The V Day

Mata dah kuyu. Otak dah layu. Badan dah lesu. Pergh..rhyme siot. haha.. Nway, nothing much to say actually. I should have been in bed by now but feel like writing and share something about..well, about something that might not be agreed by modern malays or better still, the so-called modern muslims nowadays who claim to be a muslim on the surface but not in practical. Alang2 dah 14 feb ni, nak share sikit pasal the recent oft-cited event, The V Day.

I got this from a blogsite. Found it quite interesting and thought of sharing with you guys. Think about it brothers and sisters. People may call us conservative people and kolot la or whatever they want to call it but please think, when it comes to hukum Allah, nothing is conventional. Yang hak tetap hak. Siapa kita nak ubah hak dan batil yg dah ditetapkan oleh Allah. Islam tu sendiri dah dihiasi dengan kasih sayang and tak payah nak tunggu V.Day utk tunjuk kasih sayang kita kat orang yg kita sayang. Tu semua strategi orang kafir nak jatuhkan Islam. Kita sebagai seorang muslim, tak sayang ke dengan agama kita sendiri. Kebanyakan drpd kita tahu apa itu dosa, apa itu maksiat tapi cuma tak ada kekuatan nak lawan kehendak diri. Tapi cuba tanya balik kat diri kita sendiri, betul ke kita ni Muslim? Betul ke agama kita Islam? Kalau betul, kenapa kita tak praktikkan diri kita sebagai seorang Muslim?

Bukan nak kata apa la tapi terasa sedih jugak dengan kakak2 abang2 and kawan2 kat kolej ni. Kadang2 kita sendiri yang rasa malu dengan perbuatan diorang tu, diorang tak rase pape pun. Sedih tau..Sangat2 sedih. Ada antara kita2 yg muslim sendiri menjatuhkan maruah agama kita. Bukan nak kata aku ni perfect ke tak buat dosa, bukan. Tapi cuba la fikir, sebanyak mana dosa yg kita dah buat, sejauh mana kita dah terpesong dari jalan yang sebenar, sedikit mana pahala yg kita ada. Kita tak buat apa yang Allah suruh tapi kita nak mintak macam2 dari Allah. Kita nak berjaya, jadik doktor la, study kat UK, bla bla bla. Tak rasa malu ke?

Hmm..ni dah lari dr tajuk asal ni. Haha..Kalau nak ckp pasal ni memang sampai esok tak habis. Tapi esok ade kelas so tak bleh nak ckp byk2. Heh.. Fikir2kan lah, renung2kan lah. Memang la best spend masa dengan bf ke gf ke tapi agak2nye best ke spend the whole life kita dalam neraka Allah? Na'uzubillah.. Kalau betul korang sayang pakwe or makwe korang tu, jagalah hubungan korang tu sebaik mungkin. Special relationship, mestila kita nak jaga. Mesti la kita nak rasa itulah hubungan yang paling istimewa skali. So, janganlah dikotori dengan dosa dan maksiat. Hiasilah hubungan spesel korang tu dengan warna-warna cinta yang diredhai oleh Allah. Uish, sejak bile dina mampu cakap camni ni? Hahahahahahahaha!!! Tapi betul. Gelak, gelak jugak. Poyo, poyo jugak tapi biarlah kepoyoan itu mengajar kita mana yang betul, mana yang salah. Hmm..merepek dah. Lelong dan mabuk dah ni. Heh.. Better sign off.

zZZzZZzzz nak tido! Tata! Nite!

It's the start..not the end

I’ve just come back from Muar just now. Reached Bangi around 8pm and then had our dinner at D’Limau Nipis in Seksyen 8. Oh I think I haven’t mentioned here that Anid got MRSM Ja$in. Being a persuasive person, Anid had finally got to visit her school-to-be after had been nagging Dad since the other day. Although it might be quite letting-down if you want to compare it with Langkawi, Ja$in is not that bad. Dekat dengan Tangkak so boleh la anid selalu balik kantin Pak Man kat Matriks Tangkak. Heh..

