bowl of cherries". I ponder upon that phrase, trying to ferret out what the exact meaning of it. Is it some kind of humorous adage dedicated to someone who is actually living a pleasant life or is it just an opposite way, one kind to say that life is actually not as sweet as cherries?

Days ago, when nobody noticed where I was, I took my 'flight' to Canada. The journey was not as long as I thought but it was just a blink of an eye. I saw many new things. I learnt more about life. I saw smorgasbord kind of people with varieties attitude. Some were pleasant to eyes, some were irritating. Some knew what they were invented for but some did not know what they were actually seeking for in life.

Living one's life is like being in a movie. We dont know who creates the settings and the scripts but we just went through willingly or unwillingly. We do not even know how the plot is being played, where to stop, where to rewind. We tend to follow the stream and the flow without our knowledge. We, somehow, could not control them. They are all beyond our authority. We do not know how the ending would be; it could be anything. And we will never know what is in the books and what is written.

I used to believe and trust in someone. Everytime he talked about his life and his career in somewhere one could have never thought of, I asked myself, why did he decide to be in such place. He always claimed that nobody would be like him and I agreed because he was one of a kind. He used to believe in himself, too. He sounded very cheerful and happy back then with all blessings from Him but things just went so wrong. Just like I said, we never know what is in the books and what is written.

Perhaps some people still need more times to perceive the truth about life out there. I myself, still vigorously looking for something; something which can enlighten me with things I do not know. The truth is still concealing in its own world. It will not let be seen by helpless people. It will always be under the shadow of falsehood. But. . God will never create us without reasons. It is our job to search for the truth and giving up is not even one of the choices.

'Being' in Crimea has also taught me a lot about life. Indeed, the one's life that I had gone through might be the same as mine, in the future. Perhaps not spot-on but virtually. Sometimes, when we think that the world does not undertsand things that loiter in our head and things in our heart, we seldom forgot that there is still The One who knows exactly everything we could imagine of. It's true, we sometimes need other people to rely on and other shoulder to cry on and when nobody is around, all we could do is just be in sorrow. But, giving up is not one of the choices.

When people ask me who are the people that always get places in my heart, I would definitely say my family. Despite them, friends are what I have in mind. I am thankful for having numerous of friends who have always been there for me whenever I need them and they are just the best people I could find. But 'friend' does not bring the same purpose as 'true friend' does. To me, 'true friend' can be defined the best as the person who knows me better than myself. It's like having a second personality. But just like possessing a diamond, true friend could hardly be found. And I am still looking for one.

Kawan memang senang carik..but friend like you? ( cam kenal ayat ni *hint hint* hehe =b )