Anyways, talking about the SC results, as much as I felt I would not win, the sports exco posts were finally assigned to my other 2 rivals; Zu| and Sno0py. Zu| was my homeroom brother back in Langkawi and I believe he could do his work very well. I wasn’t surprised by the results though. The night before the results was announced, I was dreaming about Nazme. And here I am now, writing this post in my room with Nazme playing around.

The only thing that I felt very glad with the results was the people who got to be in the team as a whole. Most of the people that we had reckoned on to be in the SC members won the election. The moment Hiz@mi announced the five high posts, I could not stop myself but screaming like a nuts and telompat2 at the back of the hall. Haha.. Takde la, I was exaggerating. Hehe.. But deep inside, I was like that ;p

One secret that Zu| had told me during the election day is the only thing that I hope Zu| would come through. I’ve known him for about 4 years and I know which work he can do well and which work he needs people to help him on. Aku la yang nak kene layan kerenah die. Huhu.. But I think it’s time now for him to be more matured and knows how to handle things especially when it comes to this kind of responsibility. All in all, I’m glad he wins and I know I can depend on him after this. Hehe..

One thing that I learned from this is I can’t expect people to know how and what I feel about something. I can’t expect people to have the ability to read other people’s intentions. I mean, I know some of the new SC members just want to be in the team because they want to organize the induction week for the next junior intakes (because they told me so). Some of them just want to be in the team because of the personal statements (they told me this as well). Some of them just want to win the election because they think they should win after putting so much effort on the campaign. Don’t get me wrong. Of course I’m not jealous (not at all!) or want to give bad assumptions on them but the way they begging for votes and the way they desperately expressing themselves to me, I was quite frustrated by that. But after all, I hope after this, after carrying buckleloads of responsibilities on their shoulders they will learn what sincerity means and how important honesty is.

This lately, through out the campaigning week, I was quite disappointed with a person, R. I don’t want to say bad things about R here but I was very very upset and offended by what R did. Just imagine how nervous and edgy I was before my manifesto night and how messed up I was through out the week and R whose support I needed the most at that moment did not even wish me luck and did not even say a word for my manifesto. I know, that is so silly for me to get offended over but I could not help myself from being so sentimental and sensitive especially at that kind of time. Agak la kecewa and pasrah senornyer but ntahlaa..

Every time I saw R in college I tried to smile and pretended like I was living a wonderful life but to tell you the truth, that was the sore part of all, lying to myself. I always say to myself ‘Just don’t hate R. Don’t have to give R some time to realize everything but just let time put you through it’. Sometimes I feel like never wanting to meet R since the very beginning but then I believe that nothing is coincidence. God makes that moment for a reason so, just wait and see what the reason would be.

So, the SC result is what gives me hope to struggle more after this. The phrase ‘I play with a fear of letting people down’ is actually my strength to not letting Mum and Dad down. That’s my biggest hope and dream after all :)

Anyways, the sad news is, Izyan and Aimi have finally gone to Melbourne. I don’t want to write sad post about Izyan’s leaving but I will one day, say, in few months’ time bile dah rindu2 poyo2, tulis la kot. Heh.. The funny part is, Izy called me before she pulled off. The moment my phone actually vibrated without any sound was the moment when I was in the middle of my English class. Kalut laa duk belek2 fon tgk sape call rupenye Izy. Trus mintak permission nak pegi toilet. Naseb baek sempat ckp, kalo tak menangis tak belagu kot. Heh..

And another touching and emotive part is, there is one guy yg minat kat Izy, posted a shoutout at his friendster page ‘I hate goodbyes’. Dulu aku penah minat mamat ni tapi dah tak la. Lawak la pulak bile pikir2 balik. Haha.. tapi agak sedih la lagi2 orang tersayang dah pergi jauh. Hmm… SANGAT SEDIH when the person we love is light years away :’( even tak jauh pun sedih jugak because we have to let them go and hope they will come back. Hmm.. Mengarut!

Anyway, I’ve rearranged my room so it’s now more spacious than it was before. Lagi semangat nak tido than belajar. Haha ;p The most important part is gambar2 kat dinding tu. Hehe.. Pemberi semangat :) so that every day when I wake up, I’ll feel grateful for another beautiful day.

HELP ME!! HELP ME!!

I.AM.SO.DEAD..

I don’t know what has been happening to me since last night. I am so mentally imbalance right now. It’s like I’m feeling so so edgy and cuak gile babeng unpurposely that I can actually feel something evil is eating up my stomach. Cuak yang sampai sakit perut gile!! I don’t know why!!

I slept at 330am and I unconsciously and abruptly woke up at 6 but I don’t feel sleepy. Well, ngantuk la jugak but not that ngantok especially when you only have less than 3 hours sleep. I am still unsure if there’s going to be a biology test today but the killer thing is, I have read nothing about biology yet I’m typing this crap!!! Helllooo Dinaaa!!!! Wake up laa!!!!!

………………………………………………….I don’t know what to say……………….

I’m certainly not worried about the results tomorrow. Well, cuak gak ah but tak kisah pun menang kalah. Tapi rase mcm ade something else yg ‘not good’ will happen. And dina ni susah sikit, die ade magic. My vision usually comes true. Jeng jeng jeng..

Alang2 cite pasal vision ni, ni ade satu cite menarik gak. Heh.. New comers as in new students as in my junior (ehehh..) yg baru habis spm hari tu baru register kelmarin. Kire diorang dpt scholarship based on their trials and dpt belajar kat sini. Lucky them! They are the first batch to do 18months A-level programme. Anyway, hari tu dah dpt rasa yg N@zirul (budak pulun a.k.a 4leper kat Langkawi dulu. Huhu..) sure ade among them. Tapi hari tu Mal cite die ade kat Taylors under Petronas. So I was like “ooo..ok..so mesti la die tak pegi kyu3m kan..”. So ok je la.. Lepastu kan, the day before diorang register, I don’t know why tapi mmg rase sgt N@zirul akan ade. Tak taula what made me think of that nonsense yg tak sepatutnye dipirkan sebab byk lagi bende nak pikir tp mmg boleh rase la aura N@zirul tu. Huhu.. Lepastu kan….

Huhu..suspen..

Masa malam manifesto tu, I went quite early to the hall. Time tu budak2 tu baru register pagi tu so diorang pun kene pegi hall jugak. And on the way tu, tgh jalan nak pegi hall, ade la 2 orang junior laki jalan kat belakang. Tak tahu la kenapa tapi sepanjang2 jalan pegi hall tu, rase mcm kuat gile aura budak tu. Bila dah smpai hall, rase mcm ‘Ish..rase mcm N@zirul ade je kat kolej ni’. Paling2 belakang, terkejut beruk nampak muke die. Rase nak pengsan pun ade. Hahahaha.. Lawak gile. Tegur la die. Hampeh die buleh tak ingat muke suci dan comel senior sorang ni!!!!! Sabar je la. So borak2 laa ngan die. Die under Bank Negara buat ape tah, financial engineering kot. Tak tahu laa..

So, tu la crite die. Heh.. So tengah rase cuak la ni. Tak tahu ape. Hhuhu..

Whatever laa.. I really need to do some revision la. Uish… FOCUS, DINA. FOCUS!!

Be like a bird.. It flies because it knows it could..

I follow the night
Can't stand the light
When will I begin to live again

One day I'll fly away
Leave all this to yesterday
What more could your love do for me
When will love be through with me
Why live life from dream to dream
And dread the day when dreaming ends

One day I'll fly away
Leave all this to yesterday
Why live life from dream to dream
And dread the day when dreaming ends

One day I'll fly away
Fly fly away...

..from this la-la land..to another world..into a reality..into an actuality..into a certainty where nothing can be left without..i've been dreaming in fantasy for too long..and now i realise, everything and everyone is meant to be special..and you are special in your own way..and i, for sure, am special with my own style..i know i can't get everything i want..but at least i've tasted a bit of it..and only God knows how sweet and unforgettable it was which I doubt I would ever get the chance to taste it again..why live life from dream to dream..and dread the day..when dreaming....ENDS..

Lyrics: I'll fly away..
Artist: Nicole Kidman
OST: Moulin Rouge

Hekyah!

Nak poyo jap k ;p Ermm..kecuakan yg semakin mengganas. Malam ni baru nak buat text for manifesto. Bila? Yep, ESOK beb!! Hahaha... Lawak la pulak bila pikir2 balik nak run SC. Tahpape je. Haha.. One of the candidates has withdrawn himself from the list and this gives 3 candidates left running for the sports exco. Kinda tough. You can't really tell who will win. Not just for the exco I'm running for but for the whole SC members for that matter. Surprisingly, 5 candidates have withdrawn themselves from the list. I was quite surprised when I heard about this news. Five is quite a lot. Not sure why they step down.

The thing is, whoever wins the election will be going to Bukit Tinggi this weekend for a course or training or whatever they call it. And coincidentally this weekend happens to be a public holiday which means I can go home!!!! Tapi kalau menang tak boleh la kot kan. Heh.. And then, this weekend as well, on Sunday to be exact, will be held a chemistry trip to Petrosains, KLCC. I have given my name to Mr. Zabed but if I happened to go to B.Tggi, I will not be able to make it. Even if I lose the election, I might not go as well sebab nak balik. Rindu sangat kat Nazme! Hehe..

Anyways, I've been feeling very happy this few days. First, because I have a new sweetheart! Can't believe I have finally gotten him. Yes, I possess him! Can't help myself but spend most of time with him. Can't believe I've finally met someone who understands how much my possession is towards him. I swore to myself, no matter what, I will always be beside him. And take as much care as possible of him. I will not, I repeat, WILL NOT ever let him go. I will never let other people take him from me. He's my passion. He's my love. Oh, my olympus sp350. I love you so much, sweetheart!!

Second, because somebody has brighten up my day :) No no, it's a real human la. Not a camera anymore. Heh.. I really hope this friendship remains forever. Bak kata thirah, 'It's in the air, Dina!'. What's in the air you ask?

Come closer...

PSSSTTTT...

It's a secret ;p You'll figure it out someday somehow :)

Wish me luck for my manifesto tomorrow yea! To be honest, I could feel the auro of losing. Heh heh.. But what the heck, I'll try my best!

P/S: A very big thanks to uncle saiful for the video :) Kalau menang memang uncle saiful ar penyelamat dunia! Haha.. And also to Lupi, Abg Amir and Afar for their support. Yep, just be myself and show my true potential. Thanx guys :)

My first step towards my passion

It’s already 3rd of Feb and I’m going back to college in 2 days’ time. I’m not sure why but I feel something not good inside. Something that has never been sweet to taste. Maybe because of the thought of unprepared manifesto or maybe because of the thought of thriving for 3 AS papers in June or maybe because of the vague notion of where my life would be led to after this. So many things popped up surreptitiously in my head lately, trying to steal as much space as they can. Ignorance takes place most of the times but still, it takes me a lot of willpower to stay calm.

Anid asked me something hari tu ‘Dina, how can you write so much stuff in your blog? I’ve never had enough things to say in mine. Semua aku punye entry boring.’ ‘Hmm..never thought of it. Maybe because I express myself better in words rather than speak things out’ replied me. Or maybe because I want to be a good blogger one day, like pak kojer. Berjaya ke tak, that’s a secondary matter. Yang penting, the intention is there. So I practice to be like one. But of course, everything I write is nonsense. But wut the heck, I enjoy writing junk. And pretty good at it too ;p

Went to Alamanda with mum and dad the other day. Have been contemplating to treat myself a brand new camera. Ahem.. I saw this one cool Olympus. I don’t call it cool unless it makes me eager to possess it. And the price is as cool as it is too :) Told mum and dad about it. They said, why don’t I just wait till next year and get a new one before I fly overseas. Lagipun time tu baru boleh claim duit insurance. I was like ‘Tapi dina perlu sekarang (yea rite. Haha..) lagipun dina nak masuk photography club (Yep..just wait n see if Mr. Fo0rd allows me to join the club before the next registration)’. ‘But it’s 1.7k!’ … Dina terkedu. Heh.. ‘Tak kiraa!! Nak jugak!!!!’ a slow and unconscious voice raced through the back of my head. ‘Suka hati laa..’ was a definite final answer from mum and dad.

Through out my way back home, I tried to make a decision as best as I could. Considering the price and its importance for the time being, I knew it’s not the best idea to get me one. I know, this is the time for me to start learning on financial management and spending such amount of money just for a camera which I don’t think would need to be so canggih and mechanical is the best attempt I could take. For the mo, I’m still dithering over the cool one and this one. My heart says ‘take the cool one!’ but my oh-so-canny mind says ‘pick the latter. It’s just a waste of money if you take the former. Bukan ada banyak beza pun.’. Haih..

What ever it is, I’m still gonna get a camera no matter which one I pick. At the end of the day, my ever boosting photoshop skill plays the role. Heh heh..

Oh by the way, abang norman just bought his new car. And the super-duper cool thing ever is, it's a bmw. Hah hah hah hah! I'm so glad he bought one. Bleh pinjam melepaskan perasaan. New hot stuff always gives me a real thrill. Hehe..

Seperti biase, here's my daily dosage ;) Ok la nak tido. Dah nak dekat pukul 230. Till then guys. Have a nice weekends.

Let Allah decide

I sat staring out of the window as if in trance. My laptop laid idly on the desk; waiting for my attention. I missed someone. The chat we had before sounded as if it was the last time we had before he fly off to UK this september. 'Let it be' I said to myself. The creaky hinge of the door brought me round. 'Oi, berangan!' anid's voice broke the silence air. I threw my face onto the monitor. 'Takde ah..tengah buat econs assignment' I tried to change the mood. Anid jumped onto the bed, trying to strike up an interesting conversation with me.

'Dina, ko suka tak nama adam?' she asked me. I smiled to myself 'Suka'. 'Apsal ko tanye?' I replied. 'Nanti aku nak namekan nama anak aku adam ah' her laughter unlocked my happy mode. 'Aku pun laa. Haha..' and the conversation carried on till midnight.

And then just now, I stumbled upon this blogsite. It touched my sensitive heart, made me feel like crying. I could feel the lost. I could feel the sorrow. It made me think that every people that we love might not be beside us all the time. Some might go first because Allah loves them more. It made me call to mind what he said the other day 'Berserah sajalah kepada Allah. Allah Maha Mengetahui dan Dia tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kita. Kalau Allah tak kabulkan apa yg kita mahu, redha sahajalah dengan ketentuanNya. InsyaAllah Dia kabulkan doa kita pada waktu lain dgn sesuatu yg lebih baik atau dengan cara yang lebih baik. InsyaAllah..'

Before the eyes close

While I’m typing this, the clock shows at 3. My eyes actually command a rest but the temptation of getting a new template seems quite overwhelming. Heh.. I like the header. That’s the only reason why I change everything though ;p

I had reached home several days ago. I would have wanted to post about the triumph of the ICAN but still waiting for Imran for the pictures and videos. You should see the pictures, I tell ya. Kewl gile! Heh.. The best part of all is, it was said to be outstanding and stupendous *clap clap* but yea, everything would not turn out so without each and every person involved so I really2 thankful for having such helpful, cooperative and supportive colleagues. And not to forget the devoted and committed mr. director and the co-directors. Now, I started to appreciate each and every single tick we spent together to make ICAN a success. Kinda miss the moments though :)

Anyways, there has been a rising crescendo of excitement in the family lately. Nazme has finally got a little sister :)))))) Cumel sangat macam Mak Na!! Haha.. Along Ima has been admitted to hospital since a couple of days ago and alhamdulillah, the operation went out well. Well, starting out, she had stage four placenta privera (low lying placenta which blocks the way out of the baby) so no choice she had, caesarean was the only option. And the due date is supposedly to be next week but since the contraction had started to rev up, the gynaecologist suggested to carry out the operation as soon as possible to avoid excess bleeding and alhamdulillah everything is ok now. The baby is doing fine as well. She’ll be discharged tomorrow noon.

That is all for now I guess. Ngantuk gelaa.. Heh.. Till then. Happy Chinese New Year to all Chinese out there. Have a nice holidays :)

For Once..

For once, I want to believe that there is still a glimmer of hope.
For once, I want to believe that there is something waiting for us ahead.
For once, I want to believe that distance and silence are the key of everything.
For once, I want to believe that your laughter beautifies my day.
For once, I want to believe that your smiles are only meant for me, to keep my heart alive.
For once, I want to believe that we are meant for each other.
For once, I want to believe that our paths lead to the same destiny.
For once, I want to believe that every effort you have put in our friendship is what you enjoy doing the most.
For once, I want to believe that you are the source of the solid strength within me.
For once, I want to believe that you are the miracle that God has sent to me.
For once, I want to believe that you are the person I treasure the most.
For once, I want to believe that knowing you revive my sleeping devotion.
For once, I want to believe that you are my best friend whose spirit never dies.
For once, I want to believe that our friendship goes strong until the end.
For once, I want to believe that you are the one who will give me your hand that I may grasp it and keep my feet from stumbling.
For once, I want to believe that you are the most valuable thing ever happened to me.
For once, I want to believe that The Almighty God hears my voice, my prayers when I asked Him to send me a friend who will help and guide me through out this life; and it is you.
For once, I want to believe that this farewell is the beginning of everything.
For once, I want to believe that no matter how hard and tough my life would be without you, I will always sense your presence beside.
For once, I want to believe that we will meet again, after a lapse of years.
For once, I want to believe that you are the one.
For once, I want to believe everything.

But I can’t. It’s just UNBELIEVEABLE.
It is now the time for you to go.
And the time for me to find my bearings.
May the road rise up to meet you
May the wind be ever at your back.
May the sun shine warm upon your face
And the rain fall softly on your fields.
And until we meet again, may God holds you in the hollow of His hand.
You will always be a part of me.
Thank you for everything.

Love you always,
Dina :)

Luahan Perasaan I

Siapa kata dina tak jiwang? Dina boleh jugak jiwang pe. Hebat gak ;p Actually, emosi sekarang tengah sangat tak stabil. Not just because of ican, but because of every single thing and every single one. Nak ber'speakong' pun takde mood ah. Nak jiwang elok gune bahse melayu ;p

Alhamdulillah, everything went out well. tomorrow would be the last day of ican. The female co-director had just gone back home just now due to some appointments she has to make tomorrow so she indirectly put her trust in me and some other ican high-comm to make sure the closing ceremony tomorrow will go smooth. Personally, aku rase sangat sedih sebab ican dah nak habis. After putting so much effort in it since a couple of months before, now it's approaching its end. Kalau nak luahkan perasaan pasal ican memang mengambil masa yang agak panjang so why don't we keep it for another entry later on ok?

Ok, so here comes the story. Malam ni dah masuk 5hari aku tido lambat gile. One whole day memang sangat pack. Be it for ican or for studies, memang sangat bz. Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to complain or anything, just want to create the idea. So, logically memang sangat penat dah letih. So tadi ada Lailatunnisa' and mmg dah lelong gile babeng ah kat dewan tadi. Ceremony ended around 1115pm so mesti la lepas tu nak kene kemas dewan and uruskan itu ini. My brain was at its slowest pace and mmg dah takde mood gile. Tapi sebab pikir pasal tanggungjawab and amanah yg orang bagi so tak boleh la nak buat bodo and terus balik.

Tengah kemas2 tu, my friend gave me a buzz, asking me to bring along some stuff she left in the hall and I said no problem, I'll bring them back. And then teruskan kemas, tiba2 ade this one lady datang 'Dina, I'm in a hurry. Esok aku ade test. Satu ape pun tak bace. Aku balik dulu ok?' I was like 'Hellllllllllllloooo!! Aku ade test gak wei!' tapi tak la, dalam penat2 and takde mood tu, aku cuba jugak lemparkan senyuman. 'It's ok. Aku boleh tolong kemaskan nanti.' And so she left me.....V.E.R.Y. D.I.S.A.P.P.O.I.N.T.E.D. Why? Because she's one of the high-comm jugak but she just left everything to other people. Seriously, kalau tak dina seorang yg tabah (nak naikkan semangat balik ni! Hahahahaha) memang dah lame nangis. Tapi tak la, tak macho la nangis ;p

Lepastu kemas la dewan. Yang lain2 tolong jugak la so it was not such a hussle sangat la. Dah habis kemas2 tu, balik ah, dalam kepenatan, kerisauan sebab esok ada maths test (yet I'm still typing this! Shoot me!), kengantukan yg teramat sangat, berduka lara, kecewa dan sebagainya. Dah ar dewan ngan chalet aku mcm 10batu jalan. Ok, I'm exaggerating tapi mmg sangat penat la. Dah ar mmg lemah longlai gile. Dah sampai chalet, siap tukar baju semua (time tu around 12malam gak ar) tiba2, 'Alamak, lupe nak bawak balik barang!! (the one that my friend asked me to bring back). Shite!!'. So tukar la baju balik and sanggup jugak ar nak jalan balik pegi dewan. Tiba2 teringat kat dewan tu ada beberapa kawan lain so suruh diorang bawakkan balik je la.

10mins after that, kawan yg ada kat dewan tu call. 'Dina! Sorry sangat2. Aku telupa nak bawak balik! Aku dah sampai chalet ni!' Tak tahu apsal tapi rase frustrated gile time tu. Kalau ikutkan hati mmg aku sanggup pegi dewan and ambik barang tu. Tapi dah pukul 12lebih kot. So dengan perasaan yang sungguh kecewa dan bersalah, aku sms member yg tetinggal barang tu. Tak berani nak call sebab rasa bersalah gile. Tak tahu ar kenape tapi memang sangat frust ah. Dah ar memang tengah disappointed dengan the lady yang sungguh rajin tu. Time tu mmg down gile. Maybe sebab letih kot. So nak tenangkan hati, pegi la ambik wudhu'. Memang tak solat Isyak lagi pun sebab tak sempat, majlis start lepas maghrib. Time tu memang rase cam nak nangis gile. Rase mcm...'Aargh! Tensyennye..!' tapi time solat takde la mengamuk sorang2 kan. Heh.. Tiba2...

Ade orang ketuk pintu chalet. 'Dina! Your barang ada kat sini! I left it here ok!' Time tu tengah solat, rasa sayu gile sebab Allah macam memahami perasaan aku yang memang nak pegi ambik barang tu tapi tak kesampaian. Allah je la tahu betapa aku memang ikhlas and sanggup buat ape je utk ambik barang tu. Lepas solat tu rase relief gile. Tiba2 terasa macam semangat balik and terus tak ngantuk. Sebab tu boleh tulis bende merepek ni lagi. Haha.. Actually nak cakap jugak ar pasal 'benda2' ni tapi next time la kot.

So kesimpulannye, kalau kita nak buat sesuatu ikhlas kerana Allah, insyaAllah Allah akan tolong kita balik. Cukupla kalau kita percaya tu, insyaAllah semua urusan kita dipermudahkan. Hmm..tu je kot. Dah nak dekat kol 1 ni. Better sign off. Wish me luck for the test tomorrow. Akum!